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Summary:

Hanni doesn’t do relationships, but Minji is persistent. So when Minji sets her eyes on Hanni- who is actively trying to push her away, she can’t back down. But just as Hanni begins to believe Minji’s feelings might be real, one misunderstanding after a game reopens old wounds she thought she buried long ago, haunted by heartbreak and an old relationship, Hanni pushes Minji away before she can be hurt again, but Minji refuses to let fear decide their fate, and she refuses to stop fighting for the girl she can’t seem to stay away from.

 

OR: hanni is traumatized from a past relationship and is scared of being hurt again by minji; minji affirms her she wont and keeps chasing

 

inspired by @manonstostados au on twitter
also inspired by The Eagles “Try and Love Again”

Notes:

inspired by @manonstostado’s au from twitter, and some bits are loosely based from “will you like me in the morning?” by maydayeve… aswell as @hurtzom’s fanart, i also took inspiration from @minjivampires like edited photo where hanni and minji r arguing so please checkout all of these peoples work pls its excellent

 

also inspired by the eagles, “try and love again” thought in my head… wait… maybe hannis so bratty to minji cuz she doesnt wanna fall in love again and risk getting hurt!? and it all clicked.

 

anw, i havent played basketball in a hot min so excuse me if the scenes get a bit messy... and the opening scene is hot ass, im really bad at starting fics BUT TRUST THE PROCESS!! Minji might not seem much like a loser in the beginning but as i said before... trust the process...... Also this is like lowk really mega ultra cliche and self indulgent but like chill on me
 

big shoutout to them and all my twitter oomfs, couldnt have gotten through writing this without your guys’s support

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Hanni thinks she's pretty much on top of the social hierarchy at their school, Captain of the Cheerleading Squad and all that- with that being said, she knows everybody, nerds, jocks, any social group you can imagine, she probably has some connections with them.

 

She could put names to almost every face she walked by in the halls, she wasn't buddy-buddy with everyone, but they knew each other well enough to exchange smiles during passing period or make small talk in the lunch line, it came naturally to Hanni- people liked her, and she liked the people.

 

So you could imagine her surprise, when she walks into her joint cheer practice with the schools Girl's Basketball team- just to see a new, unfamiliar face.

 

Every November, during the start of basketball season, the cheer squad shared the gym with the girls basketball team, since the boys team with much more budget- occupied the main court next door, it was cramped and loud- and every year, their Coach complained about it without making any effort to change it.

 

Hanni barely noticed it anymore, she tossed her duffel bag onto the bleachers, greeting people as she walked- business as usual.

 

The basketball team had already begun warmups on the courts, their shoes squeaking loudly across the polished hardwood while the thump of basketballs echoed rhythmically through the gym.

 

Hanni made her way over to Danielle- her best friend she had met years ago at Junior Cheer, who hugged her tightly in greeting, before quickly jumping into conversation about something Haerin did the other night.

 

She nodded along, not really listening before sitting on the ground besides Danielle, stretching out her legs before practice started.

 

Until, Hanni's eyes caught on a somebody's silhouette,- someone she'd never seen before.

 

Standing near half court was a girl, her hair slung into a ponytail, wearing the school's white practice jersey over a black compression shirt, black shorts, white Nike crew socks, and worn-out basketball shoes that looked like they've seen better days.

 

Hanni's eyes looked upwards, she was tall- or maybe it was just from where she was sitting on the floor, but definitely tall, broad-shouldered too, she listened intently as Coach Tung explained a drill, spinning a basketball against her hip.

 

"Huh," Hanni frowned to herself- she knew every girl on Varsity, Junior Varsity, and even the Freshman team- she's cheered at enough games to recognize everybody.

 

"Danielle," She called, ripping her eyes away from the delicious eye-candy and onto her best friend.

 

Her fellow cheerleader looked up from her stretch,

 

"Who's that? The girl with the black compression?" Hanni asked, gesturing over to the basketball court.

 

Danielle followed her gaze, "Oh- she's the transfer."

 

"A transfer? From when?" Hanni put forward, leaning over closer and lowering her voice.

 

"Like…" Danielle paused- thinking for a second, "Probably three weeks ago? She came after Fall break, I'm pretty sure."

 

Hanni looked back toward the court, how had she missed someone transferring into the school? That spread around school in less than a day- especially if they were joining a varsity sport!

 

Hanni swallowed, a lump in her throat suddenly developing, "What's her name?"

 

"Uh, Minji- I think… or something along the lines of that." Danielle hummed, tying her cheer shoes.

 

"That's pretty weird," Hanni began- stealing one last glance at Minji, "how do you get onto Varsity if tryouts happened before she even came? Sounds like a nepo baby to me."

 

Danielle payed little attention to her friend, standing up and dusting off dirt from her knees- before Hanni could ask anything else regarding Minji, Coach Yoon clapped her hands loudly.

 

"Cheer! Mats! Now!"

 

Eventually, basketball practice shifted onto 3 on 3 scrimmages, and cheer practice moved to sideline choreography.

 

The corny music coming from Coach Yoon's speaker was almost loud enough to drown out everything else.

 

"Minji! Box out in the paint! You called iso for a reason!"

 

Well, maybe except for the basketball coach's voice- cutting through the music as he yelled, his whistle blowing every few minutes.

 

Hanni counted under her breath- refocusing herself on the stunt, "Five, six, seven, eight-"

 

She landed the final count with a practiced smile, her pom-pom snapping sharply through the air before Coach Yoon called for another run-through.

 

"Again! Cleaner this time!"

 

Her squad-mates groaned around her, but Hanni rolled her shoulders- taking the brief pause to steal another glance toward the basketball court, Coach Tung paced the sideline- his whistle clenched between his teeth.

 

"Move the ball!"

 

The ball zipped across the perimeter, and Minji caught it on the wing- right in front of where the cheer squad was on the sidelines.

 

Now- Hanni isn't a basketball connoisseur, but she could tell Minji moved differently than everyone else- not as flashy as her teammates, more so deliberate- as if she never wasted movement that wasn't needed.

 

Minji jab-stepped over her defenders top foot, and they bit, she drove into the paint- her larger frame easily overpowering the opposing teams center.

 

"Shoot it, Kim!" The coach yelled.

 

She pivoted on her right foot, going for the mid-range shot- the shot went up, the defenders hand missing it by mere inches.

 

Clang.

 

It smacked hard against the rim, the ball launching off the rim at an awkward angle. Minji fought for the rebound, exploding upwards- her fingertips grazing the leather, but it wasn't enough, instead of dropping back onto the paint, the ball shot sideways with force.

 

Straight onto the sidelines.

 

"Heads!"

 

The shout came a moment too late, and Hanni turned instinctively towards the sound, for a split-second, all she saw was an orange blur spinning impossibly fast, growing larger in her vision as it got closer.

 

Right at her face.

 

"Oh shi-!" Hanni yelped- barely having time to flinch, her eyes squeezing shut- her shoulders tensing, already imagining the impact.

 

Except, it never came.

 

The impact happened not against her face, but against somebody's palm.

 

Hanni's eyes opened when she didn't feel anything, a large hand suspended in the air less than six inches in front of her- long, slender fingers wrapped securely around the basketball, the force of it had pushed the girl's arm back slightly, her muscles tightening beneath the black compression sleeve before she absorbed the momentum completely.

 

The ball never reached Hanni, it had been stopped cold- by Minji.

 

"…You okay?" Minji asked after a beat, her dark eyes examining Hanni's face for any sign of injury.

 

Her voice was much lower than what she had expected, almost cold- Hanni looked up from the basketball still trapped in Minji's abnormally big hand, then up to her face. Up close, she looked different- in a good way, a few loose strands of dark hair had escaped her ponytail, clinging onto her forehead with sweat, her breathing was elevated from the sprint- her chest heaving as she stood.

 

"I-… I, uh, yeah." Hanni answered after a beat- forcing herself to meet Minji's gaze.

 

Minji gave one small nod, straightening her posture and tucking the ball under her elbow, she glanced back towards the basketball court, where Coach Tung was already waving impatiently- then back to Hanni.

 

As she straightened her back, Hanni had to crane her neck to look up at Minji- proving that she really is that tall.

 

"Sorry about that," Minji shrugged, "I should've made that shot in the first-place."

 

Hanni pointed instinctively between them, her brain short-circuiting, before snapping back into reality, "Yeah- nice one, loser." she huffed, her heart not really in it.

 

"I just mean… the ball," Minji confirmed with another nod of her head, not seeming to be phased by the insult, "It got away from me."

 

"God, I know. No need for you to mansplain!" Hanni groaned.

 

Minji simply stared at the unfamiliar girl, but i'm a girl- on the girl's basketball team? She thought, but decided not to comment on it.

 

Minji extended the ball towards her with one hand, Hanni stared at it for a moment before taking it. The leather ball was still warm from the play, or maybe from Minji's hand.

 

"Uh, thanks? What do I need this for?-"

 

Minji shrugged again, "No problem. Might wanna keep that for memorability."

 

Before Hanni could call her a big headed bigot, she turned on her heel- jogging back towards the court, and slipping seamlessly into a three-man weave as if she'd only stepped away for a second.

 

Hanni remained standing exactly where she'd been, basketball still warm in her grasp.

 

"Hanni?" Danielle called, wandering over, "you good?"

 

"What a jackass…" Hanni whispered, earning a noise of confusion out of Danielle.

 

"What kind of… she saved me then gives me the game ball? Who the hell does she think she is? Fucking Lebron?" Hanni spat- her eyebrows furrowing in frustration.

 

"Hanni-!" Danielle tried- glancing over toward the court.

 

"God, she pisses me off! I hope she retires just like him!" Hanni stormed, placing the ball on the floor and stomping back over to the rest of the cheer squad.

 

To Minji, the girl she still didn't know the name of, just seemed like a bratty little girl, probably an only child who was spoiled growing up- but as she continued practicing, her thoughts were flooded by feisty attitude- and it's must be a coincidence how she played greatly whenever thinking of her.

 

That Friday, Hanni was invited to a house party after Friday Night Lights, and obviously- she was going, not without Danielle- however.

 

The party was already in full swing by the time Hanni and Danielle arrived, somebody dragged two speakers into the living room, the bass of some Mike Sherm song shaking the picture frames on the walls- despite it being a party to celebrate the schools win, there wasn't a single football player in the vicinity.

 

Red plastic cups littered every flat surface, and the kitchen smelled of laced fruitpunch and cheap soda they finessed from two towns over- it was the same after home game, win or not, someone had parents out of town.

 

Luckily for the schools football record, they'd won tonight- which explained why like half the school had crammed themselves into one suburban house.

 

As Hanni stepped through the front doors, someone wrapped her in a quick hug before she'd even gotten both feet through the doorway- three different conversations pulling her in opposite directions.

 

She floated through the crowd like she always did, chatting, (more like flirting,) with sports players she'd been cheering for all week- congratulating the march band on halftime- she loved everything about it.

 

She'd barely finished sinking the final cup in a game of beer pong when Danielle appeared besides her, grabbing her wrist.

 

"Have you seen Haerin?"

 

Hanni frowned, "Nope- didn't even know she was coming, she seems a bit shy."

 

Danielle groaned, running her hand through her curls. "Her and Minji are supposed to bring more drinks…" she huffed- opening her phone and typing a tad too aggressively.

 

Minji? That big-headed piece of shit basketball player? Why would Haerin associate herself with… well, her?

 

Just as Danielle began typing- the front door swung open, and somebody began hollering in excitement, they had clearly arrived.

 

"Finally!" Danielle borderline yelled, her face brightening- leaning in closer to Hanni, "they're here!"

 

Hanni followed Danielle's gaze across the room, the crowd of people parting just enough for her to see them.

 

Minji stood just inside the doorway- two twelve-packs of modelos balanced effortlessly in her arms as though they weighed nothing to her, a backwards trucker hat sat crooked on her head, a pair of sunglasses tucked upside down through the mesh despite the fact the sun had gone down hours ago.

 

In Hanni's eyes, it made her seem even more like a douche bag.

 

Who even wears sunglasses at night?

 

Over her shoulders, hung an unbuttoned varsity jacket, but she'd shrugged in halfway off, revealing the sleeveless basketball jersey underneath, years of lifting and intense practices had carved lean muscle into her arms- her veins faintly visible beneath her forearms as she shifted the cases onto one hip.

 

Haerin stood beside her, or… actually behind her, as Minji talked animatedly to somebody else in a matching basketball jersey, probably a teammate.

 

"How did Haerin end up becoming friends with that jackass?" Hanni hissed, her voice barely audible over the music.

 

Danielle looked over, "Jackass?"

 

"Just look at her!" Hanni insisted, gesturing dramatically towards Minji.

 

Danielle squinted, "She looks just like any other basketball player at our school, Hanni."

 

A moment later, Haerin finally escaped the crowd of people surrounding Minji and made her way towards them.

 

After greeting Danielle with a kiss, Hanni asked- "Haerin, how did you end up with Minji?"

 

Haerin only looked at Hanni funnily, squinting her big cat-like eyes, "What do you mean, 'how did I end up with her'?"

 

Hanni sighed- raising her voice to be heard over the loud ass music, "I just mean- she seems like a piece of shit! And you're like the sweetest soul ever!"

 

"A piece of shit? Hanni- she's more of a loser than I am!" Haerin retorted, laughing softly.

 

Huh, Minji- a loser?

 

Danielle turned to her girlfriend, "Haerin- are you sure you wanna stay? We can leave and go somewhere else if you want to!" she fussed.

 

Hanni tapped out after that, she was not trying to hear that couple shit- not tonight.

 

Instead, she made her way over to the kitchen, hoping for some liquid relief- but Minji was there, helping stack drinks in the kitchen- lifting two cases at once while somebody else struggled with one. (How did they even acquire this much alcohol as teenagers?? like genuinely what was i thinking writing this no party ive ever been too had this much)

 

What a show-off… Hanni thought- pouring herself another cup, taking a long sip before turning away.

 

She distracted herself with the people around her, slipping into conversation with them but her eyes… kept falling back onto Minji.

