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Postal Dude (1997)
-203 cm (6'7''), insanely, FREAKISHLY tall, weighs 86 kg (190 lbs).
-Born Feb 14th, 1970 (actually kinda hates his birthday being on valentine's day, because he's an edgy boy).
-From a low-income religious household, his mother raised him for the most part after his dad decided to leave the picture entirely when he was 14. Not before he was throughly physically and emotionally abused by his own dad, though.
-When his parents were together, his dad was absent, too busy "living the road life" as a biker. When he would decide to be an influence in his son's life, it's was mostly to inject the boy's brain with misogyny and other shitty beliefs he had. "Ain't no son of mine gonna be some kinda sissy, SPEAK UP WHEN I'M TALKING TO YA!".
-His mother was very neurotic and would constantly push and pull their relationship, causing it to be very strained. Some days, she wanted him to be like his dad, some days she hated him for acting like his dad.
-Not popular as a kid. Matter of fact, he was often a target of ridicule by his peers due to his quiet demeanor, tendencies for magical thinking and very emotional responses to anything.
-Gulf War veteran (1990-1991), served for 4 years in total in the US Army (1988-1992) to get away from his family and try to have a life for himself instead of attempting suicide- a decision which he deeply regrets.
-After the war, with all the stress and PTSD combined, his schizophrenia really kick started; while he was somewhat able to get his shit together before, that's no longer a reality to him.
-Frequently has nightmares about his time in the army and what happened in the war. Utterly convinced the CIA wants to kidnap and torture him.
-Has a medical history of PTSD, schizophrenia and BPD (Wrongfully diagnosed with ASPD because this is the 90s, and psychiatrists think BPD is a woman only disorder).
-He likes things very intensely, and to his dismay this can extend to people.
-Into the daemonology and topics related to Christianity
-Grew up Catholic due to his mother enforcing it.
-Likes to read about cults, has several books about them, from biography of cultists, history of cults, their ideologies, how they function, everything.
-Knows a lot about practical skills that are useful for self-sufficiency, hunting, camping, lockpicking, maintenance of tools and guns. He absolutely does know how to cook, but no promises on it ever being flavorful.
-This man knows very well how to shoot and fight, he can and will fuck someone up if they get too hostile. This becomes a point of worry when he's too paranoid to see reason and might get hostile out of self-defense.
-Always carrying a gun and a hunting knife with him.
-Whenever he hikes, he picks up litter from the ground and goes on tangents about how awful people are, and somehow justifies his deep misanthropy like this. Matter of fact, you'll often see him nitpick at very trivial matters to fervently justify many of his strong opinions. These are the only instances, when not in some near-manic state, where he'll be very talkative.
-Knows how to play piano and used to play it on the church his mother used to go to. In teenage to adulthood years, learned how to play bass.
-Really likes Doom Metal, has some vynils of Pentagram, Eletric Wizard and Candlemass laying around. Sometimes dabbles in Black Metal, has a Primordial patch on his dirty ass Duster.
-Has a habit of mapping out every place he has ever been in. He notices exits as soon as he enters a building. He remembers where every staircase, hallway, and window is. If he visits somewhere twice, he already knows shortcuts.
-His house is absolutely disgusting. Dirty clothes pile up in corners of his room along side trash of several kinds of quick meals, beer cans and general filth from the outdoors. Things pile up all the time and nothing is ever organized. His house constantly smells like sweat, gun oil, mold and cigarette smoke.
-This extends to himself. Often times, he'll go days without showering, and only ever pushes himself to brush his teeth so he avoids having to deal with dentists (ew people).
-In contrast, his guns and hiking equipment is immaculate
-Sometimes, he's so low energy all he does for days at a time is watch TV all day. When he's paranoid, he turns his house upside down looking for clues of espionage. When he's particularly overwhelmed, he over indulges in alcohol, cigarettes or sex (if you reject him, he'll turn it on you and accuse you of not loving him anymore). After over indulging, guilt creeps in, which he copes by harming himself in any way he can.
-You'll have to deal with him coping with paranoia and other overwhelming bursts of emotion through "recreational drug use". He will never admit that he's addicted, good luck trying to convince otherwise. Mostly, it's alcohol and cigarretes, which sometimes can leave him awfully irritable and generally terrible to be around. Weed mostly dampens his anger, but spikes his paranoia and worsens his psychotic symptoms. Also, weed makes him really horny sometimes. Keep coke out of his reach, he will honest-to-God start having a psychotic episode and be fully convinced there are people inside his walls.
-Sex often feels like reassurance, and just about the only time when he knows how to show affection, since his upbringing was so terribly neglectful. Deny that or lose interest in it, he goes nuts in fear
-He absolutely loathes how much sex influences him and makes him feel more secure in his masculinity and identity. Catholic upbringing fully drives the guilt factor.
-Likes stalking you. He'll brush it off as him simply keeping tabs on you without the need for constant chit chat, but he won't admit that he obsesses over every possible detail about you and your life.
-Will make you watch hours long documentaries about the logistics of a battle on some war, or straight up go on tangents about them to you.
-Be wary of when he gets deeply religious and locks himself in his room for days at a time with only a Bible because he's decided he's God's next Templar, your boy has entered psychosis.
-Keeps going in and out of jobs, many of which were low paying dead end ones. Very cynical about employers, and if you try to convince him to be more of a team player, he'll probably ignore you out of spite for the next hour or so.
-Despite his instability and apathy towards his own needs (harming himself out of dissociation is a commom occurance), he's very keen on your needs and is constantly micromanaging them in his own head. Haven't taken your meds? He'll remind you. Haven't eaten? He'll make something for you. Why are you upset today? Did you get overwhelmed from your clothes' texture, or was it having to deal with crowds? Hey, he just made you your favorite comfort meal, bland and predictable, just the way you like it.
-Sometimes, he micromanages too hard, and becomes a bit too much. If you bring it up, he'll justify by saying he's just REALLY looking out for you, unlike other people.
-Tendency for black and white thinking, will either think you're the second coming of Christ or the devil reincarnated.
-If living with you as a lover, he will make it a point to share responsabilities in the house to prove he's not like his dickhead dad. If you're just his roommate, he'll probably try to annoy you so hard, you can't bear to live with him so he gets to live by himself.