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Azriel was worried. Gwyn could tell that by the way his brows furrowed and he wouldn’t stop comparing the two maps in front of him on the table. 

The House of Wind's dining room buzzed with the familiar sounds of breakfast. Cassian was arguing with Nesta over something trivial, Feyre was laughing at Nyx attempting to feed toast to a particularly unimpressed shadow, and Rhysand sat at the head of the table looking far too pleased with himself for someone who had not yet consumed any caffeine.

Yet Azriel remained silent, one hand rested against the table while the other traced the edge of a folded map.

Gwyn nudged his shoulder. "What is it?" His hazel eyes lifted to hers, immediately softening. There it was- the look he only ever gave her. The one that always made her stomach flutter despite how long they had been together.

"Nothing."

"Liar." A ghost of a smile touched his mouth.

"There's a problem in the Dawn Court." 

Cassian groaned dramatically. "There is always a problem in the Dawn Court."

"It's serious enough that Rhys wants someone there."

Rhys lifted his cup. "I never said wanted."

"You implied it."

"I heavily implied it." Gwyn rolled her eyes. The conversation continued around them, but she watched Azriel carefully. His shoulders were tense. Not anxious, or worried, just focused in the way he usually was only before he left on a mission. 

"How long?" she asked quietly. Azriel's gaze shifted back to her.

"A few weeks." A few weeks. It should not have bothered her. He disappeared for longer than that sometimes, but something about this assignment felt different.

Perhaps because they had finally settled into something comfortable, something real. They had never been a couple who flaunted their relationship. The Inner Circle knew. The priestesses knew. Half of Velaris knew, despite their efforts to keep things private.

But Azriel was not the sort of male who draped himself across his partner in public. His affection lived in smaller things. Like a hand pressed against her back, tea already prepared exactly how she liked it, or his shadows delivering books to her room when she mentioned wanting to read them.

The thought of weeks apart suddenly felt unbearable to her.  Apparently, Rhys noticed.

The High Lord leaned back in his chair. "You can bring Gwyn." The room went silent. Gwyn blinked and, beside her,  Azriel looked equally surprised. Rhys shrugged. "The negotiations involve several libraries and historical archives. Dawn Court scholars have been asking for help cataloging ancient texts."

Feyre's smile widened. "That sounds perfect for Gwyn."

"It does," Rhys agreed. 

Cassian groaned., "Why do they get a romantic trip while I get stabbed every other week?"

Nesta took a sip of tea. "Because nobody wants to spend weeks trapped in a library with you." The resulting argument nearly shook the room apart, but Gwyn barely heard it. She was too busy watching Azriel.

A small smile had appeared. One of those real ones that belonged only to her.

"Would you like to come?" he asked. As if there were any possibility she would say no.

The journey began six days later. For the first week, everything was perfect, almost suspiciously perfect. They traveled mostly alone, stopping at small villages and trading posts along the route. For once, Azriel was not acting as spymaster. Not entirely, anyway. There were meetings planned, reports to gather, political matters to discuss. But for long stretches, they simply existed together.

Gwyn discovered that Azriel secretly loved terrible roadside pastries. Azriel discovered that Gwyn could somehow become friends with absolutely anyone within five minutes. One evening, after a long day of travel, they sat beside a river watching the sunset. Gwyn rested against him while his wings stretched across the grass behind them. Neither spoke and the silence felt easy. Comfortable.

"I could get used to this," Gwyn admitted.

Azriel pressed a kiss to her hair. "Me too."

She tilted her head back. "You know what I mean." His eyes met hers. The future. The possibility neither of them talked about very often. For a long moment he said nothing. Then his hand found hers.

"I know." That was all, yet somehow it meant everything.

The attack came three nights before they were meant to arrive in the Dawn Court. Gwyn woke to the sound of splintering wood and their room suddenly filling with the candle light from the hall. 

For a brief, disorienting moment, she thought she was dreaming. Then the door to their inn room exploded inward and instinct took over before conscious thought could catch up. She rolled from the bed, already reaching for the dagger she kept beneath her pillow.

Azriel was moving before she had even gained her footing, his shadows flooded the room like living darkness. Steel flashed and someone screamed. The narrow chamber became a battlefield in seconds.