 

She wasn't looking for her, there were over 300 people packed into the house, normally- she would be floating from group to group, taking photos on somebody's digicam to post on her Instagram, or catching up with people she hadn't talked to all week, but her eyes kept wandering to her.

 

Minji had settled into the backyard, sitting at the firepit with a circle of girls that had naturally formed around her, some were teammates from basketball, a couple girls from soccer, and even a volleyball player or two- there had to be at least eight people surrounding her, from what Hanni could see from inside.

 

Hanni watched one of them reach up without hesitation, plucking the backwards hat from Minji's head before settling it onto her own, Minji just laughed- shaking her head as she reached to take it back, only for another girl to tug playfully at her jersey, saying something that sent the entire group into another fit of laughter.

 

Nobody seemed to think twice about leaning against her shoulder, stealing her hat- or just invading her space altogether, this was something Hanni could see herself in- like everyone already knew exactly where they fit around her.

 

Minji had transferred barely a month ago, surely- surely she hadn't formed a roster already!

 

She never seemed to initiate it, but it wasn't like she was pulling away either- it was intimate enough to make Hanni raise an eyebrow, "Huh."

 

That was her game, isn't it? A girl who acts all shy and loser-ish until there wasn't a single girl left at the party who wasn't wrapped around her finger.

 

What a player, seriously.

 

 

The thought sat in her head longer than it should have, mixing poorly with the cheap beer she'd been nursing all night.

 

Eventually- Hanni gave up on trying to socialize altogether.

 

It was quieter upstairs compared to what was happening downstairs, the bass still pulsed faintly through the floor beneath Hanni's feet, but it was muffled by layers of hardwood and drywall.

 

She found a secluded spot on somebody's parents balcony, leaning against the railing overlooking the foyer- her red solo cup resting on the banister next to her, from up here- the party looked smaller, like she was watching Project X instead of being in it.

 

The glass balcony door slid open behind her, but Hanni didn't bother turning around.

 

"Danielle, if you're coming up here to drag me back downstairs-"

 

"It's not Danielle," a low voice said, one that could only belong to…

 

Hanni glanced over her shoulder, met with the sight of Minji standing awkwardly, one hand still resting on the handle of the door- the backwards hat she was wearing earlier gone now, her dark hair falling messily onto her broad shoulders, without the crowd around her- she seemed more like a loser.

 

"Oh," Hanni let out, straightening her posture slightly, "Hey…"

 

Maybe it was the alcohol in her system, or maybe it was cause she just needed to unwind after a long week- but Hanni couldn't bring herself to brat at Minji.

 

"Hanni, right?" Minji asked, stepping out onto the balcony fully, letting the door slide shut behind her, "I wasn't interrupting anything, was I?"

 

"No, you're fine… It was just loud downstairs." Hanni sighed, rubbing the back of her neck timidly.

 

She watched as Minji nodded in understanding, resting her forearms against the railing a respectful distance away, her eyes weren't on Hanni, they were fixed on the backyard below, the girls she was surrounded by earlier messing with a new guy now, crowded around the fire pit beneath strings of white lights.

 

"You transferred here recently, right?" Hanni asked, eyes lingering on Minji's bicep before tearing them away reluctantly, "How're you liking it?"

 

"It's… it's different." Minji exhaled, her shoulders un-tensing.

 

"A good kind of different, I hope." Hanni commented, a soft laugh leaving her before she could stop it.

 

"Well, yeah- I'm just not that used to the attention I get over here." Minji hummed, tapping her foot to the music playing down below.

 

"Attention?" Hanni asked, her voice dripping with tease- "You're popular with the girls, aren't you?"

 

Hanni didn't even know herself why she was asking that, she saw Minji with her own two eyes, in her natural element - around girls!

 

Minji nodded shyly, "I mean, I guess, those girls are sweet and all, but just not my type."

 

Hanni rolled her eyes internally, having at least 8 beautiful women around you, and you don't like any of them? Is she expecting fucking Adriana Lima?

 

 

As if reading her mind, "Don't get me wrong- they're all beautiful, but just not my type… personality wise." Minji said thoughtfully.

 

That seemed reasonable- and Hanni let herself believe for a moment, one stupid moment- that Minji was surprisingly understated, the confidence she had downstairs seemed to evaporate whenever there weren't ten other people around.

 

Minji inhaled quietly, as though working herself up to something, "Can I ask you something?"

 

Hanni nodded wordlessly, picking up her red solo cup and taking another sip- the burn of alcohol running down her throat.

 

"Could I get your Instagram?"

 

Hanni instantly spit out whatever cheap shit she had been drinking, coughing furiously, "Wha- cough, what did you just say?"

 

Minji just looked at her blankly, "Can I get your Instagram? Digits? Snapchat works fine too." she repeated, her voice unwavering.

 

Hanni blinked, turning fully to her, "You must be…" she paused- laughing to herself, "one cocky piece of shit, if you really think you're getting my number."

 

Minji squinted, taking a step forward, looking down at Hanni- "I know, everyone says you never give it out." she smiled, her index finger coming up to Hanni's jaw to tilt it upwards, forcing eye-contact between them.

 

"I've had my eye on you for quite some time now, Pham- i'll do whatever it takes to get you with me." Minji admitted, a stupid grin on her face as she did so.

 

Hanni scoffed, pushing Minji away from her chest, "Get off of me, weirdo!" Hanni shoved her once more for good measure, "And you haven't even been here for a month, get it right- idiot!"

 

Minji sighed, her hands flapping pathetically at her waist- "Come on, Hanni- please?"

 

Hanni groaned, "Don't push it, jackass!"

 

With that- Hanni turned sharply, hair whipping over her shoulder dramatically as she shoved the balcony door open aggressively, the music from downstairs crashed into her ears again just as she crossed the threshold of the room, good- she needed it, she needs literally anything to scrub the memory of the absurd conversation she just had.

 

"Hey-"

 

Footsteps followed behind her.

 

"Oh my God." Hanni muttered to herself- spinning around in the hallway, "Are you seriously following me?"

 

Minji stopped immediately, holding both hands up in surrender.

 

“I- I’m not following you!" She sputtered, face flushing underneath the dark light.

 

“You are!" Hanni pushed, leaning closer into Minji.

 

“I was going downstairs!" Minji defended.

 

“Yeah right." Hanni scoffed, "And you expect me to believe you had to leave right after I did?"

 

“…Okay," Minji admitted after a beat, "Maybe I was following you."

 

Hanni rolled her eyes so hard it almost hurt, what a jack off.

 

Hanni pointed a finger accusingly into Minji's… weirdly muscular chest, "Be glad I even decided to be kind enough to let you be in my presence, loser."

 

Minji's shoulder sank for a fraction, looking past Hanni towards the staircase, where laughter and music echoed loudly from downstairs.

 

"Listen, Hanni- I wasn't trying to make you uncomfortable, I didn't even know you were." Minji sighed.

 

Hanni folded her arms, scrunching her nose. "You come to this school, save me from a concussion and give me the ball like your some kind of bigshot in a sports movie, then you ask for my socials while touching my face, and you wonder why I'm uncomfortable?" she spat.

 

A sheepish smirk tugged at the corners of Minji's lips, before disappearing just as fast, "I guess when you put it like that…"

 

"No, Minji. It's not how I put it, it's you." She hissed, her finger jabbing at Minji's sternum.

 

Hanni turned again, stomping down the hallway furiously.

 

"I didn't plan any of that, you know!" Minji called after- but it was no use, Hanni was already making her descent downstairs

 

Hanni took the stairs two at a time, every step pounding harder than the music vibrating through the house.

 

"Hanni!" Came Danielle's voice, catching her by the wrist before she disappeared into the crowd.

 

"There you are," she frowned, clearly tipsy- examining Hanni head to toe, "I've been looking everywhere for you, you okay?"

 

Hanni nodded too fast for it to be truthful, "I'm fine."

 

Danielle raised an eyebrow, "You sure? You look like you wanna fight somebody."

 

"I do want to fight somebody." Hanni admitted, pursing her lips then raising a red solo cup filled with water, she had seemingly got from thin air up to her lips.

 

"Let me guess, Minji?"

 

Hanni sighed dramatically, her free hand running through her hair, "Is it that obvious?"

 

"Well, what happened?" Danielle pressed, pulling her and Hanni to a more secluded area.

 

"She-" Hanni paused, no way was she repeating that conversation to Danielle- she would never let her live it down.

 

"She's annoying," Hanni finished.

 

Danielle glanced over to the staircase, where Minji had finally made her way down- smirking to herself, "You disappear for 15 minutes with her just to say shes annoying? You know- when you two come downstairs at the same time…"

 

"You sure you guys didn't…?" Danielle leaned in and whispered, making an inappropriate innuendo with her hands before bursting into giggles.

 

"God, Danielle- I think you've had too much to drink, wheres Haerin?"

 

Before Danielle could argue again, a short girl Hanni barely knew stumbled over to her, Yeojin? Yvesjin? Whatever-

 

"There she is!" she slurred, tugging on Hanni's wrist, "Come play Never Have I ever with us!"

 

"I'm good." Hanni tried- but within seconds she was dragged into the living room.

 

Somebody had pushed the coffee table against the wall to make space, beanbags and couch cushions scattered haphazardly across the hardwood floor.

 

The music had been turned down just enough that conversations could compete with it, though every few seconds another burst of laughter swallowed whoever happened to be speaking.

 

“C’mon, make room!” Danielle called out, despite there being less than 20 people in the circle.

 

Someone tugged Hanni by the sleeve before she could object, stumbling into the loose circle forming on the floor.

 

Danielle had already claimed a spot against the couch, patting the space beside her.

 

Hanni groaned, resting her elbows on her knees before freezing.

 

Sitting right across from her in the circle was Minji, of course.

 

A junior stood in the middle, handing out plastic shot glasses to everybody in the circle- before raising up a half-empty bottle of Patron Tequila and shouting into it like it was a microphone.

 

"Alllright! We're playing Never Have i Ever! Rules are simple, if you've done it- you drink!"

 

The circle erupted into cheers, hoots, and hollers.

 

It started with harmless questions, "Never Have i Ever… broken a bone."

 

Most of those involved in sports sighed wistfully, before downing their shots.

 

"Never Have I Ever… skipped school!"

 

Almost everybody drank, including Hanni, who knocked it back effortlessly- the liquor stinging her tongue before settling in the pit of her stomach.

 

Laughter rolled around the room, and Hanni found her shoulders un-tensing, maybe this wouldn't be so-

 

"Never Have I Ever, kissed somebody at a party."

 

The room erupted, and someone wolf-whistled as nearly a third of the circle raised their shot glasses proudly.

 

Hanni stayed perfectly still, and so did Minji- not that she cared, of course.

 

 

"Never Have I Ever… gotten rejected."

 

 

The reactions were even louder, the people around her beginning to drink after one another amid the teasing.

 

 

Hanni glanced around the circle absentmindedly, counting the amount of people drinking.

 

 

1,

 

 

3,

 

 

6,

 

 

8,

 

 

Then- 9.

 

 

Across the circle, Minji quietly reached for her own glass, wetting her lips hesitantly, debating on whether if she should do it or not.

 

 

Her dark eyes slid over to where Hanni sat, there wasn't a trace of cockiness on her face now, she smiled before throwing it back with ease- heat blooming across her chest as she swallowed, tipping it back without breaking eye-contact.

 

 

Heat lurched into the Vietnamese's girl's face, stomach twisting in her guts- she frowned, seriously? Her rejection had only happened like… 20 minutes ago, is she really counting it?

 

 

Danielle noticed Hanni hadn't moved, nudging her shoulder, "You not drinking?"

 

 

Only then did Hanni notice that the room had gone strangely quiet, a handful of them following Minji's gaze to Hanni.

 

 

Her untouched glass sat between her shoes, she glanced at it- then back to Minji, who still hadn't looked away, "…No."

 

 

Hanni deliberately pushed her the cup farther from herself, "I'm not, never been rejected."

 

 

The people around her hollered, some muttering complaints about her being cocky- while some whispered things about wanting to be her, it didn't matter- all Hanni could focus on was how Minji's expression softened, looking down into her empty glass with the tiniest smile tugging at the corner of her mouth.

 

 

Hanni's eye twitched, God.

 

 

She was going to kill that unbelievably annoying loser before the night was even over.

 

 

 

 

Sunlight leaked mercilessly through the gap in Danielle's curtains, landing directly across Hanni's face- right, she was staying at Danielle's place. Her mouth felt dry enough to be mistaken as sandpaper, and she could already hear Haerin and Danielle talking in the next room over.

 

 

"Fuck, man…" she groaned- burying her head deeper into the pillow, but immediately regretted it.

 

 

Her head seemed to throb more with every thought she formed, a dull, rhythmic pounding behind her eyes that reminded her to never go to another party, which she would ignore- of course.

 

 

Eventually- she dragged herself upright, hair sticking out in every direction imaginable, like she had gotten electrocuted, she squinted at the digital-clock on the guest room's nightstand,

 

 

10:47AM.

 

 

Well, at least she got 8 hours of sleep.

 

 

Her phone buzzed against the nightstand, and her hand flung out to grab it- bringing the screen inches away from her face, way to fry your dopamine receptors right after waking up…

 

 

9 Notifications,

 

 

3 Texts from her Mom.

 

 

4 missed calls from Hyein, who probably had FOMO from not being invited to the party- (too young!)

 

 

and 2 unread messages, both from an unknown number.

 

 

   

10:17 AM

   

morning, ms pham!

   

hope your hangover isnt too bad, know mine is tho

   

 

 

 

Hanni frowned- who…? She opened the conversation, no contact- no profile picture, no previous messages, just the number. Did she get wasted last night and give her number out to somebody-?

 

 

   

10:44 AM

   

who is this?

how do u have my number also fuck off whoever this is

   

ouch,

 

that hurts, hanni. i thought getting rejected once last night was enough, but twice in 12 hours?

MINJI!?

goodmorning, ☀️

never say that corny shit to me AGAIN bro 😭 who tf r u feeling like

how did you even get my phone number?

uh, haerin gave it to me

   

 

 

Haerin!?

 

Haerin had spoken maybe 6 words the whole party, but still, that cat- seriously!

