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“Can you pass the sauce?" shane asks trying to get Ilya's attention Ilya doesn't notice continuing to eat the pasta
“Ilya?”shane looks closer at him, noticing the quiet and off demeanor his normally cocky and loud boyfriend is being.
“Sorry ya here.” Ilya passes over the pot more roughly then shane aspects “извини” he mumbles going back to head down pushing the food around his plate as he rubs the back of his neck with his hand
“No issue anyway, practice was good tonight wasn't it” Shane asks nicely but his voice louder than usual Ilya seems to react hardly to this he moves his hands over his ears pushing away from the table.
“Wait whats wrong” Shane stands up from the table concerned and begins to move to Ilyas side “nothing nothing I just everything I cant” Ilya mumbles out more only him hearing it Shane cant hear him but bends down squatting beside Ilya his hand going to his back instinctively.
“It's ok your ok lets take a deep breath your acting weird.” Shane speaks up to Ilya trying to get Ilya to properly communicate with him Ilya moves his thumb up to his mouth sucking onto his not noticing just self soothing shane doesn't react negatively he takes the thumb out of Ilya's mouth “why are you doing that thats not normal” shane says gentlely rubbing his back in circles
“Sowry..извини I cant help it” Ilya tries to explain to shane but nothing coming out, tears come into his eyes and start to spill over shane seeing this reacts quickly pulling him down into his arms Ilya cries harder pushing into Shane's chest
“Your ok sweetheart lets talk a deep breath” shane repeats that a few times before Ilya seems to calm down a little enough to take his head from Shane's chest and look up at shane “I just feel small right now”Ilya quietly murmurs out confused and fussy.
“Small? Thats ok I can work with small” shane smiles down to Ilya letting him know its ok what hes feeling that its ok to be vulnerable with him he doesnt have to be big and strong all the time.”you wanna get cleaned up,have a bath I will help you if that makes it easier for you?”shane soothingly talks to Ilya helping him stand up leading him over to the bathroom
Shane flicks the light on he takes Ilya and picks him up putting him onto the bathroom counter while getting towels and making sure there enough shampoo and bodywash
“b..ath”Ilya calming and casually asks for a bath like he does that all the time which he doesn't shane just nods understanding Ilya isn't his normal self he's younger almost toddler like shane doesnt mind he thinks its almost cute but is also worried for him he doesn't say anything to Ilya not wanting to upset him.
Shane begins to run the bath adding some bubbles into it thinking Ilya might like that he moves over to help Ilya undress “arms up” he asks pulling off his hoodie he peels off his socks next the pants but when shane goes to pull his boxers off he sees a wet spot a pretty large wet spot even he looks up to Ilya
He sees his thighs are also wet, a drop falling onto the counter he peels the sticky boxers off “did you have an accident baby?” Ilya nods slowly and barley “it's ok just let's ask for help if you have to go potty or if you do have an accident I can clean you up faster so you can be comfy ok?” shane tells Ilya this while rubbing his head through all Ilya curls and helps Ilya into the bath sitting him down
“Ok im gonna get your hair all wet then add some shampoo it will feel really nice”
Shane rubs in the water “Shane my tummy feels funny” Ilya speaks up tears back in his eyes “your tummy?” Shane gets really concerned Ilya never says things like this; he's never sick.
“Lets just get you to bed ok? You will feel better?” shane pulls Ilya out the wrapping him in the biggest towel they have that they don't pull out to often change carries him to the bed putting him down shane starts mumbling to himself “ok pjs.pjs where are the pjs”
Shane grabs an oversized one of his metro shirts and a pull up he had from his little cousin coming over that would fit Ilya good enough and after his accident earlier it would be good to take that extra step if Ilya would let him.
“Here we go baby let me get you all comfy and settled” shane pulls the shirt onto Ilya carefully and with all the care in the world Ilya sees the pull up and frowns aways looking acutely fussy like a toddler shane smiles at him slipping it up his legs Ilya not giving much a fight just a unhappy face
“Its ok just rest we can talk about all this in the morning no one has to know its ok baby” shane murmurs all this out going on and on while getting into bed with Ilya rocking and cuddling him with Ilya having his thumb back in his mouth which shane doesn't correct this time watching Ilya fuss into sleep.