There were too many of them. That was Gwyn's first coherent thought. Too many attackers. Too organized. Too prepared. This was not a robbery. This was an ambush. An arrow shattered against the wall beside her head. Another male lunged from the doorway, only to be met by Truth-Teller. Blood sprayed across the floorboards.

Azriel cut through them with terrifying efficiency, his wings filling half the room as he positioned himself between Gwyn and every threat. Shadows wrapped around enemies' throats. Daggers found hearts. Bodies fell amd still more came. They poured into the room as though someone had planned for every possibility.

"Stay close to me," Azriel barked, not looking away from the fight in front of him. Gwyn did not waste breath arguing. She fought beside him, using every lesson he had ever drilled into her during years of training. Duck. Strike. Move. Never stop moving.

For several minutes, it almost seemed as though they might survive it, then someone shouted from the hallway. A burst of blue light streaked through the doorway and Azriel turned toward the threat. The spell struck the side of his head. The sound it made was sickening; a crack that seemed to echo through the room.

Azriel froze just for a heartbeat. His eyes went unfocused and Truth-Teller slipped from his fingers as the shadowsinger collapsed.

"Gwyn!" His voice sounded distant, confused, wrong. She lunged toward him, but strong hands caught her around the waist. Another pair seized her wrists. She kicked hard enough to break someone's nose. A third male wrapped an arm around her throat. She bit him and he howled. Biut sttill they dragged her away.

"No!" she screamed, trying to reach Az.  Azriel was trying to rise, trying and failing to reach her, crawling just towards the sound of her voice as blood poured from the side of his head. His gaze searched frantically for her. Then another spell struck him ad the last thing Gwyn saw was Azriel crumpling motionless to the floor.

The last thing she heard was herself screaming his name.

When Azriel finally opened his eyes, pain greeted him first. A brutal, pounding agony that felt as though someone had driven a spike through his skull. He groaned and the sound immediately drew movement from somewhere nearby.

"Az?" Cassian. Azriel recognized his brother’s voice before he managed to focus his vision. Slowly, the room came into view. The House of Wind. His room. Cassian stood from a chair beside the bed so quickly it nearly toppled backward. Relief flashed across his face before he turned toward the doorway.

"Rhys!" Cassian’s yell nearly split Azriel’s head in two and he groaned at the feel.  Footsteps approached. Moments later Rhysand appeared. The High Lord looked exhausted. His clothes were wrinkled; dark circles lingered beneath his eyes. Azriel could not remember the last time he had seen Rhys look so worn down. Something twisted uneasily in his chest.

"What happened?" Rhys and Cassian exchanged a glance.

"You were attacked," Rhys said carefully. Fragments stirred somewhere in Azriel's mind. A road. An inn. Darkness. Then nothing.

"I don't remember."

"That's all right," Rhys replied quickly, shooting another glance at Cassian. It clearly was not alright.  Azriel pushed himself upright and immediately regretted it. Pain exploded through his skull.

"How long?"

"Four days." Something was wrong. Terribly wrong. Because both Rhys and Cassian looked as though they were waiting for him to say something, to ask something. Their expressions held a kind of desperate expectation.

Azriel frowned at them, "What?" Neither male answered. The knot in his stomach tightened. "What happened that night?"

"You tell us," Cassian said quietly.

"I don't know." The words felt inadequate. Humiliating, in some way. The Night Court’s spymaster couldn’t remember his own life.  Azriel pressed a hand against his temple, trying to force the memories into place, but nothing came. Only pain and empty space.

Rhys stepped forward. "Az, do you remember the mission?"

"Bits of it."

"Do you remember leaving Velaris?"

"Yes."

"Traveling south?"

"I think so."

"Do you remember who was with you?"

Azriel blinked. The question caught him off guard.  "With me? I always go on missions alone. Or with Cass, if it’s urgent enough.”  Cassian's face fell. It was clear by that look that he had not joined Az on his mission.  Azriel searched his memories again.

There should have been someone. He knew that instinctively. Someone important? Someone whose absence left an uncomfortable gap he could not explain. Yet when he reached for the memory, all he found was emptiness.

"I don't know." Rhys closed his eyes. Just for a moment, as though bracing himself.