   

10:54 AM

   

HAERIN?

on everything im gonna kill her. why tf would she give my number to some fuckboy basketball player… minji atp just go back to texting ur roster this is not gonna work out

i dont have a roster?

   

your the only girl in my contacts besides haerin i promise u

dont give me that shit

your just trying to get into my pants, and that is not happening. learn your place and stick to basketball. please. i am not as easy as the other girls u fuck with

 

seriously? your not even gonna ask how i feel about you? im not like that i dont fuck around you dont even know me how r u gonna say that

hanni? come on baby dont leave me on read

   

 

 She closed messages with a sigh, fingers flying to her contacts, hitting Danielle's name furiously.

 

 

The call connected after one ring, and Danielle's sleepy voice came over the speaker, "Hello?"

 

 

"Haerin is in your room, right?" Hanni asked- feigning calmness, her voice itching with anger. She knew Danielle brought Haerin back, freaks…

 

 

"Uh, yeah." Danielle answered after the beat- the rustle of sheets audible through the speaker.

 

 

"Put me on speaker."

 

 

"Uh- why exactl-?"

 

 

"Put. Me. On. Speaker." Hanni cut her off.

 

 

Danielle complied, another of rustle of blankets could be heard- probably her passing the phone to Haerin, then Haerin's softer voice drifted through the phone.

 

 

"Morning, Hanni…" She yawned- clearly half-asleep.

 

 

"Don't give me that, 'Morning!' bullshit- Kang, did you give Minji my number?" Hanni spat, emphasis on morning.

 

 

In the next room over, Haerin almost shit herself- clenching Danielle's hand tightly before answering, she already knew Hanni was gonna blow up.

 

 

"Yes…" Haerin admitted, her voice as quiet as ever.

 

 

"You what-!? Haerin, what went through your mind!" Hanni exploded, eyebrows furrowing- clenching her phone tightly.

 

 

"Hey, in my defense- I owe her! She paid for the drinks and gave me a ride there."

 

 

"Oh, so my number is worth a few bucks for drinks and gas money? Nice one, Haerin!" Hanni groaned, running a hand down her face.

 

 

Danielle cut in instantaneously, defending her girlfriend, "Hey! She looked like… super sad, Hanni- like on the brink of tears! I was there when Haerin gave it to her!"

 

 

The line went quiet for a good 3 seconds, before-

 

 

Hanni dragged out a groan- borderline screech, "God! She's such a piece of shit!" she barked- standing up despite her shakiness and pacing the length of the guest room, so aggressively the hardwood beneath her feet shook with every step.

 

One hand clutched her phone so tightly her knuckles had gone white while the other gestured wildly through the air as though the person she was talking about were standing directly in front of her. “Who does that, actually? She meets me once, somehow gets my number overnight because of SOMEBODY, and suddenly I’m waking up to a text from an unknown number?"

 

 

Haerin and Danielle collectively flinched at the tone in Hanni's voice, exchanging a glance, "Did you not hear when Haerin said she owed Minji..?" Danielle whispered, trying her best to lay it down gently.

 

"That doesn't make it any better, Danielle!" Hanni retorted- throwing herself on the edge of the bed before immediately standing back up again, too restless to sit still- she resumed pacing, dragging a hand through her bed-head.

 

"I don't care if she asked, I don't care if she asked politely- we all know she's just trying to get in my pants!"

 

Haerin inhaled sharply, "Well- people usually ask for your number if they like you… that's kind of how it works?"

 

"Or maybe because shes just trying to get in my pants!?"  Hanni repeated.

 

Danielle finally spoke again, voice still rough with sleep, "She was really polite about it… she really doesn't seem like the fuckboy type when you talk to her more, more like a loser dog who needs to be babysat."

 

Hanni let out an incredulous laugh, "Oh my God- Dani, who's side are you even on?"

 

"I'm not taking sides for anybody, Hanni- I'm just trying to tell you what happened-"

 

"What happened," Hanni paused- raising her voice, "Was that you guys betrayed me by giving her my number!"

 

Haerin groaned, putting an end to both of their arguing, "Calm down, it's too early for this- and we're all hungover."

 

Haerin could hear Hanni pacing again through the phone, each step accompanied by an irritated exhale, it was almost impressive how much energy someone could dedicate to being angry before breakfast.

 

Haerin spoke again, "Hanni- just come to our room… we're literally in the same house, did you forget?"

 

"Come to mine, I don't feel like walking the 4 steps there."

 

25 seconds later, Danielle was unlocking the guest-room door with her key, Haerin standing quietly holding a tray with three waters, balancing it carefully in both hands.

 

The lock clicked softly before the door swung inward, revealing Hanni standing exactly where they’d expected her to be- in the middle of the room with her arms folded so tightly across her chest it looked like she had a strait-jacket on, her hair was hastily gathered into a lopsided ponytail that had already begun falling apart, loose strands framing a face that looked equally exhausted and irritated. She’d clearly been pacing while waiting for them; the path she’d worn between the window and the bed had become almost comically obvious.

 

Haerin followed quietly behind Danielle, she nudged the door shut with her heel before setting the bottles down on the dresser one by one, each making a soft plastic thud against the wood.

 

Unlike Danielle, who immediately claimed the edge of the bed as though she’d been invited to lounge there all morning, Haerin naturally drifted toward the floor, sitting cross-legged beside the wall with her hands folded neatly in her lap.

 

Nobody spoke for several moments, maybe minutes- well, the room itself felt strangely still. The air conditioner hummed softly overhead, pushing cool air around the room while thin strips of sunlight squeezed through the gap in the curtains, stretching across the carpet in warm golden lines, It was almost jarring how normal the house sounded compared to the tension hanging inside the guest room.

 

Danielle reached for one of the water bottles, twisted the cap open with a loud crack, and took a drink before looking up at Hanni

 

“…You done throwing a tantrum?” She hummed- breaking the silence.

 

"It wasn't a tantrum." Hanni shot- shooting Danielle a glare sharp enough to dull knives.

 

Danielle nodded, feigning thoughtfulness, "Right, right- so remind me why were here?"

 

"I called you guys over cause Haerin betrayed me!" Hanni huffed, gesturing to the sitting cat.

 

"I said I was sorry, Hanni…" Haerin muttered apologetically, keeping her eyes to the floor

 

"I know you are."

 

Danielle looked between the two of them, “So are we going to keep apologizing and accepting apologies, or are you going to tell us why you hate Minji so much?"

 

Hanni scoffed as the paced,the heel of her socked foot tapping against the hardwood every time she pivoted. She wasn’t even looking at where she was going anymore- the room had become too familiar after the first dozen laps. "Don't be dramatic.”

 

“I’m the dramatic one here?" Danielle gasped, her hand going up to her chest defensively.

 

“Yes.”

 

“Do you even hear yourself, Hanni? You called her a piece of shit over a good morning text- and you're calling me dramatic?"

 

“Because she’s annoying, how many times do I need to say this?"

 

Danielle raised an eyebrow, “What has she actually done that’s annoying?”

 

Hanni opened her mouth immediately, fist clenching. “She-" Only, nothing came out.

 

Danielle's voice remained calm, "Hanni- you don't have to get this worked up over somebody you don't have a reason to dislike."

 

"I don't know why, truth be told- it's just, something about her!" Hanni sighed- fingernails digging into her palms hard enough to nearly draw blood, "Something about her stupid face, or her sleazy attitude, it pisses me off! Shes a total fuckgirl!"

 

"And how do you know that?" Haerin called from the floor, "You've talked to her for like what… 30 minutes give or take?"

 

Hanni paused her pacing to stand in front of Haerin, "I get that- but I have eyes! I've seen how she acted at that party! She had girls all over her, and she seemed to be in her natural element- like fucking Avatar Aang or something!"

 

Danielle rolled her eyes, watching as Hanni continued pacing, "I just don't get it, Hanni- she seems genuinely interested in you!"

 

"I'm interested in her, too- honestly, she's kinda hot." Hanni admitted- talking really fast in hopes Danielle and Haerin didn't hear her, "It just- I don't know if I should stay or if I should go, I just really wanna know, would I lose or win- If I tried and loved again… you guys know what happened with my ex." Hanni blurted.

 

Both Haerin and Danielle stayed quiet- they clearly weren't expecting that, the same girl who was calling Minji a sleazy fuckgirl saying she's interested in her too?

 

"Minji's pretty nice," Haerin remarked after some time, "She can come off as overconfident sometimes, and from what I've seen- quite a lot of people like her too."

 

Danielle huffed, "Haerin- now's not the time to mention how many girls are all over her, we know already, no need to rub it in."

 

"She's one of those people," Hanni said out of nowhere, as if the thought just clicked in her mind- putting emphasis on those.

 

"Enlighten me,"

 

"She's attractive, and people like her, obviously, so she has options. People like that don't just randomly becoming infatuated with somebody!" Hanni rambled, it's actually insane how she can think this all up- hungover at that.

 

"Somebody?"

 

"Come on, you know what I mean, in this case- the 'somebody' is me." Hanni huffed, "These people- they don't just pick just one person, they flirt- move on, keep people around." She continued, hands coming up to the sides of her head, Hanni was really starting to look like a crazy person.

 

Haerin watched her carefully, choosing her words even more so, "She hasn't done any of this, so why assume that she will?"

 

Hanni stopped walking so abruptly the room seemed to stop with her, "Because that's what happens."

 

"That's what happens," she repeated, her voice on the brink of cracking- "I don't know, what she wants- I don't know if shes serious, and I don't know if she wants me or just likes the attention I can give to her."

 

"I don't know if I'll end up just being another person she ends up being bored of." She finished.

 

It was so quiet, you could hear a pin drop.

 

Danielle's face softened, "Hanni- you don't know any of those things, so why are you acting like this is a given?"

 

Hanni rubbed both hands over her face, "Because I'd rather assume the worst now, than find out later that I was right."

 

Danielle leaned forward, resting her elbows on her knees, "This isn't about Minji anymore, isn't it, Hanni?"

 

"It never was," Was all Hanni could rasp out- voice barely above a whisper, hands quivering, "I just-" she inhaled sharply, "I just don't think… think I can commit anymore."

 

Haerin looked up from where she was sitting, the words came out so quietly they almost disappeared into the room.

 

"I was stupid," Hanni laughed once, bitter and humorless, "I used to think if someone said they loved you-" Her jaw tightened, "that it meant something."

 

"I'm ashamed- I was an idiot," The words felt heavy against her tongue, "I rearranged my schedule for one person, canceled on friends, yet they still cheated."

 

"I kept wondering, what did I do wrong?" She paused- tears welling up slowly in her eyes, "As if there had to be any reason."

 

Another long pause settled over the room- “So no," She crossed her arms again, "I’m not interested in finding out if Minji is different.”

 

Haerin spoke gently- voice barely above a whisper, “Because?”

 

Hanni looked toward the ceiling, swallowing the lump in her throat, "Because if I never believe her," Her voice cracked ever so slightly before she cleared her throat- “…then she can’t disappoint me.”

 

When Danielle finally broke the silence in the room, her voice was quieter- void of the teasing tone she had before, "Hanni, loving someone is nothing to be ashamed of."

 

"That- that's easy for you to say!" Hanni spat, gesturing between the two other girls, "You have Haerin- she wouldn't hurt a fly,"

 

Haerin perked up at the mention of her name, batting her eyes innocently. (Bro😭 .)

 

"You.. you shouldn't let one selfish person convince you that your ability to love is a mistake." Danielle continued gently, "You have to let her be herself before you decide who she is."

 

Hanni glanced back down to her phone, where Minji's unread message sat quietly, "But what if she turns out to be exactly what I'm afraid of?"

 

"Then block her and cut her off?" Haerin said simply- and Hanni couldn't hold back her smile.

 

Hanni didn’t text back immediately, she made it all the way home first.

 

The drive back felt strangely quiet without Haerin and Danielle filling the car with conversation- their words lingered in her head anyway, refusing to leave no matter how loudly she turned up the radio. By the time she pulled into her driveway, she’d convinced herself at least four separate times that replying had been a mistake.

 

She unlocked her front door, kicked off her shoes carelessly into the hallway, and wandered into the kitchen, grabbing a bottle of water from the refrigerator more out of habit than thirst. Her phone buzzed in her hoodie pocket before she’d even twisted the cap open.

 

Her stomach sank- she already knew who it was.

   

12:04 PM

   

just got done at the gym

   

wyd?

   

 

Hanni stared at the messages for few seconds, contemplating if she should even respond- before another notification popped up.

 

Image received.

 

Hanni opened it hesitantly, her thumb shaking above it before finally pressing.

 

Minji had clearly taken the picture between sets, one sleeve of her t-shirt had been rolled up to her shoulder, her arm bent just enough to show the definition in her bicep. It wasn’t a mirror selfie or some overly posed gym photo-just an awkward angle with a slightly embarrassed thumbs-up visible in the corner, as though she’d immediately regretted sending it.

 

Hanni bit down on her lip, fuck- she definitely wasn't skinny.

   

12:06 PM

   

what the fuck??

   

chill? i just asked a question

bro get this shit OFF my phone 😭

I havent even eaten yet and ur showing me ur fucking puny ass biceps.

why r u so mean to me?? i literally js wanna get close to u and ur acting like im fucking voldemort.

maybe dont send a girl ur biceps unprecedented?

 

and your definitely built like him. god im actually gonna hurl its too early for ur bullshit

okay sorry, sorry ur just so grumpy baby calm down

   

 

Hanni stard down at the last message for a long second, "Baby…?" she whispered- saying it aloud to the empty room, her voice somewhere inbetween completely offended and flattered.

 

"Who the fuck does she think she is?"

   

12:15 PM

   

do not call me baby. we are NOT like that

   

aww, come on hanni dont be like that

don't act like u dont wanna see more 😉

on god im literally gonna hang myself. can you please text ur other girls and not me

i already told you this? i dont have any other girls in my phone besides you and haerin. im not a player hanni im being fr and im really bad at this stuff please give me a chance i promise ill play really really good at the game if you cheer for me

wow, dani was right… your pathetic. ill think twice before cheering for you.

   

 

Ah, right. Hanni still had to cheer for the girl's basketball team against their rival- this upcoming Friday.

