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“I’m home!”
Saki’s voice echoed through the house, it was silent, of course it was, saki came back from practice quite late, and Tsukasa was probably sleeping
And yet… something felt… off
But saki ignores the feeling, maybe she just needed to get some rest! That was it!
Her hand reached for a glass of water, carefully making her way to the kitchen sink and filling it up
She eyed the counters of the kitchen for a moment, it’s something she had always done, she just liked to look around her surroundings while drinking water, silly saki stuff
The candy counter then the one where all the dishes were, but the medicine counter caught her attention, she could swear there was a bottle missing
Strange… really
But she dismissed it, she was probably imagining things, the cold glass made contact with her lips and she simply drank the water inside of it
Her footsteps echoed trough the wood of the floor as she walked up the stairs, even if she tried to be as quiet as possible
She was halfway to her bedroom, and yet she stopped in Tsukasa’s
He seemed so calm
Saki’s lips curled into a soft smile seeing him like that, he always seemed focused in the next wonderlands x showtime performance, she was simply glad he was relaxing
Once again the wood rumbled under Saki’s feet while she approached Tsukasa, her hands reaching to brush his hair off his face
His skin was cold
A shiver ran down her spine
Tsukasa was always warm, he was simply like that
Maybe he was just cold
She tried to not overthink it too much
until she saw the pill bottle on Tsukasa’s desk
she eyed she rest of the room, next to the bottle there was a note, there were some blades, she finally realized
so she pulled up Tsukasa’s sleeve
And her heart stopped
The sound of crystal breaking echoed trough the entire house, as her grip on the glass of water weakened
She quickly hurried to cradle her brother
This can’t be hapening
this isn’t right
this isn’t real… right?
but it was
”Tsu- Tsukasa are you okay?” No response
”Tsukasa?” No response
”TSUKASA!!!”
Saki didn’t even know she could scream that hard, but it was enough to alert Leo/need, who had stopped in a nearby convenience store a few minutes after dropping saki off
Saki could feel her heart pounding as tears flowed down her cheeks
This isn’t real
This isn’t real
This isn’t real
This is just a dream
Her vision blurred as she saw Honami trying to check her brother’s vitals
As shiho struggled to dial 911 and explain the situation
As she felt ichika rub circles in her back
This isn’t real
Is this what her brother had to go trough every time she got sick?
every time she had to return to the hospital?
Saki hated that
Her brother didn’t deserve this
Maybe if she hadn’t left for band practice her brother would have…
Saki‘a eyes wandered around she scene as she chugged another glass of cold water, the ambulance taking her brother away, the medics asking questions to everyone
”You’ll get trough this saki”
Those words from Ichika ran trough her head, causing her to choke a bit on her water
She hated all of this
She just wanted it to be over once and for all
“Suicide”
That was the word the doctor used to describe her brother’s situation
“I understand”
but she didn’t
Why?
Why?
for the millionth time of that day, the tears started flowing, and she just broke down on the waiting room, the sterile ambient of the hospital made her uncomfortable , no, she absolutely hated it with all of her being
she saw the gauze on her feet, as she has stepped on a shard of glass without noticing
She saw how the members of wonderlands x showtime rushed into the hospital after hearing the news and practically broke down crying one by one
And she remembered how cold Tsukasa was
How dead his eyes looked
And how it was her fault
She hated hospitals, she hated all of this, and for some reason she also hated cold late night glasses of water too