"Azriel," he said carefully, "who is Gwyn?" The name meant nothing. Absolutely nothing. Azriel stared at him. Confusion quickly turned to concern as Rhys's expression shattered. Cassian looked as though he had been punched. The room suddenly felt too small, too quiet.

"Should I know her?" Nobody answered immediately. Rhys looked away. Cassian swore under his breath. And that was when Azriel realized something far worse than memory loss had happened. Someone was missing- someone important. Someone he should have remembered. Someone whose disappearance had hollowed out the people standing before him. Yet no matter how desperately he searched his fractured mind, he could not find them.

They were simply gone. From the world, from his memories.

Three years passed.

Three years of dead ends.

Three years of reports that led nowhere.

Three years of Rhysand calling in favors from every court on the continent and beyond it. Cassian personally hunted slavers across half the world. Mor infiltrated networks that trafficked in stolen servants. Feyre used every contact she possessed. Nothing. It was as though Gwyn had vanished from existence.

Over time, people stopped speaking her name as often. The priestesses still left a place for her at celebrations and Nesta still checked every red-haired female she passed in crowded cities. Rhys never officially closed the search, but after three years, hope became something quieter. Something fragile.

Azriel returned to work after the first few months. At first, everyone had objected. His memories remained fractured despite every healer's efforts. Entire years of his life had been erased, leaving gaps large enough to swallow pieces of who he had once been. Still, he adapted. What choice did he have? The work gave him purpose. Something to focus on besides the strange sensation that his life no longer quite fit him.

Sometimes he would walk through Velaris and experience moments that made no sense. A café would seem familiar despite never remembering entering it. A song drifting from a tavern would trigger an inexplicable ache in his chest. Occasionally, he would wake from dreams filled with laughter he could not place. A female voice. Bright and warm and gone before he could grasp it.

The healers called them memory echoes. Fragments left behind of another person.  Azriel tried not to dwell on them.  There was no point; the past remained stubbornly out of reach.

So he focused on the present instead. On reports. Patrols. Secrets and shadows.  Diplomatic assignments. The endless work of rebuilding stability throughout Prythian, which was precisely why he found himself standing in one of the Night Court's council chambers on a cold autumn afternoon while a particularly unpleasant lord droned on about funding requests.

Azriel hated the male on sight. He couldn’t pinpoint why, the lord simply possessed the kind of face that inspired immediate distrust. His greasy smile never reached his eyes. His fingers glittered with enough jewels to feed a village. And his wife spent most of the meeting complaining.

"...and if we are expected to continue supporting trade routes, we require additional resources." Azriel tried to focus. Tried being the important word. because something about the visiting noble kept setting his shadows on edge.

The lord's wife sighed dramatically. "I need my fan."

The male barely glanced toward the door. "Send for the servant." One of the guards nodded and disappeared and  the conversation resumed. Azriel attempted to pay attention.

Then the door opened and a female entered. At first, he barely looked up. Servants came and went constantly during meetings and this insufferable wife had already called three different ones during this meeting. 

Then his shadows stirred. Not aggressively or defensively. They simply froze. Every one of them. Azriel frowned.

The female's head remained lowered and dirty red hair hung around her face in tangled waves. A thin chain connected iron shackles around her wrists. Bruises darkened exposed skin, h er dress looked more like rags than clothing. The sight made something twist unpleasantly in his stomach, but there was little he could do in this setting to reform servant treatment. He would have to speak to Rhys later. 

The female approached the lord's wife and held out the fan. "Finally," the woman snapped. The servant murmured an apology. Her voice was hoarse. Quite. Broken.

Then she glanced up and everything stopped. The fan slipped from her fingers and struck the floor with a sharp crack. Her eyes widened as she took in Azriel.  For a moment she simply stared asthough she couldn't quite believe what she was seeing.

Then the color drained from her face. "Azriel."

The room fell silent. The name emerged as little more than a whisper, a prayer. A plea. Azriel frowned as the female took a step forward, t ears instantly filled her eyes. Her voice cracked. "You-  you're alive."

The lord looked irritated. "Girl." She ignored him completely, her entire focus remained fixed on Azriel. Disbelief gave way to desperate hope. The kind of hope that hurt to witness.

