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1. A Tug of War (of Leave and Stay) by grayysk1es

   Fandoms: Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist - Wifies (Web Series)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   30 Aug 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Avery | AveryTheMayo/Derek Hutchins | d3rLord3
   • Derek Hutchins | d3rLord3 & The King In Yellow | Hastur
   • Derek Hutchins | d3rLord3
   • Avery | AveryTheMayo
   • The King In Yellow | Hastur (Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist)
   • Derek Hutchins | d3rLord3 Lives
   • Body Horror
   • Derek and Hastur Merge
   • shared body
   • Depression
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Fluff later I promise
   • college students
   • Coming back to life
   • authors first fic
   • author doesn’t know how to use tags
   • DMS isn’t relevant
   • Will Add More Later
   • Slow to Update
   • Gay men pining for each other but they dont know if the other is alive
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Title from a Laufey Song
   • No more infinite knowledge for the king heehee
   • no beta readers we die like Derek hutchins
   • Dissociation
   • Derek kinda has DID?
   • Drunkenness
   • they both go to harvard
   • Coffee Shops
   • Abandoned Work - Unfinished and Discontinued

   Summary

   Derek shouldn’t be alive. He shouldn’t be standing here, staring at this mirror, and seeing his face contort in expressions he did not tell it to make.
   “Since you no longer wish to relish in the pleasures of life, then you will have no qualms with the fact that this body no longer belongs to you.”
   ———

   Derek dies. Then (spoiler) he lives. When he wakes, it’s not just him that opens their eyes.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   15,827

   Chapters:

   5/?

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