 

The week passed faster than usual- full of Hanni and Minji playing delivered wars and leaving each other on read, but it happened to Minji more than it happened to Hanni- by the time it was Friday every hallway seemed louder than usual- students wandering through the building draped in school colors, faces streaked with blue paint they weren’t supposed to have on until after lunch.

 

Posters for that night’s opener covered nearly every wall, homemade signs taped crookedly over lockers and classroom doors.

 

The gym sat at the center of it all, even from the academic building, the rhythmic squeak of basketball shoes echoed faintly through the open courtyard, punctuated every few seconds by the sharp blast of a whistle. The team had been practicing since before school even began every day this week, and everyone knew why.

 

Sierra.

 

Hanni slipped her notebook into her locker and exchanged only half-hearted greetings with the people passing by. Unlike most of the school, she wasn’t particularly interested in basketball, she’d be at the game because the cheer squad had rehearsed all week for it, not because she cared who dropped twenty points or who made the highlight reel.

 

She had barely shut her locker before another one closed beside hers- just enough to pull her attention sideways, Minji.

 

Practice had clearly already left its mark on her, the sleeves of her gray warm-up shirt were damp around the shoulders, loose strands of dark hair clinging to her forehead. A basketball rested beneath one arm, her other hand absentmindedly rolling athletic tape around her fingers.

 

"Hanni," she hummed.

 

Hanni answered with a glance, before reaching down to zip up her backpack, "What now?"

 

"The game's tonight." Minji stated- and Hanni nearly rolled her eyes, no shit- captain obvious, "It's a big one."

 

Minji leaned against the locker beside hers, duffel bag slung over one shoulder, she had that stupidly relaxed posture that made it seem like she’d never been stressed a day in her life.

 

"It's a big game for people who care about basketball." Hanni scoffed, slinging her bag over her shoulder.

 

"You should care, we're playing Sierra." Minji pushed, leaning in closer.

 

“I care about beating Sierra,” Hanni corrected. “I just don’t care about you beating Sierra.” She sighed- putting emphasis on you.

 

Minji pressed a hand dramatically to her chest. “That’s cold, even for you, Pham."

 

Hanni groaned, running a hand through her hair- “Don’t you have somewhere to be?”

 

Minji stood up straight against the locker, “Actually, I was hoping to get your opinion on something, " Minji grinned. “Should I drop thirty tonight or save some points for the next game?” she asked, completely serious.

 

Hanni stared at her, then she laughed. Though it was pointed at Minji, she couldn't help but grin wider at the beautiful sound.

 

“You? 30? Wow." Hanni said after a moment- collecting herself, “Minji, what did you average last year?"

 

“8.6.”

 

“Oh, my apologies. Basketball royalty.” Hanni laughed sarcastically, throwing her hands up.

 

“I’m feeling a breakout season, it's my senior year- might as well go crazy." Minji replied, face serious as ever.

 

Seeing as that Hanni still wasn't her taking her seriously- Minji pushed off the lockers and walked backward down the hallway, still facing her. “Okay then. Let’s make it interesting.”

 

Hanni already didn’t like the look in her eyes, glancing around them- there were multiple of their peers around.

 

“If I drop twenty tonight,” Minji said, pointing at her, “you let me take you out.”

 

“Take me out?" Hanni scoffed- having to hold herself back from laughing, “Absolutely not.”

 

“Why not?” Minji whined- throwing her hands up in exasperation.

 

“Because you’re not scoring 20 points, Minji."

 

"I'm not hearing a no," Minji’s realized, her grin widening. “So if I score twenty, you’ll go out with me?”

 

Hanni crossed her arms. Around them, students were starting to slow down, sensing entertainment, “Fine then," she said finally. “If you score twenty points tonight, I’ll let you take me out.”

 

Minji pumped her fist into the air triumphantly, she was damn near about to jump up and click her feet together, "Be ready to clear your schedule, Pham!"

 

Hanni clicked her tongue, eyebrows furrowing- "For what?"

 

Minji smiled, that stupid easy smile- "Our date."

 

Students were already gathering outside the locked doors in clusters, the line growing longer by the minute as everyone waited for the custodians to let spectators inside. The marching band occupied one corner of the courtyard, running scales.

 

Hanni stood nearby one of the concrete planters with her arms folded tightly in her chest- she was already in uniform.

 

The blue and white cheer uniform wasn't exactly the built for waiting outside in the November breeze, and despite refusing to admit it to anybody nearby her, she was colder than she had expected to be. Every so often she shifted her weight from one foot to the other, rubbing a hand over her bare arm in a futile attempt to warm herself.

 

She refused to look cold, especially with half the school and a different one milling around her.

 

A familiar voice drifted toward her, “Didn’t know cheerleaders were immune to jackets.”

 

Hanni closed her eyes for exactly one second before opening them again- bro's trying to ignore it.

 

Minji was walking across the courtyard toward the gym with her duffel bag slung over one shoulder, her glasses still on. Unlike Hanni, she looked perfectly comfortable. She wore gray sweats, accompanied by her blue and white varsity jacket- the one she had worn to the party, the thick wool sitting loosely over a black practice shirt.

 

The white leather sleeves were slightly creased from wear, despite Minji only having it for a month- and the embroidered basketball patch on the chest caught the afternoon light.

 

Hanni hated how warm it looked, "I am,” she answered flatly.

 

"You're a really bad liar."Minji stopped beside her, “You’ve been rubbing your arms for quite a while now."

 

"I-" Hanni looked down, her hand halfway up her arm- "Fine, I am cold."

 

Minji let out a huff of triumph, "Glad to see you're coming around to the whole… admitting thing."

 

"I just didn't know it would be that cold out…" Hanni mumbled, rubbing her hands together to create warmth between them.

 

"Well- Coach said the gyms supposed to open in a few minutes." Minji advised, glancing down at the time on her phone.

 

A gust of wind swept around them, lifting the ends of Hanni's ponytail- sending a visible chill to her bare arms. She gave Minji a once-over, she seemed warm enough, didn't she? Already in sweatpants and layers… taking off her jacket wouldn't do much harm, would it?

 

"Minji, give me your jacket." Hanni demanded- tugging on the sleeve.

 

"Huh? Wha-"

 

"Hurry up, I'm freezing." Hanni urged.

 

Minji quietly slipped out of her jacket, holding it out for Hanni to take, a shit-eating grin on her face.

 

"Don't get used to this." Hanni remarked, slipping it over her arms.

 

The wool felt thick beneath her fingers, the inside traced with smooth quilted fabric that still held traces of warmth from when Minji had been wearing it moments earlier.

 

It was huge- at least 2 sizes larger than Hanni's size, the sleeves extended well past her hands, swallowing her fingers completely with room left over. The hem fell to the middle of her thighs, making it look less like a jacket and more like a blanket she had wrapped around herself.

 

Hanni huffed- trying to roll up one of the sleeves, but it unraveled anyway, her jacket smelled faintly of clean detergent with the lingering scent of By the Fireplace by Replica - it was warm enough for the chill to disappear instantly.

 

"You look…" Minji bit the inside of her cheek- trying, (and failing) not to smile wider. "… really little."

 

"I can't help it…" Hanni mumbled, zipping up the collar until it basically became a turtleneck- nuzzling herself further into the warm fabric.

 

"You basically stole it off me." Minji huffed, before her eyes glimmered, smiling with all 32 visible.

 

"Hey, Hanni." Minji snickered- already holding herself back from laughing, "What do you call a cold thief?"

 

Hanni already didn't like where this was going, "You're gonna say some stupid shit, aren't you?" she asked, raising her eyebrow.

 

Minji ignored her- "A brr-glar!" she revealed, bursting into a fit of laughter.

 

Hanni couldn't help but smile either, her idiocy was sort of endearing, "God- you're so corny."

 

Minji nudged her shoulder, still catching her breath from laughing," I guess… you could say, I was born on the cob!"

 

Hanni hit Minji with the excess fabric of her jacket, trying to hide the grin forming on her face with the collar of Minji's jacket.

 

After a beat of silence, Minji spoke again- "You can keep it till after the game." she said thoughtfully, her slender fingers coming up to Hanni's neck to adjust the collar.

 

"Won't you get cold too?" Hanni asked into the fabric, neck craning upwards to meet Minji's eyes.

 

"Nah, it's fine." Minji shrugged- feigning nonchalance- but we all know she's freaking out, shoving her hands into the pockets of her sweats, "I won't need it much anyways."

 

"If you say so.." Hanni mumbled, wiping off lint from the sleeve.

 

"Just make sure to give me my jacket back."

 

Hanni looked up at Minji again and smiled sweetly, “I’ll think about it.”

 

Then, before Minji could protest again, she turned on her heel and disappeared into the stream of students entering the gym, swallowed by a sea of blue and white uniforms.

 

Minji stood frozen for a moment, watching the back of her oversized jacket disappear through the doors.

 

The gym was already packed an hour before tip off, blue and white streamers hung from the rafters. The student section was painted in school colors, and the schools bear mascot was currently doing backflips down the sideline. Sierra's fans had filled the visitor bleachers with matching green shirts and enough noise to shake the bleachers violently.

 

Hanni adjusted the bow in her hair and tried to focus on stretching, unfortunately for her- Minji was making that impossible.

 

Every time Hanni looked toward the court, Minji seemed to be looking back, stretching? Looking at Hanni, in the layup line? Looking at Hanni- talking to her coach? Somehow still looking at Hanni, it was ridiculous.

 

“Why is she staring at you like that?” one of the other cheerleaders asked.

 

“Because she enjoys being an annoying piece of shit." Hanni replied, without taking her eyes off Minji.

 

“I heard about the bet.” Someone else chimed in, tapping Hanni on the shoulder.

“For what it’s worth,” the girl said, “I think you’re safe.”

 

“Thank you, at least somebody here has some common sense.” Hanni exhaled, clearly throwing shade to Danielle.

 

Right on cue, Minji pulled up from well beyond the three-point line during warmups- and made it of course.

 

The crowd reacted- but Hanni refused to. Minji definitely wasn't no fucking Lamelo Ball- she can't pull this off in a game!

 

“Lucky shot,” she muttered.

 

Ten minutes before introductions, Hanni was organizing pom-poms near the baseline when a basketball bounced to a stop beside her shoe.

 

She looked up, her eyebrows furrowing as she saw who was approaching her- Minji, and she was jogging over to retrieve it.

 

“You know,” Minji said casually, adjusting her headband- her breath a bit labored as she spun the ball on one finger, “you look really pretty when you’re doubting me.”

 

Hanni’s eye twitched in disgust, or maybe something else, "And you look really delusional all the time.”

 

Minji leaned in slightly closer. “Still confident?”

 

“Extremely," Hanni replied confidently- crossing her legs.

 

“Good," Minji hummed, smiling wider.

 

“How is that any good?"

 

“Makes it more fun for me."

Hanni was going to kill her, but before she could go through with her plans- the lights dimmed, forcing Minji to skedaddle off, player introductions began.

 

The crowd roared as each starter ran onto the court- when Minji’s name was announced, the noise level jumped another notch.

 

She slapped hands with her teammates, then-because apparently she enjoyed testing Hanni’s patience-pointed directly at her section of the sideline, right at her, shooting her a flying kiss.

 

Hanni covered her face with both hands, her face flushing red.Danielle, who was standing beside her, was laughing so hard she could barely hold her pom-poms, doubling over in laughter.

 

The referee stepped to center court with the ball, preparing for the tip-off.

 

The opening tip shot toward the ceiling in a blur of orange.

 

Sierra got to it first, their visiting point guard secured the ball and immediately pushed the pace, forcing Minji and the rest of the defense to sprint backward before either student section had even finished cheering- their sneakers squealed against polished hardwood, the echo filling the gym beneath the pounding drums from the pep band.

 

Hanni settled into formation with the rest of the cheer squad along the baseline, pom-poms tucked against her hips. The opening minutes of every basketball game always blurred together for her, shes watched enough to know when to start chants, when to react to a big play, when to prepare for a timeout.

 

She wasn’t actually interested in the game, or a player.

 

“…Defense!” The student section thundered the chant behind her- the bleachers rattling as if an earthquake had shook the ground beneath them.

 

Sierra's guard crossed over at the top of the key before firing a pass to the wing. A quick swing around the court-

 

Minji jumped the passing lane, reading it almost before the ball had left the passer’s hands, long arms extending into the gap as she snatched it cleanly from the air.

 

The crowd exploded, "Go! Go!”

 

Minji didn’t hesitate, sprinting down the court on a fast break, one defender chasing, she gather-stepped near the rim and laid the ball softly off the backboard, her attention never leaving it as it fell into the rim smoothly.

 

Bank.

 

The scoreboard buzzed loudly, 2–0.

 

The gym erupted with cheer, Hanni clapped automatically with everyone else before immediately catching herself.

 

Danielle leaned toward her with the smallest grin, “Only eighteen more till you're on a date with her."

 

Hanni didn’t even look at her, “It has been twenty-three seconds, Danielle."

 

Danielle pouted, "Hey! I'm just saying.”

 

“It has been twenty-three seconds.”

 

The game settled into an early rhythm, Sierra answered with a three- their center converting an offensive rebound, and one of Minji’s teammates buried a corner jumper.

 

For several more possessions, Minji barely even touched the ball, content to move without it, setting screens and cutting through the paint while the offense flowed elsewhere.

 

Hanni felt herself relax, this looked much more realistic! Minji had scored first because of a lucky steal- nothing more.

 

“See?” she muttered under her breath to Danielle.

 

Danielle arched an eyebrow, “See what?”

 

“She just made a lucky play- nothing more."

 

On cue, Minji curled around a screen- caught a no-look pass, and pulled up from the 3-point line, watching as it fell through the rim with a swish- the shot barely disturbing the nylon.

 

5 points.

 

“…” Danielle didn’t say anything, she didn’t have to- Hanni could already feel the smile on her face.

 

Midway through the first quarter, the game grew noticeably more physical.

 

Every rebound looked like a wrestling match, every attempt at locking up an opponent ending up in shoves- the referees let nearly everything go, Minji took an elbow beneath the backboard that snapped her head sideways.