"Azriel." This time his name broke apart on a sob. She lunged forward, but the lord’s guards immediately grabbed her arms. The female fought them with startling ferocity. "Azriel!" Something about the sound of his name sent a strange shiver down his spine. As though he had heard that voice somewhere before. Long ago.

 "Azriel, it's me." Her tears spilled freely now. The guards struggled to restrain her as she fought toward him. "It's me." Azriel stood. The room seemed suddenly too small. Too warm. He had no idea why. The female stared at him with such overwhelming relief and desperation that he felt as though someone had driven a blade directly into his chest.

Yet he did not know her. "Do I know you?" he asked quietly. The words shattered her. Azriel watched the realization strike. Watched hope crack apart behind her eyes.

"No." The single word barely escaped her, barely more than a breath.  "No, no, no..." She shook her head frantically. "You remember me." Her voice rose. "You have to." The guards tightened their grip. The female barely seemed to notice.

"Remember training me." Tears streamed down her face. "Remember the library." Azriel's head began to ache. A strange pressure built behind his eyes, but nothing more. "Remember singing." The pressure intensified. A flash. Copper-red hair. Laughter.

The female saw his expression change. Hope immediately returned. "Yes." She surged forward again. "Azriel, remember the House of Wind."

Another flash. A staircase. Music. Sunlight. Gone.

"Remember our room." His breath caught. Something twisted violently inside his chest. "Remember me." Her voice broke completely. "Please." The room had gone utterly silent. Nobody moved. Nobody spoke.

The female was openly sobbing now. "I looked for you." Her voice trembled. "I tried to get home." Another sob. "I thought you were dead." The words seemed to strike something buried deep inside him. Something locked away. Something desperately trying to claw free. The female took another shaky breath. "Please remember me."

Azriel stared. And hated himself for what came next. Because despite the agony in her eyes. Despite the way every instinct he possessed screamed that she mattered. He still didn't know her.

"I'm sorry." The words emerged barely above a whisper. The female looked as though he'd struck her.

"No." Her voice cracked. "No, Azriel." The guards began dragging her backward. She fought them desperately. "Azriel!" The name echoed through the chamber. "Azriel, please!" His headache exploded.  Images flickered. Too fast. Too fragmented. A smile. Music. Blue eyes. A laugh. Warmth. Gone.

The guards hauled her toward the door. Still she fought, still she screamed his name. And for the first time in three years, Azriel found himself terrified by something he could not understand. Because as the door closed behind her, it felt as though his entire world had just walked out of the room.

The council chamber remained silent long after the doors slammed shut behind her. Azriel could still hear her voice. Please remember me. The words echoed through his skull with painful clarity. He stared at the closed door. Every instinct urged him to move, to follow, to do something.

Yet he remained rooted in place. Because he still did not know why his instincts were warring with each other.  The lord cleared his throat, annoyed at the delay in his request. As though a servant's emotional outburst had merely interrupted an otherwise productive afternoon.

"My apologies for that display." Azriel slowly turned his head. The male offered a thin smile. "She's become rather unstable over the years." Something cold settled in Azriel's stomach.

"Who is she?" The lord waved a dismissive hand.

"No one important." The noble either did not notice or simply did not care. "I purchased her several years ago from a merchant operating near the southern territories."

Every muscle in Azriel's body locked. Purchased. The word scraped across something deep inside him. Wrong. The lord continued speaking.

"She was unusually expensive for a servant, but my wife became attached to her appearance."

Azriel stopped hearing the rest. A pressure had begun building inside his skull, like something trying desperately to break free. Purchased. Years ago. Southern territories. Red hair. Blue eyes. Azriel's breathing became shallow. The lord kept talking.

"...always insisting she belonged somewhere important." A flash. A library filled with sunlight. A female laughing. Music drifting through the stacks. Gone again. Azriel blinked and the image vanished immediately.

The lord chuckled. "Claims she knows the High Lord himself." Another flash. Red hair standing in the training ring, sword raised., defiant smile. Gone. His pulse spiked. The room seemed to tilt. "Quite ridiculous, really."

Another flash. Red hair spread across his pillow. Soft laughter against his throat. Gone. Gone. Gone. Azriel gripped the edge of the table. The wood cracked beneath his hand. The noble finally stopped speaking.

