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1. I'm not dead if you are alive by GazebosAndGays

   Fandoms: The Goldfinch (2019), The Goldfinch - Donna Tartt  

   • Not Rated
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   21 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Theodore Decker/Boris Pavlikovsky
   • Theodore Decker
   • Boris Pavlikovsky
   • Xandra (The Goldfinch)
   • James "Hobie" Hobart
   • Mr. Pavlikovsky (The Goldfinch)
   • Hurt Boris Pavlikovsky
   • Young Theodore Decker/Boris Pavlikovsky
   • Theodore Decker Loves Boris Pavlikovsky
   • Boris Pavlikovsky Loves Theodore Decker
   • Human Trafficking
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • i guess?
   • Author Is Sleep Deprived
   • The Author Regrets Everything
   • The Author Regrets Nothing
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Child Neglect

   Summary

   Boris goes missing one day and Theo receives a text that makes this world flip upside-down

    

   my first ever fic so i hope u like ittt!!! i'll update whenever i can <3
   update: currently abruptly ended, working on new fics instead maybe ill come back, more info in chapter 9!

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   4,692

   Chapters:

   9/?

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