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Ilya slowly breathes a moment before starting. “If not for me, you wouldn't have fallen. I know it was Marleau that hit you, but I still feel guilty. When I saw you were lying on the ice, I saw you as if you were my mother. I don’t know if you heard it, but I was calling for her. God that's embarrassing.” Ilya looks away and then down to his hands. In English “I thought I lost you.”
Looking back up at Shane, Ilya tricks his mind into thinking he saw Shane’s mouth curve into a smile. 'I’m losing it, aren’t I?'
“Everyone’s talking about you. Well, about me too, but it’s mostly you. And you’re all I think, dream, and talk about. " Ilya takes a moment before continuing. “I don’t know what I'd be without you. You’re all I love and all I have left.”
Ilya looks out the window. It’s peaceful and it’s completely contradictory to what's going on inside his mind, but he can’t help but smile at it. 'I know she’d be proud of me.'
Ilya searches for his mom’s cross on his chest and then grabs hold of it, slowly caressing it. Another tear runs down his cheek.
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The one where Shane gets slightly more hurt after the collision with Cliff and Ilya is slowly losing it.