"Lord Azriel?" The world narrowed. Every sound faded. Every face blurred. And suddenly it felt as though a dam had shattered somewhere inside him. The training ring. The library. Music. The House of Wind. A shared bedroom. Her smile. Her voice. The way she looked at him when she thought he wasn't paying attention. A hundred moments.  Years. Years of memories crashed back all at once. Not fragments or echoes. But everything. The force of it nearly dropped him to his knees.

Gwyn. His Gwyn. His mate. His heart. His future.

Gone for three years. Three years. Three years while she had suffered. Three years while she had searched for him. Three years while he had looked directly at her and asked if he knew her. Horror flooded him. Pure, absolute, devastating horror.

The room erupted around him. Someone was saying his name. Azriel barely heard any of it because another memory had surfaced. Not from years ago, but from minutes ago. The look on Gwyn's face when he'd said he didn't know her. The way hope had died in her eyes. The way she had still begged him to remember. Please remember me. The sound nearly broke him.

"Gwyn." His voice came out ragged.

The lord frowned. "Lord Azriel?" Azriel looked at him. Really looked at him, as the Shadowsinger of the night court, and the noble visibly recoiled. Because there was murder in Azriel's eyes.

"Where is she?" The male swallowed. "I assume the guards are returning her to our quarters." Azriel was already moving as the chamber doors exploded outward. Wood splintered and stone cracked as his shadows surged ahead like a living storm.

All he could think about was Gwyn. Alone. Terrified. Believing he had forgotten her. Again.

The hallway echoed with shouting. Azriel rounded a corner so fast that stone shattered beneath his boots. Then he heard it- a cry. A familiar cry that made his heart stop.  

At the far end of the corridor, three guards were dragging Gwyn forward. One of them shoved her hard enough that she stumbled. When she couldn't regain her footing quickly enough, another struck her across the cheek.  The sound echoed through the hall.

For one terrible heartbeat, nobody noticed Azriel. Nobody except Gwyn. She lifted her head and their eyes met. Azriel would remember that look until the day he died.

Not hope. Not relief. Resignation, as though she had already accepted that nobody was coming, as though she had finally stopped believing.

The realization nearly tore him apart. "Gwyn." The single word emerged as a growl. Every head turned. The guards froze. The moment Gwyn heard his voice, truly heard it, confusion flickered across her face. 

Then Azriel moved. His shadows exploded forward. Screams followed. The first guard never even had time to draw his weapon. Darkness wrapped around him. Bone snapped and the body hit the floor.

The second reached for Gwyn; a fatal mistake. Truth-Teller appeared in Azriel's hand. One strike and the male collapsed.

The third attempted to run but only made it three steps before the shadows dragged him backward. The scream ended abruptly and silence fell in the hallway. 

Azriel did not look at the bodies. Did not care. The entire world had narrowed to one trembling female kneeling on the stone floor. Gwyn stared at him. Her eyes wide and unbelieving. The sight nearly shattered him. Slowly, Azriel dropped to his knees in front of her.

"Gwyn." Her breath hitched. The chains around her wrists rattled. For a moment neither of them moved. Neither seemed capable of it. Then Azriel reached for her.

The instant his hands touched her shoulders, Gwyn broke. A sob tore from her throat. She launched herself at him best she could with the chains holding her back and Azriel caught her immediately. He pulled her into his lap, wrapped his arms around her as tightly as he dared.

She buried her face against his neck. Sobbing. Shaking. Clinging to him as though he might disappear. "I thought you were dead." The words dissolved into another sob. "I thought you were dead."

Azriel's own vision blurred and his grip tightened. "I'm here."

Her fingers twisted desperately into his shirt. "I didn't know where I was." Every word came broken and interrupted by tears. "I tried to tell people." Another sob. "I told them who I was." She could barely breathe. "They wouldn't listen."

Azriel closed his eyes. The guilt was unbearable. Nobody believed me. Nobody believed me. The words echoed inside him. Because of course they hadn't. She had been alone. A servant. A slave. A nameless female claiming connections to the Night Court. Who would have believed her?

"Oh, sweetheart." His voice cracked. The endearment seemed to break something inside her. Fresh tears spilled down her face. Azriel pressed trembling kisses into her hair. Her forehead. Anywhere he could reach. "I'm sorry." The words emerged immediately. Instinctively. "I'm sorry." 

