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To feel again. by Worldsbestfan
Fandoms: Fullmetal Alchemist - All Media Types, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood & Manga
22 Jun 2026
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Summary
“What if all those years did permanent damage?”
His chest hurt and his eyes burned.
“What if I fought so hard to get my body back and it still isn’t enough?”
His voice cracked completely.
“What if you gave up so much for this and one day my body just… can’t take it anymore? What if I end up like Mum?”
Alphonse Elric got his body back. That’s supposed to be the happy ending. Except nobody talks about the recovery afterwards. Nobody talks about the years of starvation, the chronic pain, the exhaustion or the nightmares that still drag him back into a hollow suit of armour where he can’t breathe, can’t feel and can’t prove he’s even real.
When one particularly brutal nightmare sends him spiralling back toward an old coping mechanism he’d fought hard to quit and Alphonse finds himself sitting on the hill where his childhood home once stood, trying desperately to convince himself that he’s alive.
TLDR: Alphonse has a nightmare about the armour, Barry’s words, about his mother, about everything that he tried so hard to push away. And Edward learns that getting Al’s body back didn’t magically make everything okay.