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I want to learn to love again. But how can I do that when I don't even love myself? by Sofatoshi
Fandoms: Blue Lock (Manga), Blue Lock (Anime)
22 May 2026
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There are things Sae never says out loud. Like how some nights, he still feels hands that weren’t his. How warmth once meant vulnerability—and vulnerability meant losing something he didn’t know could be taken. He was too young to understand it then—what it meant, what it did, what it stole. But now, he feels it everywhere. In the way he avoids mirrors. In the way he stiffens when someone walks too close. In the way his skin never quite feels like it belongs to him. He remembers what it’s like to be powerless. To be used. To flinch and pretend he didn’t. Kindness doesn’t come easy anymore. But he’s learning. Slowly. Painfully. Shidou doesn’t ask questions. He just stays—loud, steady, present—again and again, until Sae stops bracing for the worst. And maybe, in the spaces between silence and touch, Sae learns what it feels like to be safe. Maybe, even, what it means to be loved.
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