She shook her head against his shoulder. Azriel tightened his hold. "No." His voice grew rough, desperate. "I need you to hear me." Gwyn finally looked up, her face streaked with tears. Bruised. Far too thin. Mother above what had they done to her? Azriel cupped her face.

"I remember." The words broke apart. "I remember everything." Gwyn froze. Every breath stopped. “When I woke up at that inn, I didn’t remember you. Or the attack. I forgot the last few years of my life. They told me about you, Cass and Rhys never stopped looking. 

A sob escaped her. Gwyn stared at him.\ Then her hands came up, shaking and gentle, as though she was afraid touching him too firmly might make him disappear. When her fingers touched his face, Azriel nearly broke.

Three years. Three years she had suffered.  Three years she had waited. "I'm sorry," he whispered again. Gwyn's expression crumpled. “I am sorry we couldn’t find you.” And then she kissed him and Azriel kissed her back immediately, one hand cradling the back of her head, the other wrapped around her waist. Holding her as close as physically possible.

As though he could somehow make up for three years apart by refusing to let even an inch remain between them. When they finally pulled apart, both were crying. Neither seemed remotely embarrassed by it.

Azriel rested his forehead against hers. "You are never leaving my sight again." A watery laugh escaped her. The first genuine sound of happiness he had heard from her. And Mother help anyone who tried to take her from him now..

The flight home was silent. Not uncomfortable or strained, simply quiet in the way that followed devastation. Azriel had called in his brothers immediately. 

Rhys had opened a portal before anyone could protest. The lord who had owned Gwyn had been arrested before sunset, along with every member of his household who had participated in her abuse. Cassian had volunteered to oversee the interrogations personally and the look on his face suggested nobody would enjoy the experience. Azriel could not bring himself to care.

The only thing that mattered was the female curled against his chest. Even now, safely wrapped in his arms as they crossed through the portal, Gwyn kept one hand fisted tightly in his shirt as though she was afraid he might vanish if she let go.

The moment they stepped into the House of Wind, chaos erupted. Someone gasped and a cup shattered against the floor, then Nesta Archeron was moving. For perhaps the first time in her life, she looked completely stunned. 

"Gwyn?" The word emerged as a whisper, a broken thing. Gwyn's head lifted from Azriel's shoulder. For a moment, neither female moved. Three years. Three years of uncertainty. Three years of grief. Then Gwyn smiled.

Nesta crossed the room in seconds, nearly colliding with them. Then she wrapped Gwyn in a crushing embrace. The priestess immediately burst into tears as she was sandwiched between her best friend and her mate, who refused to let go. 

The sight was so unexpected that everyone froze. Because Nesta Archeron did not cry, yet here she was, holding Gwyn so tightly it looked painful.

Then Emerie appeared. Then Feyre. Then Mor. The room exploded into movement. Questions. Tears. Disbelief. Relief.

For several minutes Gwyn disappeared entirely beneath a pile of people who loved her with Azriel in the middle, never letting go. Every time she smiled, he felt something inside his chest crack. His shadows curled restlessly around him. Guilt remained an ugly thing. Because every bruise was proof of what had happened while he remembered nothing.

A hand landed on his shoulder. Rhys. The High Lord stood beside him silently for several moments. Watching Gwyn laugh weakly at something Emerie said. Watching her cry again when Feyre hugged her. Watching the priestesses who had happened to be visiting begin openly weeping.

Home. After three years, she was finally home. "You got her back."

Azriel swallowed and his voice came out rough. "I should have found her sooner."

Rhys was quiet. When he finally spoke, there was no judgment in his voice. "No." Azriel looked at him. Rhys's violet eyes remained fixed on Gwyn. "You brought her home." 

The distinction hit harder than it should have. Because Rhys understood. The guilt. The helplessness. The years lost. Nothing could change those things. Nothing could give them back.

But Gwyn was here. Alive.

Madja arrived less than an hour later and  Gwyn endured the examination with remarkable patience. Though Azriel noticed she never once let him move farther than arm's reach away.