 

No whistle, nothing called on her perpetrator- Minji clicked her tongue, simply rubbing her jaw and jogging back on defense.

 

A possession later, the ball found Minji near the top of the key, she jab-stepped left, trying to get her defender to shift her weight, then crossed right.

 

Her defender slid, letting Minji split two defenders and attack the rim.

 

Sierra's center stepped up, a much larger girl- denying Minji.

 

The collision echoed through the gym, gasps rippling through the crowd as Minji hit the floor hard, sliding across the paint- Hanni’s stomach tightened before she could think about it.

 

Minji stayed down for a moment, than another-

 

"She'll be fine," Hanni murmured- the gym becoming completely silent as a referee ran up to her.

 

Minji finally sat up, rubbing her shoulder before accepting a teammate’s hand, she rolled her shoulder once, winced almost imperceptibly, then walked to the free throw line- exhaling through clenched teeth, it was attractive, actually- not that Hanni would admit it. Her teammates swarmed around her, slapping the back of her head and shoulders.

 

The call finally came, defensive foul.

 

The student section had already started chanting, “M-V-P!”

 

Hanni rolled her eyes so hard it hurt, her pupils coming down just in time to watch as Minji stepped to the free throw line, the entire gym hushed, Minji spun the ball in her palm- taking in a deep breath,

 

One dribble, then two

 

She released it high off the glass, swish.

 

6 points.

 

The scoreboard still showed over four minutes remaining in the first, Hanni stared at the number for a second longer than she meant to.

 

Minji paused to clap hands with her teammates, taking the ball back in her hands for her second free-throw, she glanced over to where the cheerleaders sat, right at Hanni- before refocusing on the ball, dribbling twice and releasing.

 

The ball hit the rim, causing her teammates to fight for the rebound- but it was no use, the other team had gotten it.

 

During the next timeout, the cheerleaders ran onto the court, music blasted through the speakers as they moved through the routine they’d practiced all week- normally Hanni would be performing almost automatically.

 

Tonight she kept catching glimpses of the bench during counts, Minji sat there with a towel draped around her shoulders, sweat running down her neck- breathing hard while listening to her coach. Every few seconds she nodded, eyes fixed on the whiteboard.

 

As the cheerleaders cleared the floor, Minji stood to check back into the game- for half a second their eyes met, Minji smiled- her signature smirk, just a quick one.

 

Then she turned and sprinted back onto the hardwood- causing Hanni to frown before she could even make a face or gesture something back.

 

Sierra adjusted 6 minutes into the 2nd quarter, they had assigned their best defender to Minji, it was now 24-18, Sierra in the lead.

 

A tall senior with long arms who denied every pass and bumped her through every screen- for nearly three straight minutes, Minji didn’t score.

 

It was clear she was getting frustrated, biting her lip as another one of her layups got denied.

 

On her next possession, she dribbled hastily- tried driving to the left- she was already there, her defender shaking her hand in her face mockingly. Minji grit her teeth, sinking into a lower position on the ball, Minji sold the drive to the left to her defender, taking a heavy step and anchoring her shoulders to the left, the defender bit- shifting her weight and lunging.

 

With a sudden, explosive movement- Minji drove her shoulder to the right, manuvering past, the lunge of the defender was the only gap she needed, in a blur- she snapped the rock across her body, into her right hand. The defender's heels dug hard into the ground, but it was no use- Minji blew past her, finishing with an easy flick of her wrist, she smiled cockily- all frustration leaving her body.

 

8 Points.

 

“See?" Danielle whispered, folding her arms. “There it is, this doesn't seem like luck, does it Hanni?"

 

"Oh for the love of everything, please shut up."

 

On the next play, Minji faked toward the corner before planting her foot and exploding backdoor,her defender hesitated for a fraction of a second- but that was more than enough.

 

The pass floated over the top, Minji caught it in stride and finished with a reverse layup before the help defense could rotate.

 

The gym shook with cheer, 10 points.

 

Halfway there.

 

By the last few minutes of the 2nd quarter- Sierra was refusing to let Minji get comfortable, every time she had the ball in her hands, they would somehow knock it out, trapped her off screens, bumped her off her cuts, and forced someone else to beat them.

 

32-29, Sierra.

 

Minji finally ended the drought with a transition three, she found the ball on the right wing after a long outlet pass, catching it right on the seams in rhythm, rising before her defender could recover -

 

Swish.

 

The student section exploded- Minji had put them equal, 32-32 both and Hanni was glad to see her school doing good-, but Minji had a total of 13 points now.

 

She bit the inside of her cheek, trying to stop herself from saying something she would regret later.

 

Sierra answered aggressively with a run of their own, their senior guard caught fire- burying back-to-back threes from deep, putting an end to the short-lived tie. And with only a minute left in the 2ND quarter, they were down 6.

 

Minji drove hard into the paint, faking the mid-range shot and kicking the ball out to an open teammate on the wing, miss.

 

Sierra's center caught the rebound, sprinting down the court as fast as she could- but Minji was faster, chasing her down and slapping the attempted layup against the glass of the backboard like prime Anthony Davis, letting her teammate get the rebound and result in a three, 38-35- Sierra.

 

Minji had straps on the girl she was defending (pause?), every attempt at getting over her top foot was denied, she baited the trap perfectly- stepping directly into the passing lane just as the guard released the ball, she intercepted the pass mid-air, the leather smacking against her palm as she pivoted down court.

 

The sudden overturn left all of Sierra's offense in a state of confusion- creating a chaotic scramble as the offense flipped into an all-out fast break, Minji pushed the ball out into the open court- ears ringing with the frantic squeaking of sneakers and the roar of the crowd.

 

Cocky as ever- Minji paused right before three point line suddenly- causing the defender chasing after her to go flying, she watched, staring her down before finally releasing the ball, an easy- uncontested 3.

 

16 points.

 

The shot clocked buzzed- the first half was over, 38 all, Minji backpedaled before pointing towards the student section, raising her hands upwards, telling the crowd to get louder.

 

They happily obliged, but Hanni just folded her arms tighter, That's enough, she thought- 16 is good enough, just stop now!

 

The court belonged to the marching band now, both of the teams retreating to their respective sides of the gym, students in crisp blue uniforms filed into formation on the court, percussion echoing through the rafters.

 

And the student section buzzed louder than it had all night, because of Minji.

 

"Fourteen already? Damn- I thought Hanni was safe!"

 

"So did everybody else, theres still another half- I wouldn't be surprised if she dropped 30."

 

Hanni heard pieces of conversation as she walked with the rest of the cheer squad towards the corner of the gym where they always rested during halftime.

 

She sat on the lowest bleacher, pulling the ribbon in her ponytail extra tight, the routine before the game and throughout the first half had left the ends of her hair damp with sweat, and the gym felt warmer now that it was filled with what seems like to half the town.

 

Danielle dropped town beside her, twisting the cap off a bottle of water, "You alright?" she asked- taking a swig of water, "Seem a bit distracted there."

 

"I'm fine," Hanni got out through gritted teeth.

 

Danielle nodded, though she wasn't convinced in the slightest.

 

She let silence sit between them comfortably, both catching their breath and watching the band in front of them. The drums reverberated throughout, the trumpets blaring loudly as the color guard's flags swept through the air in synchronized arcs.

 

Hanni welcomed the noise happily, it gave her something else besides Minji to focus on.

 

Eventually, Danielle spoke again, "She only needs 4 points."

 

Hanni didn't answer immediately, drawing in a deep breath before responding- "You think I don't know that already?"

 

Danielle turned to look at her fully, ponytail swinging over her shoulder, "Still think she won't get there?"

 

"Sierra's going to keep doubling her- I'm sure she won't." Hanni laughed, glancing over to where the team's huddles.

 

Danielle let out a noise of surprise, "Just keep telling yourself that." she mumbled, folding her arms against her chest.

 

The band finished to loud applause before quickly clearing the court, a few minutes later- both teams broke their huddle simultaneously, whatever energy that had existed before halftime was replaced with focus, Coach Tung called a play while the team listened in silence, dispersing into their positions on the floor.

 

Minji walked near the back of the group, wiping sweat from her forehead with the bottom of her jersey, lifting it just high enough for her v-line to be visible, Minji's shoulders rose and fell with steady breaths, adjusting the tape around her wrist.

 

The third quarter opened exactly the way Sierra wanted, slowing the pace. Instead of pushing the pace like they had in the first half, they walked the ball up to the floor, draining the shot clock before finally making a move- every possession became a grind, forcing the home team to stay on defense for nearly 30 seconds at a time- it's not the most ethical basketball, but it was effective.

 

Most importantly, it kept the ball out of Minji's hands- Sierra had clearly spent halftime making one decision, let the ball get to anyone but her.

 

The moment Minji crossed half court, another defender shaded towards her, every screen was switched- and every passing lane disappeared before it opened, whenever she cut toward the basket, an opposing player would bump her a bit too harshly to simply be playing defense- when it wasn't that, her jersey would be grabbed, or step on her shoulder.

 

The referees let all of it go.

 

It wasn't as easy as it had been during the 1st or 2ND quarter, sure- Sierra had adjusted their defense to try and cage in Minji, but she had found a way out each time, and now it felt as if her wings were pinned down by something.

 

The home offense sputtered, and Sierra took a 4 point lead early into the 3rd, the crowd- so loud before halftime, grew noticeably quieter.

 

Coach Tung called timeout, the players gathering around the bench while he drew hurried circles across the whiteboard.

 

Hanni watched from the baseline, rolling the handle of a pom-pom between her fingers anxiously.

 

Minji stood at the edge of the huddle with sweat dripping from her jaw and the edges of her hair onto the hardwood, chest rising and falling heavily- she nodded at everything her teammates said, but there was something noticeably tighter about her posture now, her jaw remained clenched even when she seemed relax, and every few beats she glanced back towards the court as if she were already impatient to return.

 

When play resumed, the adjustment Coach Tung had worked, at least for one play.

 

Their point guard slowed near half court allowing everyone to space the floor before signaling with two fingers- Minji drifted casually towards the left wing, almost walking through the motion instead of sprinting- her defender relaxed her shoulders for only an instant, seemingly assuming she was clearing space for someone else.

 

That was all Minji needed, she planted hard off her right foot and exploded off her Achilles through the gap before the center in the paint could react, the pass met her perfectly in stride- and she gathered without breaking rhythm, switching hands mid-air to escape the defenders hand, laying the ball softly against the glass with the care of holding an infant. (If that makes sense…)

 

The gym exploded as the student section erupted into more chants, students jumping to their feet before the ball had even fallen all the way through the net, Hanni's eyes flicked toward the scoreboard almost automatically.

 

18 Points.

 

Sierra answered immediately, though not in terms of scoring- they sent a message.

 

The next time Minji came off a screen, her defender hooked an arm around her waist for the briefest second before letting go, seamless enough for nobody to notice- she glanced towards the nearest official, disbelief flashing across her face before she forced herself to keep playing.

 

On her next possession, she attacked the basket from the right- a defender's hand met her stomach instead, borderline pushing her, the contact forced a layup awkwardly high off the backboard, she missed, badly.

 

Sierra secured the rebound, leaving Minji to land on the court beneath the rim- simply staring at the referee standing less than ten feet away, "What?" she called- throwing her hands up.

 

The referee looked her up and down, pointing down towards the ground, "Play on."

 

Minji clenched her jaw so hard- that the muscle in her jaw visibly flexed before turning to sprint back onto defense, Hanni had never seen her like that before- usually even when Minji was being obnoxious or a loser, she laughed at herself almost as often as everyone else did.

 

There wasn't even the slightest trace of amusement on her face, only irritation- and it was clear it was continuing to build every play.

 

Sierra clearly recognized it, becoming even more physical deep into the 3rd.

 

The frustration began to seep into every decision she made- the next jumper she attempted came too quickly, releasing before she could fully plant her feet or fix her position on the ball.

 

It clanged hard off the back iron- loud enough for the entire gym to wince.

 

Coach Tung slapped the side of his clipboard, "Slow down!"

 

Minji nodded once- the acknowledgment lasting three seconds in her head, the following trip down the floor she caught the ball near the top of the key with two defenders already on her- an open teammate waited in the corner, waving both hands.

 

She never looked- or maybe she did, and chose to ignore her. Instead, she lowered her shoulder and attacked the gap anyway, one defender cut her off- she spun, another met her- she faded awkwardly off one foot, releasing a heavily contest mid-range shot that barely even grazed the front rim before bouncing harmlessly away.

 

Minji didn't chase the rebound, standing frozen for a fraction too long- staring up at the basket before turning and throwing both hands into the air in anger- "How am I supposed to play through that?"

 

Coach Tung's whistle cut sharply through the noise, "Kim!"

 

Minji looked towards the bench, one of the seniors had already removed her warm-up shirt and was standing at the scorer's table.

 

She was getting subbed out.

 

Minji furrowed her eyebrows- looked back toward the court as if trying to argue without saying anything, her chest rising and falling with heavy breaths.

 

Coach met her halfway, leading her to the bench, "Minji- you've got to settle down."

 

"They're grabbing me every time I touch the ball, how am I-"

 

"I know," Coach Tung cut her off, handing her a towel.

 

"These refs- they're not calling anything!" Minji exhaled- her voice rising.

 

Coach met her eyes, "They want you to get frustrated, Minji." he continued quietly, "Every time you miss- every complaint, you're just making it easier for them."

 

His hand rested briefly against her shoulder, "You've got sixteen points," Minji's breathing gradually slowed, "Calm down, and I'll think about subbing you back in.

 

Minji looked back at the court one last time where Sierra was already setting up their offense, she nodded once- then walked to the bench without another word, dropping heavily into the last seat, she draped the towel over her head, elbows resting on her knees.

 

The remainder of the 3rd quarter passed without ever truly swinging back into their favor.

 

At first, it looked like Coach's decision to sit Minji might settle everybody else down, the ball moved more freely around the perimeter- her teammates attempted threes instead of driving into the paint, the offense resembled back into the disciplined basketball they'd played in the first half.

 

Only, something was missing- urgency.

 

Nobody wanted to be the player to take over, her teammates had grown accustomed to letting Minji to that.

