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If it hadn't been for the fact that Eugene had been actively trying to hog all of the marshmallows throughout the smores making session (which ended with Raebin smacking Eugene and Ahyeon somehow managing to burn his marshmallow beyond salvageable), Moondae would conclude that it had been a fairly peaceful night.
Peace was never a word moondae could have ever used in his previous life as Gunwoo, he had lived only to survive with no true 'life calling' as the more philosophical folks would call it, only glimpses found through the shutters of the camera he'd hold as a means of earning. He lived solely out of habit back then with the lingering question every day of why he bothered at all.
The air must have been infected by his members sentimental mood, moondae thinks, because he begins thinking of the absurdity of it all, of how he's had to adapt to such an unimaginable reality solely to exist, in a body that's not his own, with tasks that could have led to his death, he seldom thinks of it but he's... proud of himself for having found peace within the chaos of his new reality and for learning how to breathe in a life that once tried to suffocate him. To have found people he's learned to call family after having spent years with them.
He must have zoned out because the only thing that anchors him back to reality is the concerned look of sejin in front of him, slightly shaking his shoulders asking what's wrong.
It only then hits moondae that his cheek was wet, and that he'd begun crying silently in the midst of his pondering, which had caught the attention of all the members who were now huddled up beside him.
"I'm... fine, everyone." An attempt to deescalate the situation because it seems that some members have begun tearing up at the sight of moondae too.
Moondae thinks the air must've really been laced with something heavily emotions based because instead of rationalizing and figuring out the optimal way to handle this, he just blurts out "I was thinking of the time we've spent together and I'm... happy to be with testar"
Why in the world were they all tearing up now? Really, he never understood why they were always so affected whenever moondae was like this. Not at all similar to when moondae crashes out when any of his members are in trouble. Totally not the same.
And yet, moondae thinks, even if he cant breathe, not with everyone holding him this tight, it's worth the warmth that fills him up when he thinks that he's truly happy with his family.