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1. I Could Think About It by Ace_of_spades9

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   30 May 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Original Children of Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Ilya Rozanov Misses Irina Rozanova
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Drug Abuse
   • Drug Addiction
   • Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander Loves Ilya Rozanov
   • Kid Fic
   • Career Ending Injuries
   • Emotional Baggage
   • Childhood Memories
   • Repressed Memories
   • Forced Retirement
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • drug overdose
   • Overdosing

   Summary

   Ilya is forced to retire and he still isn't over his childhood trauma. With all of the extra free time he is forced to sit alone with his thoughts while no longer having any of his old coping mechanisms to regulate himself. Due to his injury he falls back onto his pain meds as a crutch to quiet the noise in his brain.

   or Ilya now has to live with the fact that his six-year-old daughter found him just like he found his own mother when he was twelve.

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   English

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