 

Every possession ended with hesitant shots as the shot clock dwindled into its final seconds- and every miss only strengthened Sierra's confidence, they could smell the uncertainty on the players, the way good rivalry teams always could. Their cocky point guard controlled the tempo masterfully, slowing down the game whenever the student section threatened to build momentum, forcing the home team to defend through long, exhausting possessions, before Sierra buried another mid-range jumper or found an open shooter after the defense finally broke.

 

Their lead grew quietly, two points became four, four became six.

 

By the time the 3rd quarter buzzer sounded, a corner three from Sierra's junior captain splashed cleanly through the net, silencing the home teams crowd.

 

58-50.

 

The home players walked towards their bench with their heads lowered, jerseys soaked through with sweat- shoulders rising and falling from three quarter of constant physical strain- nobody spoke, of course… who would be talking when you're down 8 in your own home court?

 

Minji remained exactly where she'd been since checking out the game, her fingers loosely intertwined- staring at the hardwood between her Sabrina 2s, the towel that had covered her head now hung around her neck, damp from sweat- she replayed every messed up play in her head.

 

Coach Tung let the assistants finish addressing the team before crouching in front of her, "You done?"

 

Minji looked up, "Yeah…"

 

"You sure?"

 

Minji nodded slowly once, "I'm sure."

 

Coach leaned forward slightly, lowering his voice, "You know how many points I need from you this quarter?"

 

Minji stared at the floor again, "I know."

 

A murmur rippled through the home crowd as Minji stepped back onto the floor, she jogged towards her teammates- exchanging a few quick words before taking her place on the floor, there was no rush in her movements- bouncing lightly on the balls of her feet as she waited for the inbound.

 

The ball finally came, the first play of the quarter lasted nearly 25 seconds- down to the last moments of the shot clock, Sierra stayed attached to Minji with a single defender- the same senior who she had blasted by previously, nonetheless, Minji moved patiently along the perimeter, drawing her defender just far enough from the paint before cutting towards the baseline- the opening creating space for a teammate to slip around for a layup.

 

The deficit was six now, 58-52.

 

On the next trip down, Sierra slowed the game again- spreading the floor and draining the shot clock, with four seconds left on the clock, Sierra's guard finally drove into the lane, Minji slid her feet- jumping up and slapping the ball away before it could reach the rim.

 

The home bench erupted- students jumping to their feet, the sound rolled through the gym like a wave, shifting the momentum.

 

The next few minutes became a game purely of effort, of who wanted it more- and nobody else wanted it more than Minji. Now- you might be confused, Minji has been at this school for less than a month, why should she care about a rivalry game so much if she hasn't been around it for long enough? Minji's purely doing it for the love of the game, and the fact she wanted to go out on a date with Hanni- and I'm sure that says enough about her.

 

Loose balls skidded across the floor, and Minji was the first one to dive after them without hesitation, honestly It was starting to look more like volleyball than basketball- rebounds turned into battles between both teams centers beneath the rim, every defensive stop drawing louder cheer then the one before.

 

Minji didn't force the game towards herself, opting to keep the offense moving and move the ball- she grit her teeth, she only needed one more three pointer, or one more layup- then she would have twenty, glancing towards the clock- there was only 2 minutes left in the 4th quarter.

 

The 6 point deficit became 4, than 2.

 

From the moment her teammate sealed the deal and closed the gap between the team's score, every play felt amplified, the stadium pulse adding to atmosphere of it all, the crowd rose and fell silent whenever the ball was in the air, holding their breath.

 

Sierra finally answered with a contested mid-range, which resulted in a free throw after a foul on them, the lead stretching back to three.

 

38 seconds remained.

 

Their point guard pushed the ball up the floor and found Minji on the right wing, one defender met her immediately, crouched low- Minji held the ball in her palms, jab stepping once as if to test the waters, the defender held, Minji stopped, pulling the ball back and throwing a pass to the corner where her teammate stood open in one clean movement.

 

The ball went up for three- snapping through the net, tie game.

 

Sierra hurried the inbound amid the cheers from the crowd, trying to get the ball down the court before defense could settle, a pass downcourt was tipped- bouncing the ball loose across the floor.

 

Minji got there first, lunging for it- she cradled it in her arms before hurriedly pushing herself off the ground- pulling it back out to a teammate near half court.

 

Coach Tung signaled from the sideline, one shot.

 

The clock continued to run-

 

10 seconds,

 

The student section stopped chanting, the only sound was the basketball striking the floor.

 

9,

 

Minji stood near the top of the key, dribbling the rock calmly betwee her hands,

 

8,

 

7,

 

No screen came- nobody cut through the lane, leaving Minji with nobody to pass to.

 

6,

 

5,

 

Minji got lower, tween- behind the back, she crossed to the right, anchoring her shoulders and hips the same way the ball missed, the defender slid with her.

 

4,

 

She shifted her weight left and exploded horizontally, passing the ball to her left hand behind her back, the defender paused for half a beat.

 

3,

 

Minji stepped back just behind the three-point line, creating a narrow pocket of space between her and the defender.

 

2,

 

Her defender recovered and reached up, contesting the shot, but there was still only one body in front of her- only one body stopping her from making this.

 

1,

 

Minji rose straight up, shoulders squared- her eyes fixed on the rim.

 

The buzzer sounded just as the ball left her finger tips, and it seemed like time got slow, the ball climbed high above the outstretched hand, rotated backwards- then descended towards the basket.

 

It struck the front rim, bouncing luckily upwards- kissed the back iron of the backboard,

 

Then dropped cleanly through the net.

 

69-67, Home.

 

The horn was swallowed by the eruption that followed, students spilled over the front railing- the bench emptying onto the court, her teammates had sprinted towards her before seh had fully landed, surrounding her as the crowd roared.

 

Hanni remained rooted firmly to the baseline, pom-poms hanging forgotten at her sides.

 

Her eyes lifted to the scoreboard,

 

KIM MINJI - 20 PTS

 

Exactly twenty, the bet she'd accepted with complete confidence that morning has come true.

 

Before she could even process that fact and follow that train of thought, movement in her peripheral vision pulled her attention away from the scoreboard.

 

Minji had somehow broken free from the crowd surrounding her and the team, her teammates shouted after her, and girls tried unsuccessfully to pull her back towards the center of it all for pictures, but she ignored all of them. Her jersey and compression shirt was soaked through, clinging to her shoulders and biceps after nearly 34 minutes of basketball, damp strands of her had escaped her headband completely, every breath coming heavy.

 

Even from several feet away, Hanni could see the exhaustion written across her face- she'd never looked happier.

 

Minji slowed as she reached the baseline, a grin gradually spreading across her face until it became impossible to contain, "Told you-" she said between breaths, "I'd get twenty."

 

Hanni folded her arms tight, refusing to give her the satisfaction of winning the bet, "You just got lucky."

 

"Lucky?"

 

Hanni clicked her tongue, "The ball bounced around on the rim for a good 5 seconds,"

 

Minji tilted her head, still smiling- "It still went in."

 

Hanni took a small step backwards, straightening the sleeves of Minji's jacket she had stolen before the game like it would somehow restore her dignity, "You're unbelievable."

 

Minji wiped the remaining sweat from her neck and forehead, "So-" she began, a smug look on her face, "I think you owe me something."

 

Hanni glanced at one of the screens in the court, KIM MINJI - 20 PTS, hoping perhaps the scoreboard might suddenly malfunction and erase two points from existence.

 

Hanni huffed, sighing dramatically enough for everyone nearby to hear, "…Fine."

 

Minji raised an eyebrow, "Fine?"

 

Hanni looked away shamefully- the words tasted awful on her tongue, "I guess, i'll let you take me out."

 

"You don't have to make it sound like you're signing an NDA… makes me feel bad,"

 

"You think I give a shit about how you feel?" Hanni pinched the bridge of her nose, before exhaling harshly through it, "When?"

 

"Sunday night? I've got practice Saturday."

 

Hanni considered it for another moment, actually- more because she wanted to maintain some sense of control than she actually needed time to think about what's on her schedule, "Six?"

 

Minji nodded, "Works for me."

 

"And what restaurant?"

 

Minji laughed quietly- shoving her hands in her pockets and pulling out the empty pocket bags, "I was thinking Texas Roadhouse? I'm not the richest person in the world, after all."

 

Hanni stayed quiet for another moment, "The rolls are decent!" Minji added, trying to seal the deal.

 

"Sure," Hanni responded curtly.

 

Another comfortable silence settled between them, softened by the continued celebration echoing around the gym, Minji glanced towards her varsity jacket draped over Hanni's shoulders, "You can keep wearing it till then."

 

Hanni looked down at the oversized sleeves, "I wasn't gonna give it back tonight anyways."

 

A voice called Minji's name from across the court, one of the assistant coaches waved impatiently, motioning for the team to gather at center court for photographs.

 

Minji sighed, over-exaggerating it, "I should go."

 

"Then go," Hanni shrugged, pretending the conversation never mattered to her in the first place.

 

"I'll pick you up at 5:45?"

 

Hanni nodded once, and Minji smiled once more before jogging back towards the celebration- she watched her disappear into the crowd before forcing herself to look elsewhere.

 

Nearly 45 minutes later, the gym had emptied considerably.

 

The student section had long since gone home, leaving behind only scattered paper cups and the occasional poster beneath the bleachers, various volunteers were scattered about- folding chairs near the benches while parents lingered near the exits, talking about the game that everyone knew would be one for the books.

 

Hanni walked besides Danielle towards the main entrance, finally having changed out of her cheer uniform and into regular clothes, Minji's jacket still hanging loosely from her shoulders, the fabric still warm from having spent most of the evening wrapped around her.

 

They eventually reached the front doors, and Hanni stopped without meaning to-

 

Just outside, beneath the bright lights above the entrance, stood Minji.

 

She'd finally escaped out of the center-of-attention chaos and was talking with a small group of cheerleaders near the sidewalk, girls that Hanni recognized- one of them laughed at something she'd said, which probably wasn't even funny at all. Minji smiled politely, answering whatever questions they asked while rubbing the back of her neck anxiously.

 

It looked effortless, like Minji's been standing there talking to them the entire night, something inside of Hanni tightened- her fingers curling instinctively around the large cuffs of the jacket sleeves, the warmth she'd carried since agreeing to dinner on Sunday began draining away so quickly it nearly made her lightheaded.

 

She barely even knew Minji like that-

 

Less than 2 weeks ago, they had been less than strangers who passed each other in a hallway, Minji seemed to irritate her on purpose at that party- they'd never even had a real conversation until recently, and even then most of it had been teasing and stupid bets.

 

So why did this bother her? She had no claim over Minji- there was no reason for her to expect anything, they hadn't even gone on their first date yet! It's ridiculous, and she knew that.

 

Danielle noticed her stop walking, "What?"

 

Hanni couldn't answer- she couldn't stop looking, one of the cheerleaders lightly nudged Minji's shoulder while saying something else, a flirty look in her eyes. Minji laughed anyways, though the sound didn't reach Hanni from this distance.

 

Her imagination filled in the silence for her anyways,

 

She's probably like this with everybody, The thought arrived without permission.

 

Of course she is, she's friendly, confident, good looking- and she'd just hit a game winning buzzer beater in front of half the town, why wouldn't people gather around her, why wouldn't she enjoy the attention?

 

Hanni's fingers disappeared deeper into the sleeves of the jacket, her chest tightening further- she hated how quickly her mind skipped ahead.

 

One harmless conversation would become ten- ten would become late nights texting eachother till sunrise, then inside jocks, and before she knew it, there would be another girl, the story practically wrote itself before reality even had the chance to speak.

 

She knew she was doing it, because she's done this before.

 

Not with Minji, with someone else she'd trusted far more than she trusted Minji.

 

Back then, Hanni ignored every uneasy feeling because she convinced herself she was being dramatic, convinced herself she was being controlling- every laugh she's overhead, every conversation that ended with, "she's just a friend," every time she'd swallowed her discomfort and allowed it to sit in her gut heavily because she didn't want to seem possessive.

 

By the time she learned she wasn't imagining it, she'd already spent months apologizing for instincts that had been trying to warn her.

 

After that relationship ended, Hanni made a promise to herself- never again.

 

Never ignore the feeling, never be the girl who got blindsided and left in the dust because she just wanted to believe the best in somebody, now less than 2 weeks after meeting Minji, she could already feel those old defenses waking back up.

 

'Don't you see? This is exactly how it starts.'

 

The rational part of her argued back immediately, eager to protect Minji's pride- 'They're just talking, it's after a game! You don't even know what they're saying.'

 

But Hanni knew her past trauma had never been interested in being reasonable, it was trying to stop her from ever feeling the same humiliation again.

 

Hanni had expected to sleep in after getting home so late the night before, but instead she'd been awake since before nine, lying flat on her back and staring at the ceiling while sunlight crept in slowly across her bedroom, cradling her unicorn plush firmly in her hands.

 

She blamed the game, the adrenaline- the noise of it all, or maybe that she agreed to go on a date with the most annoying person she's met.

 

Her phone buzzed against the nightstand, this time it was her own- not Danielle's.

 

She reached for it without thinking, unlocking it and staring at the notification center.

 

(1) Unmissed Message: Minji (DONT TEXT BACK)

 

Her stomach betrayed her with the smallest flutter before she frowned at herself, "Get it together-" she muttered, swiping open the chat.

   

10:45 AM

   

did i ever tell you how look you good in ur cheering outfit? thought ab it mid-set and lost my concentration…

   

 

A picture loaded beneath, Hanni stared for a second- it was a photo of Minji, presumably walking, her broad and weirdly muscular shoulders adorning a flimsy tank-top, leaving Hanni's mind to imagine what was underneath it, before she slapped herself out of the thought- a drop of sweat ran down her neck, stopping at the dip of her collarbones.

   

10:31 AM

   

and why exactly is this on my screen at 10am???

   

just thought u wld appreciate the grind, big day tmr yk?

cant wait to see u 😁

   

ngl thats crazy cuz i cant wait to not look at u at all

   

also u look stupid asf put all that away LMFAO

okay damn…

   

 

Hanni bit down on her lip, fuck- she wanted to see more.

   

10:43 AM

   

lift ur shirt up.

