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I know they're losing and I pay for my place
By the ring
Where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down
Katsuki woke up to a raw throat.
Grunting, he shifted over and turned to the other side on his bed.
He endured five minutes until he could no long stand the annoying irritation.
Fuck you throat.
He threw over the covers on his bed and made his way gloomily to the elevator.
Katsuki heard the faint ding of the elevator as he reached the lobby. He made his way to the kitchen fridge, stomping his way until he saw a shadow in behind the counter, back turned.
A figure.
What the hell is a villain doing in here?
He quickly walked up to the figure, freezing in his tracks once he came closer.
That's not...
The unmistakable green hair.
The same white fabric which he knew said 'T-shirt' on the front.
And he was holding something.
A sharp pointed object that looked familiarly like a kitchen knife.
The shadow turned to face him.
A teary-eyed Izuku was standing right in front of him.
"De- DEKU?! WHAT THE FUCK?"
"Kacchan- it's not what it looks like a swear!"
"So you weren't trying to kill yourself?"
Silence.
Holy shit he was.
"Put it down."
Deku didn't move.
"PUT IT DOWN!"
And he did.
As soon as Izuku placed the knife back down on the marble counter, he collapsed into a heavy breakdown of sobs.
"I'm sorry i couldn't take it anymore i didn't want-"
Katsuki bent down and placed a hand on his shoulder.
"Ka-Kacchan?!"
Katsuki looked him in the eye. "Who told you to do this?"
"No one! My-Myself..!"
He scrunched his brows. "Why, Deku?"
Izuku looked away.
"I hate that i'm causing everyone to worry about me. Everyone in the class is expecting high of me now that they know that i'm All Might's successor and they're just waiting for me to mess up. Waiting to see me fail and comfort me- or you, waiting and preparing to laugh and yell 'die' at my face."
Katsuki opened his mouth, but he still continued.
"I'm quirkless, and no quirkless kid would ever know would the price they had to pay to accept One For All. It's a quirk. A free offer to stop the endless threats of suicide and become a new person everyone finally sees. Become a hero.
But heros don't care about quirkless people. They're not worth the fame. They don't get you higher in rankings. Not worth saving. Not worth noticing. Not worth bothering about. I know i'm gonna have to stop All For One but maybe i'm not worthing to be a successor."
Izuku looked up at Katsuki and pulled on one of his curls.
A strand of hair came out.
"Here- take it."
"...What?"
"Eat it Kacchan, you'll get One For All."
Katsuki gaped at Izuku.
"What the hell?! I'm not taking your quirk! I can't take that from you!"
Izuku shoved it closer. "Please." he pleaded. "Just take it."
He pushed it away.
"I said no- don't make me hit you."
He sighed, then backed off.
There was silence for a while.
How could i be so dumb? Does Deku still remember me telling him to jump off the roof?
Was he actually going to kill himself? What if i wasn't there to stop him?
"Hey. Deku."
"Huh?"
Katsuki leaned toward Izuku and shoved him into a hug.
"KACCHA-"
He lifted his wrist and slapped his cheek.
"SHUT UP AND LET ME HUG YOU!"
Izuku blinked at Katsuki, then rested his head on his shoulder.
"Don't do that again." Katsuki whispered.
He saw a tear fall down Izuku's cheek. "I'm sorry."
"You better be."
He placed a palm on his silk, green hair and curled at it.
"You were never behind me, Izuku."
And the soft hum of breath caught inside him and he watched Izuku slowly drop to sleep beside him.
I bet on losing dogs
I always want you when I'm finally fine
How you'd be over me
Looking in my eyes when I cum
Someone to watch me die
Someone to watch me die