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1. I love your smile.
2. I love your laugh.
3. I love your confidence.
4. I love your courage.
5. I love your kindness.
6. I love your stubbornness.
7. I love your loyalty.
8. I love your honesty.
9. I love your determination.
10. I love your heart.
11. I love the way you speak your mind.
12. I love the way you challenge me.
13. I love the way you make me laugh when I shouldn't.
14. I love the way you never stand aside when someone is suffering.
15. I love the way you fight for what you believe is right.
16. I love your intelligence.
17. I love your creativity.
18. I love your compassion.
19. I love your generosity.
20. I love your warmth.
21. I love the boy who climbed the wall of Cloud Recesses.
22. I love the student who never followed the rules.
23. I love the young cultivator who dreamed of helping the world.
24. I love the man who never changed.
25. I love your flute.
26. I love your voice.
27. I love your eyes.
28. I love your hands.
29. I love your spirit.
30. I love your soul.
31. I love the way you make every room brighter.
32. I love the way you speak to strangers.
33. I love the way children trust you.
34. I love the way animals follow you.
35. I love the way you comfort people.
36. I love the way you tease me.
37. I love the way you say my name.
38. I love the way you laugh at your own jokes.
39. I love the way you keep moving forward.
40. I love the way you refuse to give up.
41. I love your reckless bravery.
42. I love your optimism.
43. I love your curiosity.
44. I love your strength.
45. I love your resilience.
46. I love your kindness toward those who don't deserve it.
47. I love your ability to forgive.
48. I love your refusal to hate.
49. I love your freedom.
50. I love your light.
51. I love the way you stood alone when nobody stood beside you.
52. I love the way you protected the innocent.
53. I love the way you endured criticism.
54. I love the way you carried burdens silently.
55. I love the way you suffered.
56. I love the way you survived.
57. I love the way you remained yourself.
58. I love the way you continued smiling.
59. I love the way you chose kindness.
60. I love the way you chose mercy.
61. I love every memory of you.
62. I love every lesson you taught me.
63. I love every argument we had.
64. I love every smile you gave me.
65. I love every laugh we shared.
66. I love every journey beside you.
67. I love every version of you.
68. I love your past.
69. I love your present.
70. I love every future I imagine.
71. I love the sound of your flute.
72. I love the sound of your laughter.
73. I love the way you look at the stars.
74. I love the way you look at the world.
75. I love the way you look at people.
76. I love the way you care.
77. I love the way you hope.
78. I love the way you dream.
79. I love the way you live.
80. I love the way you love.
81. I love your flaws.
82. I love your mistakes.
83. I love your scars.
84. I love your regrets.
85. I love your strengths.
86. I love your weaknesses.
87. I love your fears.
88. I love your hopes.
89. I love your dreams.
90. I love everything that makes you Wei Ying.
91. I love the person you were.
92. I love the person you are.
93. I love the person you will become.
94. I love every word you say.
95. I love every step you take.
96. I love every moment beside you.
97. I love every day I know you.
98. I love every reason I have to stay.
99. I love you more than words allow.
100. I love you more than my life.
But there's one reason I can't have you.
Because every time I reach for you...
you disappear.
First into the distance between our clans.
Then into a war.
Then into a path I could not follow.
And finally...
into death itself.
For thirteen years, I loved a man I could no longer speak to.
A man I could no longer protect.
A man who could no longer hear me say the words I should have spoken.
So if I cannot have you, Wei Ying, it is because fate has always been cruel enough to take you away whenever I finally understand how much you mean to me.
And the greatest regret of my life is not that I loved you.
It is that I did not tell you sooner.
"Wei Ying."
"Come back."
"Just once more."
"This time, I will not let go."