   

what??

   

are you fucking illiterate? i wanna see if ur actually working out at the gym or just staring at buns in the gym like a perv

   

no need to add that last part but gimme a sec… just got back home

   

 

A photo loaded in after a few moments of waiting, it was a mirror picture- her shirt lifted just enough to expose her defined abs, still glistening with sweat from her workout, and high enough for Hanni to catch a peek of her sports bra. The lighting was obnoxiously good, the angle somehow making her look even broader than she already did.

 

Hanni's eye twitched, "Seriously?"

   

10:49 AM

   

what do u think? :)

   

pull ur sweatpants down.

   

but if i pull them down ur gonna see everythin!

 

so do u want my opinion or not? ur wasting my fuking time here.

   

 

Another photo followed, Minji's veiny hand rested on the waistband of her sweats, pulling it down enough for her v-line to be visible, despite her face not being in the photo, it was clear her mouth had her shirt in it- holding up the fabric to keep it from falling.

   

10:53 AM

   

ive seen better on the football team.. u r not that special minji

   

and u obviously only workout this hard so u can showoff to girls on my cheerleading squad and try to get in the sheets with them… wbk

   

the football guys? r u fucking serious hanni?

 

im working out till im nauseous at fucking 9am and ur checking out guys on the football team?

   

who tf said u could dictate who i look at? its none of ur business

i can flirt and fuck with whoever i want… its not like u do any better. fucking pushover

 

i dont hanni! i havent even looked in another girls direction ever since i met u, i swear

 

and do not fuck w any of those guys on the football team. their dicks r small as fuck and they will treat u like shit

why the fuck r u lying? i saw you with those girls after the game yesterday.

   

 

The typing bubble appeared, then disappeared- nothing,

 

Hanni furrowed her eyebrows, biting her lip anxiously. Then she waited another minute- still nothing, she locked her phone- than unlocked it less than thirty seconds later, nothing.

 

A dull feeling settled in her stomach, she didn't even want an argument- she didn't even want an explanation, Hanni wasn't even sure about what she wanted!

 

Maybe for Minji to deny it immediately, maybe for Minji to laugh it off and reassure her that she didn't care about them and she only had eyes for Hanni, but it never came, Hanni tossed her phone onto her bed a little harder than she intended to before huffing and tightening her arms around her unicorn plush, "Whatever…"

 

She stood up from her bed and walked towards the bedroom door, making it about halfway there before she turned around, picked up her phone again and unlocked it- still nothing, her shoulders slumping imperceptibly.

 

Three different outfits ended up discarded across her bedroom floor the following evening, causing Hanni to pace around her room until she decided on her pink Juicy Couture set, it was a bit informal for the occasion, but did Hanni give a shit? Probably not, she knew Minji would salivate at the sight of her anyways, well shes not too sure about that, especially after the game-

 

Hanni slipped out the front door, hoping her parents wouldn't notice her absence, since it was nearing daylight savings, the sun had already began to slip behind the neighboring suburban houses, painting the sky in streaks of orange and pink, Hanni glanced down at her phone, checking the time; 5:52- she still had eight minutes.

 

She leaned against the porch railing, her foot tapping impatiently against the concrete, she wasn't nervous, per se- she as thinking, Friday night kept replaying in her head whether she wanted it to or not- the game, the cheerleaders, our texts yesterday morning, did I overreact? God- where do I even stand with her?

 

A pair of headlights turned onto her street, making Hanni look up at the brightness- a dark gray SUV slowed as it approached her driveway before pulling smoothly against the curb, the drivers window rolled down, and lo and behold- was Minji, a grin adorning her face.

 

Without her jersey or whatever hoodie she usually had on at school, she seemed a lot elss intimidating, she had changed into a more simpler outfit, thought it was still a long sleeve (much to Hanni's dismay, she wanted to see those arms again), she wore a black quarter-zip with the sleeves pushed up to her forearms, a dark pair of jeans for her bottoms- her hair fell naturally over her forehead.

 

Minji hurried climbed out of the drivers seat before Hanni could even reach the passenger door herself, running across the length of the car to open it for her.

 

"You didn't have to get out," Hanni acknowledged as Minji swung the door open, gesturing for her to enter.

 

"I wanted to, believe me."

 

Minji stood there awkwardly at the door for a moment as Hanni made herself comfortable in the passenger seat, rubbing the back of her neck, "You just look…"

 

Hanni raised an eyebrow, shooting her a look from where she sat,"What?"

 

"Really nice…" Minji got out, her voice breathy and her cheeks flushing red.

 

"You don't have to butter me up," Hanni looked away- clicking her tongue, "You probably say that to every girl that's been in your car." she huffed- the words coming out sharply.

 

Minji tried to ignore it, but her smile faltered for only a fraction of a second before returning, smaller now- "I don't."

 

Hanni rolled her eyes with enough exaggeration to make sure Minji got an eyeful of it, finally clicking her seatbelt in- sensing the end of the conversation, Minji closed the door gently before walking back around to the drivers side, and a few moments later, the engine started.

 

Hanni didn't rush to make conversation as Minji pulled away from the curb, opening Instagram instead and deliberately ignoring her.

 

"So…" Minji began- leaning slightly to the side, "I can get your Instagram, right? I mean… I already have your phone number…"

 

Hanni scoffed, "I'm surprised you just haven't taken the initiative to search up my name,"

 

"I know, I know, I just didn't wanna follow you without your permission, if that makes sense." Minji continued.

 

Hanni didn't respond after that, continuing to scroll through her Insta feed, the drive maintained a comfortable sort of silence, broken only by the occasional click of the turn signal or Minji trying to suppress her road rage, the Vietnamese kept her attention fixed on the 5.78×2.82 inch screen, but every now and then just out of her line and sight, she caught Minji quietly drumming her thumb against the steering wheel.

 

Without meaning to, Hanni's gaze drifted to the appendages attached to Minji's arms, her hands.

 

Minji's hands looked absurdly large wrapped around the steering wheel, her long fingers rested loosely over the leather, one hand guiding the wheel while the other shifted effortlessly between the gear selector and the center console whenever they stopped at a light- whenever she turned she would grip the wheel tighter, the veins in her hands popping out just enough for Hanni to gawk at them. Just like how Minji played basketball, she drove strangely gentle- never jerking the wheel too harshly or accelerating too quickly, only deliberate movements.

 

Hanni's eyes trailed down to her own, they looked so much smaller than Minji's, maybe one and a half of her hand would equal to one of Minji's, the same hand that stopped the basketball from hitting her face- the same hand that could palm an entire basketball with two fingers-

 

Heat crept into her face before she could stop it, squirming in her seat- the phone she was holding moments ago falling forgotten into her lap, she turned towards the window, folding her arms a little tighter over herself.

 

Minji glanced over for a second before looking back at the road, "Are you cold? I can turn down the a/c-" she doted, hand already coming up to turn it off.

 

Hanni blinked, the air conditioning slowed to a stop- without the cool air hitting her, the burning of her cheeks felt amplified, "Turn it back on."

 

"You sure?" Minji asked, looking at Hanni for a split second- "You've been hugging yourself for the last five minutes."

 

Hanni's arms fell to her sides, "No I haven't?"

 

Minji only raised an eyebrow, tightening her grip on the steering wheel again, "Whatever you say, princess." she mumbled- refocusing on the road.

 

They reached the wooden facade of Texas Roadhouse a few minutes later, Minji pulled into a parking space a few rows from the entrance and shifted the car into park, without the buzz of the engine around them- country music from the restaurant drifted faintly across the parking lot, somehow making it all the way to the insides of her car.

 

"We're here," Minji said quietly, unbuckling herself.

 

"You think I can't see that for myself?" Hanni bratted, slipping her phone into the pocket of her tracksuit.

 

Minji smiled to herself before stepping out, before Hanni could even remove her seatbelt and open the door for herself, Minji had already rounded the front of the SUV and opened the passenger door, rocking on the balls of her feet anxiously as she waited without saying anything.

 

"You know," Hanni muttered as she stepped out besides her, "I can get my own door."

 

"I know you can," Minji grinned once again- shoving her hands into her pockets, "but I want to give you princess treatment."

 

Hanni clicked her tongue and began walking infront of Minji, trying very very hard to not acknowledge the tiny smile threatening to appear on her face.

 

The smell of grilled steak and fresh rolls greeted them as they stepped inside, the lobby buzzed with conversations- entire families crowding the wooden benches while their children cracked peanuts onto the floor despite that tradition ending years ago, the country music they heard from the parking lot was even louder here- with the combination of employees erupting into a birthday chant, it's probably the loudest place within a 10 miles radius.

 

A hostess smiled warmly as they approached the stand, "For two?"

 

Minji nodded, "I've got a reservation for 6'o clock? Under the name Minji."

 

The hostess nodded, "We should have a table ready in a moment."

 

Hanni wandered a few steps away while they waited, pretending to study the western style decorations hanging along the walls, when really she could feel Minji stealing quick glances at her every few seconds before immediately looking somewhere else- Hanni didn't know why, but being under Minji's gaze left goosebumps on her skin, and she hated it.

 

"Minji?" The hostess returned, menus tucked beneath one arm, "Right this way."

 

They followed her through the crowded dining room, weaving between laughing families and servers balancing trays full of food overhead, until their hostess stopped right besides a booth tucked near one of the back windows, it was much quieter compared to the rest of the establishment.

 

"Your waiter will be right with you," The hostess finished.

 

Minji waited for Hanni to get into the booth first before taking the seat across from her, the menus landing between them with a soft thud- for a few moments, the only sound between them was the rustle of the laminated pages turning.

 

Hanni's eyes immediately found the right side of the menu- the steaks, especially the Porterhouse steak, by far the most expensive thing on the page. She stared at the price for a second to look at Minji, who hadn't even opened her menu all the way yet, tracing the edge of it with her thumb, looking anywhere except directly at Hanni.

 

She looked like somebody who was desperately hoping this evening wouldn't go wrong, tugging at the collar of her quarter-zip in an attempt to loosen it a bit and give her overheating neck a breather, Hanni's chest tightened from where she sat, but their waitress appeared before she could follow that lead.

 

"My names Choerry, I'll be serving you two tonight, can I start you two off with something to drink?"

 

"I'll have a water- Ice water, please." Minji answered- voice a bit strained.

 

Hanni barely glanced up from the menu, "I'll have a coke." she answered.

 

"Perfect, I'll bring those right over and give you another minute with the menus." Choerry hummed- jotting it down in her notebook and disappearing.

 

Without her to fill the silence, the void of noise in their booth was a stark juxtaposition to the hustle and bustle of the restaurant, but thank the lord- Choerry returned with their drinks before either of them managed to fill it.

 

Hanni accepted her coke with a quiet, "Thanks." Never lifting her eyes off the menu.

 

Across from her, Minji wrapped both her hands around her glass of water, taking a sip she needed desperately- she was so nervous her throat was starting to dry out.

 

Minji tried again, clearing her throat- "So how's cheer season been?" she asked, letting her elbows rest on the table.

 

Hanni shrugged, still looking at the menu- "It's been okay,"

 

"You guys do anything fun?"

 

"Nah, not really."

 

Minji bit down on her lip- nodding, before searching for another opening, "You got any siblings?"

 

"Nope," Hanni responded, popping the 'p', "Only child."

 

"What about pets?" Minji pushed.

 

"I've got a cat,"

 

"What kind?"

 

"Siamese."

 

Despite Minji's best efforts, the conversation stalled again- but she smiled anyways, refusing to let it die, "I had a golden retriever growing up."

 

Hanni hummed politely, finally setting down the laminated menu.

 

"He used to steal socks out of our laundry baskets and hide them under my bed… me and my siblings didn't realize where they were disappearing to until my mom found like, thirty socks one day." Minji shared, a tiny laugh escaping her.

 

Hanni took another sip of lemonade before replying, "Sounds annoying."

 

"It was,"

 

Seeing as that Hanni made no move to continue talking, Minji stared down at the table- she'd imagined this date so many times, in bed- brushing her teeth, during practice, at the gym- but none of them looked like this, she knew Hanni was a brat- but Minji didn't know she was this… insensitive?

 

Their waitress, Choerry- returned with her order pad, "You guys ready to order?"

 

Minji shut her menu, "I'll do the New York strip, 14oz, medium rare- with vegetables and the mac n cheese, please."

 

The waitress nodded before turning to Hanni- who barely hesitated, "I'll take the 20 oz porterhouse, cooked rare, and for my side... the loaded mashed potatoes."

 

Their waitress continued writing, "Anything else?"

 

Minji looked up- her eye's widening.

 

Hanni's eyes drifted further down the menu, "And the half rack of ribs, please."

 

She looked up at Minji, who's face had gone pale, "Everything alright?"

 

Minji smiled automatically, "Yeah!"

 

Their waitress collected the menus and disappeared towards the kitchen, and Minji watched her leave before looking back across the booth, "You're really… hungry."

 

Hanni shrugged, "Didn't eat lunch."

 

"Ah, that explains it." Minji exhaled in an attempt to ground herself.

 

It didn't, not at all- they both knew it didn't.

 

Minji recognized what Hanni was doing almost immediately, her steak alone- a ribeye, cost nearly twice than what she had ordered for herself, adding the ribs, appetizers, and drinks- rhe bill would be ridiculous, she understood the message.

 

If you're serious, prove it.

 

Minji nodded, "I'm glad you ordered what you wanted."

 

"You don't care?" Hanni frowned, but covered it up with a straight face the milisecond she felt it form on her face, "It's… expensive."

 

"It's dinner, and I invited you."

 

Another wall Hanni had expected to hold didn't, the guilt settling in her chest before she quickly buried it beneath another sip of her drink.

 

Minji continued her onslaught of questions, "What kind of music do you listen to?"

 

"You know… just a little bit of everything," Hanni responded vaguely, crossing her arms.

 

"Well, I'm sure you've got a favorite artist."

 

"Marvin Gaye and Stevie Wonder." Hanni hummed curtly.

 

Minji smirked, "Didn't take you for a love song kinda girl, what's your favorite movie?"

 

"I don't really watch movies."

