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The Adventure was over…for now…
The first steps have been taken…for now…
And yet…
He’s still not here… Why…? Why aren’t you here…?
I remember it like it was yesterday
When I first realized we both shared my body, I was scared, I wanted you gone…I wanted you dead…
You saw I was afraid, you felt my wants…yet you comforted me…you showed me that I can still have full control, You WANTED me to be in control…you wanted only to be someone I can trust…my friend…my Soul…
You even encouraged me to tell Asriel, Dess and Noelle…all so that I wouldn’t be alone…they were also like me…wanting you gone…but you proved yourself…my own control while I felt you smile at my moving
It was then that I fully trusted you, that when Asriel, Dess, and Noelle were busy, you were there with me…when I was cold, I felt your warmth…when it was Dark, you shined so bright…when I was afraid or upset, you helped me…taking enough control that it proved I could do it without you next time…
You…were there when I first started learning Piano…Watching with Joy as I tried and tried, all by my own choice…It didn’t feel like when I played for Azzy, Dess, and Noelle…it felt…Personal…connected…I felt…complete…with you…
You even showed me the trick I would use on Noelle…The first time I held you in my hands, you were so warm…so…small…yet I felt that power…you could’ve at any time taken control…but you taught me how I can keep control and give it…I had to hold you close to keep you from squirming around…you were so full of energy…I laughed as you escaped, but nuzzled my cheek and started to spin around my head.
Everyone else held you too, they felt at peace, a calming gentle feeling you constantly put out…Dess suggested that maybe I could give you a whirl in her body. You instantly flew back into mine, Using your feelings, I told them what you told me…I could only live without you for so long before something bad happened…but you promised that your working on a way to have me live fully without you…
Everyone relaxed at that…but I felt…afraid…A life…without you…When we were alone, I voiced my fear to you…I pleaded and begged for you not to leave me…that I wouldn’t know what to do without you…You came out of my body, your light shining on our darkness and your warmth so comforting…I felt it…Your voice…it sounded…Beyond…but perfect…
“As long as you wish Kris, I will never leave your side. You can count on that”
Then…came that day…that…Awful day…
You…made sure all of us escaped…you were bleeding…the first time I saw you hurt…but you still smiled at me…reassuring me…
We were all out of that Bunker…except you…
I saw…You had a body…so bright…so many wings blocking the Dark from escaping…
I saw red leaking from your mouth, but you still smiled…
we were all watching, paralyzed with Fear, Horror, and Sadness…
you only smiled, saying with a strained voice…that perfect voice…
Azzy…Shoot your shot Buddy…
December…Be more careful next time…
Noelle…Be yourself…
Kris…Thank you…for giving me the blessing…of being your friend…
The doors slammed shut…
Azzy and Dess ran towards the doors, tears streaming from their eyes,
they tried to break it down…Nothing worked…
Noelle had her hands to her mouth…Her eyes red with tears falling…
One hand went to my chest, gripping it
tightly…it felt empty…lost…the other reached
towards the closed bunker…I could still hear
the broken words escape my trembling lips
”You…Promised…”
Violently, I ripped the pretender out of my
chest…it hurt…it never hurt with…I
approached the cage and threw it in…
I made sure it hit the steel…It felt wrong…
That pretender wasn’t MY Soul…It wasn’t MY
best friend…it wasn’t the one who helped
me…it wasn’t the one who loved me…it didn’t
warm me…it didn’t give me control…it only
wanted to play a STUPID game…
Tolerate it…Soon…It will all be worth it…My
Soul…My Beloved friend…even with Dess and
Asriel off to College…even with Noelle
avoiding it… Even now with Susie wanting to
keep coming with me…it will all be worth it…
“I will get you back…You promised you’d be with me…as long as I wished…
My wish is still alive…I will get you back…”
You…Promised…
