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It was another hard day for Mika. He had left his shared dorm with Ritsu and went to the Yumenosaki Academy. He was bullied and beaten up there the whole time by some popular boys in the sports club. He was already exhausted mentally and physically but he still went to his part time job. He needed to work harder and get more money since the bullies were stealing his money everyday. He was exhausted in the end of his job and he dragged himself back to the Seisukan Apartment and Arashi saw him while he was going to his dorm.
”Mika-chan , wait!” She said as she quickly catch up at him. “You don’t look okay, Mika-chan! What happened?!” She asked nervously.
Mika was startled by the sudden appearance of Arashi as he straightened himself up to look more alive. “Uhm, I’m okay, Naru-chan. Ya don’ hafta worry about me.” He said with a forced smile.
”That’s not really convincing and you know that Mika-chan. Please talk to me.” She said with a worried tone.
”I’m jus’ tired… It was an eventful day.”
”Please don’t go too hard on yourself, Mika-chan… I will let you go this time but don’t forget I’m here to listen and help you, okay?”
”I ‘now Naru-chan. Goodnight!” Mika said as he quickly walked towards his dorm.
He reached his dorm and unlocked the door and stepped inside. The first thing he saw was Ritsu sleeping on his own bed under the covers. Mika let out a sigh as he dropped his bag next to his bed and secretly grabbed his vibrator from his clothe drawer. He glanced at Ritsu again and he was fast asleep like usual. Mika quietly walked to the bathroom and locked the door after him. He had thought about calling Shu before but he didn’t want to busy him since it was still early in France and Shu would be working at this hour.
Mika stood in front of the bathroom mirror as he stared at himself for a while. He hated the way he looked. Especially his mismatched eyes. Tears stung his eyes but he didn’t let them fall. He looked away from the mirror as his grip tightened around his toy. It was his time to relax now, not cry. He threw off his clothes and opened the shower water at the hottest. He stepped under the hot relaxing water and sighed. He hesitantly reached down with his vibrator in his hand and he pushed it in and activated with a gasp of pleasure. He leaned against the wall as he remembered how messed up he was. The pleasure was forgotten in seconds as his self loathing thought win over. It all felt too much.