If he shifted across the room, her gaze followed. If someone blocked her view of him, she became visibly tense. Madja noticed it too, but the healer smiled gently. "You can sit beside her." Azriel was already moving before she finished speaking. Gwyn immediately relaxed. The change was so obvious it made his throat tighten.

Madja's expression softened. The examination revealed exactly what everyone had feared. Malnutrition. Old injuries. Scars. Evidence of years spent being treated as less than a person.

Each discovery chipped away another piece of Azriel's self-control. By the end, his hands were shaking. Madja eventually finished and the room remained silent. Nobody quite knew what to say.

Finally, Gwyn cleared her throat. "So." Everyone looked at her. A faint smile appeared. "Did I miss anything important?" The tension shattered as Cassian barked out a laugh. Feyre groaned and Nesta rolled her eyes. Within seconds everyone was talking at once. Trying to explain three years of events simultaneously.

Gwyn laughed. Actually laughed. The sound stopped Azriel cold. Because he remembered it.

Every note. Every inflection. For three years he had only possessed fragments. Echoes. Now she was here. Real, breathing. Alive. The realization still felt impossible.

Hours later, the House finally began to quiet. People reluctantly drifted away while promising to visit tomorrow, promising not to leave her alone, promising a hundred different things.

Eventually only Azriel and Gwyn remained. The silence felt different now. Softer and more intimate as they stood in the hallway outside his room. Neither moved. Neither seemed eager to acknowledge the obvious problem: sleep. Eventually they would have to sleep. Gwyn looked exhausted. The shadows beneath her eyes seemed permanent.

Azriel gently brushed a strand of hair behind her ear. "You should rest." She nodded. Then remained exactly where she was. He almost smiled.

"Sweetheart." Gwyn looked down. Suddenly fascinated by the floor. His heart squeezed. "What is it?" For a moment she said nothing. Then her voice emerged so quietly he almost missed it.

"I don't want to be alone." The words nearly broke him. Not because of what she said, but because of how she said it, as though she expected him to refuse. As though she thought she was asking for too much.

Azriel immediately reached for her hand. "You won't be." Blue eyes lifted to his. Uncertain. Hopeful. "You can stay with me." The tension left her shoulders so suddenly he knew she had been bracing herself. Bracing for rejection. Mother above. What had those years done to her?

Azriel opened the door to his room. Their room, though neither of them said it aloud. The familiar space looked exactly as it always had, except for one thing. Gwyn froze in the doorway. A small bookshelf stood beside the window. Her bookshelf, the one she had filled years ago. The one nobody had touched since she disappeared. Every book remained exactly where she had left it.

Every ribbon marker.

Every pressed flower.

Every tiny reminder.

Gwyn stared at it, then slowly turned toward him. "You kept it." The words trembled.

Azriel swallowed. "I don't remember deciding to." Her eyes immediately filled with tears.

"Then why?" Because even when he'd forgotten her name, forgotten her face, forgotten her existence, some part of him had remembered. Some part of him had refused to let her go. Azriel stepped closer. Close enough that their foreheads nearly touched.

"I think," he said quietly, "some part of me was still waiting for you." A tear slipped down her cheek. Then another. Azriel brushed them away. Gwyn let out a shaky laugh.

"I look terrible."

"You look like my Gwyn." Another tear. Another laugh. Then suddenly she was kissing him. Not desperately this time, not frantically. Just softly, like coming home. Azriel kissed her back, one hand cradling her face, the other resting against her waist.

Neither hurried, neither rushed. There would be time later for explanations, for healing, for grief. For all the difficult conversations still waiting for them. Tonight was not about any of those things. Tonight was about one simple truth: they had found each other again.

Eventually the kiss broke. Gwyn rested her forehead against his. Her eyes were already growing heavy, exhaustion pulling at her.

Azriel brushed another kiss against her brow. "Sleep." This time she nodded. Together they crossed the room. Together they climbed into bed.

And for the first time in three years, Gwyn fell asleep knowing exactly where she was: home. Wrapped safely in Azriel's arms. Exactly where she belonged.

Azriel  did not sleep much. Every few minutes he found himself checking she was still beside him.  Making sure she was real. Making sure she was breathing. Making sure he had not dreamed the entire thing. Each time, he found Gwyn curled against him. Warm. Safe. Home. And every time, he silently thanked the Mother for giving her back.