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1. angst by avesrinapproved

   Fandoms: The Magnus Archives (Podcast)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   08 Jun 2026

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   • Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist
   • Martin Blackwood
   • Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist
   • Angst
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist Needs a Hug
   • jon thinks he deserves to die
   • One Shot
   • Jon thinks he's a monster
   • Established Martin Blackwood/Jonathan "Jon" Sims | The Archivist
   • season 5
   • jon snaps and poors his guts out to martin

   Summary

   "It’s just – it’s weird knowing that you can know literally everything I think and feel. E-Especially since you’re not exactly the most open of people – emotionally, I mean." Martin teases.

   "Maybe I'm closed off because I can't talk about how I feel with anyone. Have you ever considered that?" Jon snaps a little bit more aggressively than necessary before turning away.

   Martin bristles, his brows furrowing. "… I… Jon, you can talk to me…" he says, reaching out to touch Jon's shoulder.

   "No, Martin, no, I can't." He shrugs him off. "I don't want to hurt you, and I know that you'll just—" he sighs, "I'm bad. And I did bad things and I cant be upset about that because I am a monster. I know I am. And it sucks! I didn't ask for this. I didn't want it… But it is still my fault. It is still who I am…"

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