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1. Catastrophically, Devastatingly Right by rrunnbulletproof (rrunbulletproof)

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   20 May 2026

   Tags

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   • Dan Howell & Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Depression
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Ambiguous Relationships
   • Friends to Lovers
   • Mutual Pining
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Panic Attacks
   • Self-Loathing Dan Howell
   • Crying
   • Cuddling & Snuggling
   • Gentle Kissing
   • Protective Phil Lester
   • Dan Howell Loves Phil Lester
   • 2009 Era (Phandom)
   • Dan Howell Needs A Hug
   • Phil Lester Is A Sweetheart
   • Touch-Starved Dan Howell
   • Emotional Intimacy
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Slow Burn
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester Comfort
   • Lots of Crying
   • they're basically dating
   • Phil Lester to the Rescue
   • Dan Howell is one bad day away from spontaneously combusting
   • Eventual first "i love you"s
   • mentions of vomit

   Summary

   “Oh, Dan…” Phil sighed empathetically, already kicking off his shoes and crossing the room.

   “No, I- I haven’t showered,” Dan stammered weakly, shaking his head and desperately attempting to mask the instability in his voice.

   “Or brushed my teeth. I’m- I’m so gross right now Phil, please, I-”

   Anything to make Phil leave. To spare him this. To give him an out.

   “I don’t care,” Phil shrugged like he couldn’t care less as he approached the bed, leaving no room for arguments.

   Worthless. He was worthless.

    

   OR it’s 2009, Dan is deep in the trenches and trying his absolute hardest to spiral alone, but his safely-undefined-more-than-just-a-best-friend Phil refuses to let him pull away long enough to disappear into himself.

   Series

   • Part 1 of Finding The Words For It

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