 

"Well, we can fix that… y'know- Netflix and chill?" Minji tried- but Hanni shot her a glare, she continued anyways, "If you're not cheering… what do you do in your free time?"

 

Hanni looked out the window, "Homework."

 

Minji laughed to herself- "Seriously? I mean- that's kind of depressing."

 

"I survive."

 

The conversation died again, but Minji's conversation skills were that of a defibrillator- reviving it again and again, by the time their food arrived- Minji had learned basically nothing new about the girl sitting across from her.

 

On the other hand, Hanni had unwillingly learned that Minji's favorite color was blue, that she broke her wrist in the 7th grade falling off a skateboard she swear she knew how to ride, that she secretly loved terrible reality television slop, and that she almost quit basketball entirely her freshman year cause she spent the entire season sitting on the bench.

 

Minji only spoke because… well because somebody had to, and Hanni had listened cause saying nothing is easier than oversharing.

 

Their food arrived steaming hot, Choerry set the massive porterhouse in front of Hanni before placing the ribs and Minji's food in their respective areas, "Can I get you two anything else?"

 

Both shook their heads, the waitress smiled and disappeared again- for several minutes, only the sound of forks against plates filled the booth.

 

Hanni had barely touched her meal, and Minji noticed- but she kept eating anyway.

 

Eventually, Minji couldn't take it- the scrape of ceramic against wood interrupted the silence, the sound of Minji setting her fork down, "Hanni..."

 

Hanni looked up, "Whats up?"

 

Minji sat quietly for a beat, her fingers interlacing together on top of the table, "I just..." she sighed- "I just don't get it."

 

Hanni looked back at her plate.

 

"I'm trying," Minji continued- the words coming out strained, "I'm trying to show you I'm serious."

 

"I asked you here because I wanted to know you- but I just feel like I've spent this entire dinner talking to a brick wall."

 

Hanni's shoulders visibly tensed, her grip tightening on her fork.

 

"I'm asking questions- I'm trying to keep the conversation going, and it's like..." Minji's voice cracked with frustration, bringing herself to make eye-contact with Hanni.

 

"...you're not even making an effort."

 

The words lingered between them, and Hanni did nothing but stare hard at her basically untouched steak- she's been expecting this, just hadn't expected it to hurt.

 

"It's not you, Minji." Hanni's answer finally came, "It's me."

 

"No."

 

Hanni looked up, her eyes widening a fraction, "No?"

 

"I don't want that answer-" Minji leaned forward, resting her forearms on the table, her voice softening- "If it's really you, then tell me."

 

Hanni swallowed- all of a sudden, eating an entire 20 oz steak didn't sound to appetizing.

 

"I want to listen."

 

For several long seconds, Hanni couldn't bring herself to speak- she watched people laugh at neighboring tables, a little girl across the room proudly carried a balloon almost bigger than she was, a waiter taking orders-

 

Inside the booth, it felt as though the entire restaurant had disappeared.

 

Finally, Hanni got something out, "I saw you-" she started, inhaling sharply, "after the game."

 

Understanding crossed Minji's face almost immediately, "The cheerleaders?"

 

Hanni nodded- not daring to make eye contact

 

"They were just congratulating me-"

 

"I know," She interrupted gently, "I know that's probably all it was- but that's what scares me."

 

Minji remained completely silent.

 

"My ex never gave me a reason to worry," Hanni began- "Not at first."

 

She stared down at the table, "It started with harmless conversations with girls she'd known longer than me."

 

"You have no idea how many times i've heard, 'She's just a friend.'" Hanni smiled bitterly.

 

"I believed her, you know?" Hanni sighed- looking back up at Minji- "I've known you for less than a month, I don't know who you are… I don't know if you flirt with me because you actually like me or because that's just how you are with everyone,"

 

Her voice became almost painfully quiet- the confession leaving her feeling exposed. "I saw you standing with those girls, and before I even got home I jumped to conclusions and I'd already convinced myself I was going to end up looking stupid."

 

The noise of the restaurant gradually filtered back into Hanni's awareness, the scrape of chairs against the floor- a server laughing with one of the cooks near the kitchen window, the sounds of it all came back slowly to Hanni, her heartbeat calming down.

 

Though- she kept her eyes fixed on the condensation gathering on the cusp of her untouched drink, she expected Minji to argue back- but her response never came.

 

Minji sat motionless across from her, elbows still resting lightly against the edge of the table- her eyes lingering on Hanni, trying to understand something that didn't quite click in her head, eventually- she looked down, a breath escaping her.

 

"So," she rubbed both hands over her face before letting them fall into her lap, staring down at the plate she hardly touched, her voice stripped of all optimism she walked into the restaurant with. "You've been pushing me away… because you already decided how this was going to end."

 

"I mean-" she began, swallowing the tightness in her throat. "you were texting me about how you were serious about us when the night before you were talking to those girls!" Hanni retorted- trying to save at least a little bit of her dignity.

 

"Hanni- I am serious about you, about us. Those girls were just congratulating me, I talked to them for maybe 3 minutes, tops!" Minji pleaded, searching Hanni's face.

 

"I was flirting, I wasn't trying to make you jealous- i wasn't thinking about anybody else, I was looking for you!" Minji continued- her voice cracking, trying her best to keep it down.

 

Hanni nodded to herself once, her expression unchanging. "Show me."

 

"What?"

 

"Show me your serious about me." Hanni exhaled, the words landing squarely in Minji's chest, she folded her arms across herself- as though the action would keep everything she was feeling from spilling out.

 

"I don't think…" Minji began carefully, "I don't think that's something I can prove in one night."

 

"Exactly, nobody can."

 

Minji watched as Hanni reached into her pocket, she thought for a moment that she was taking out her phone- maybe post her online and call her a loser for the entire student body to see, but no- she pulled out a few folded $1 bills, carefully flattening them against the edge of the table and placing them carefully beneath the edge of her untouched plate, "Minji-"

 

Hanni stood- the movement startling Minji, her eyes widening, "I think I'm gonna go."

 

Minji outstretched an arm- her hand just stopping short of Hanni's wrist, her heart dropping, "Hanni? Come on- don't leave, I really like you- I know we've only known each other for a few weeks but-" Minji pleaded, standing up herself- her voice faltered, she just wanted to talk it out.

 

"Please? Give me another chance-" Her voice cracked, the words tumbling out of her mouth- tripping over one another before she could organize them into a coherent sentence.

 

"I meant every word I said, I asked you out because I want to know you-" She paused, gesturing to their selves. "I wanted there to be more of this."

 

Hanni looked at her for a long moment, and Minji could see everything happening behind her eyes- the conflict, the hesitation, and she convinced herself that maybe Hanni would just sit back down."

 

"I'm sorry," she whispered- barely audible over the noises from around them.

 

Minji's shoulders sank, "Hanni-"

 

Hanni cut her off gently, "I can't Minji, I don't think I can do this."

 

Her eyes shimmered beneath the warm restaurant lights, "And please don't text me anymore."

 

Minji's jaw was left hanging- before she manually had to shut it, Hanni nodded once- then slid out the booth, turning towards the exit, she watched her weave through the crowded restaurant, disappearing between tables until the front doors swung open and closed behind her.

 

Minji remained standing in the booth long after Hanni disappeared from view, her knees eventually giving out beneath her. She lowered herself onto the seat with a quiet exhale, staring across at the empty side of the table where the girl of her dreams was sitting minutes ago.

 

Hanni's plate sat exactly where she left it, the porterhouse had only been cut once- the ribs remaining untouched, even her drink was nearly full, the ice cubes slowly melting into a drink that had long since lost its fizz.

 

She eventually pushed herself to her feet- the walk to the front register feeling longer than it had been when they arrived. She stood in line without really seeing the people in front of her- the waitress smiled politely as she handed over the check, apologizing for the wait while another employee hurried behind the counter carrying stacks of clean glasses and plates.

 

But Minji barely even heard her- her eyes settling on the total, it was expensive.

 

The porterhouse, the ribs, Minji remembered Hanni studying the right side of the menu before ordering almost every expensive thing she could find.

 

Minji slid her card across the counter anyways.

 

"No separate checks?" The cashier asked.

 

Minji nodded no, the receipt printing with a mechanical whir, she signed it without looking twice at the total- folded the receipt into her wallet, and thanked the cashier before pushing through the front doors.

 

She stood on the sidewalk for a long moment, letting the sounds of the restaurant fade behind her, life kept moving- but Minji felt strangely stuck, keys hanging uselessly from her fingers.

 

By the time she was in her car, she didn't even remember walking over there, one moment she was standing beneath the glow of Texas Roadhouses front lights on the sidewalk- the next she was sitting behind the steering wheel with both hands resting limply against the leather, staring through the windshield at nothing.

 

The parking lot was beginning to empty out, and Minji watched car after car leave without really seeing of it.

 

She slumped in the seat- resting her forehead against the steering wheel, the cool leather pressing against her skin, "What did I even do wrong?" she mumbled- the question coming out so quietly she barely even heard it herself.

 

The second the doors shut behind Hanni, she regretted leaving. The cool air struck her flushed face immediately, carrying with it the smell of grilled food- nobody looked at her twice, and she was grateful for that, her hands were already shaking.

 

Hanni walked until she reached the edge of the sidewalk near the curb, far enough from the entrance that she could no longer hear the conversations spilling out every time the doors opened.

 

Only then did she stop, looking down at her phone, staring at her reflection in the lockscreen without unlocking it- she looked miserable.

 

She unlocked her phone with shaky hands, her thumb overing over Minji's contact before she could catch herself, <1> no- she told Minji not to text her anymore, turning around and running back to her with your tail tucked in between your legs would make you look insane.

 

Instead, she opened the ride-share app, calling her Uber. Literally.

 

The nearest driver was six minutes away, Hanni pressed confirm- a little blue car icon appeared on the map several blocks away, slowly beginning to move towards the restaurant. Six minutes, six minutes of being alone with her thoughts.

 

She slipped her phone back into her pocket and crossed her arms, she could still see the front windows of the restaurant from where she stood, people moving behind the glass- couples laughing, and Hanni couldn't help but wonder if Minji was still sitting at the booth.

 

The thought of Minji lodged itself in her chest before she could push it away- Minji, sitting alone in the booth, eating alone. Don't.

 

She spent the entire dinner trying to leave before she cared too much- thinking about Minji now defeats the whole point of leaving, doesn't it?

 

A car pulled into a nearby parking space, music thumping loudly enough to vibrate through the asphalt ground, two girls climbed out- laughing so hard one of them nearly dropped her phone before they disappeared inside the restaurant together, Hanni watched them go.

 

She groaned- rubbing her eyes roughly with the heels of her palms, "Why couldn't you just be a jerk?" she mumbled quietly to herself.

 

It would've been so much easier- if Minji had rolled her eyes or gotten angry, or said 'You're just overreacting.' Then Hanni could've left convinced that she's done the right thing, but Minji just looked hurt.

 

Her phone vibrated in her pocket, Your driver is arriving in 2 minutes .

 

Eventually her phone buzzed again- Your driver has arrived

 

A gray sedan rolled up to the curb besides her, the driver lowering the passenger window, "Hanni?"

 

She nodded quietly, "That's me."

 

She climbed into the backseat, pulling the door shut behind her.

 

"Had a long night?" The driver asked kindly as he merged back onto the road.

 

Hanni looked out the window watching as the streetlights slid across the window one after another, each one briefly illuminating her reflection before darkness swallowed it again, "Something like that."

 

The driver seemed to sense that she wasn't interested in talking, letting the rest of the ride pass in silence.

 

Sleep had come in short, restless bursts for Minji- every time she closed her eyes, she found herself back inside the Texas Roadhouse booth, watching Hanni stand from the table all over again, she could still picture the handful of crumpled one-dollar bills disappearing beneath the edge of Hanni's untouched plates- those five words echoing louder than anything else.

 

"Please don't text me anymore."

 

By 8:30, she gave up on sleep together- wandering aimlessly around her bedroom instead, her bed remained unmade and messy from the night of restless tossing and turning, the curtains were only halfway open- letting the pale morning sunlight spill across the hardwood floor where yesterdays jeans still lay crumbled beside her basketball shoes.

 

Normally when she was frustrated like this, she would already been in the gym by now, taking her anger out on an empty court- but today she couldn't bring herself to even leave her room, her personal basketball sitting untouched by the door.

 

Coach Tung had sent a reminder about film later that afternoon in the team group chat- which had exploded with clips of her game-winning shot, her teammates calling her clutch, or sending edits of her to the group chat… glazing her as if she was a donut.

 

Minji didn't watch a single video, her mind replaying an entirely different highlight.

 

Hanni looking away Minji asked a question about her, and Hanni walking out of the restaurant without looking back.

 

Minji stopped pacing and let herself fall backwards onto her bed with a frustrated groan, "What am I supposed to do?"

 

She listened, she didn't interrupt, she didn't get defensive when Hanni admitted she assumed the worst after seeing her talking to those girls outside the gym, she explained herself calmly, she paid for dinner without complaining, even when Hanni deliberately ordered the most expensive things on the menu, she opened doors, asked questions, tried to make conversation-

 

Tried to understand.

 

But none of that mattered now, because long before Minji even entered Hanni's life, somebody else had already convinced her that people always left, and despite never giving Hanni a reason to doubt her, Minji ended up paying for mistakes that she never made.

 

She reached for her phone helplessly, her conversation with Hanni still sat pinned at the top of her messages- she knew she's not supposed to text her, Hanni had made that crystal clear- she could lock her phone, set it back down, gone for a run, done literally ANYTHING but text her.

 

Instead, her thumbs began moving before her brain had the chance to stop them.

   

9:43 AM

   

you better believe im never texting u again.

   

ur just blatantly rude and ignorant to me while im trying to treat you in the best way possible ">

im tired of being your mutt.

   

 

She hit send, and for half a second- the rush of anger… felt good. Like saying something she'd been swallowing all night, her breathing quickened, clenching her jaw so tightly as it ached. But the adrenaline disappeared almos tas quickly as it had arrived, leaving behind something a million times worse.

 

Regret.

 

Hanni was going to read it, the same girl that had been vulnerable enough with Minji to admit her struggles, hell- she had spent an entire dinner terrified Minji would eventually become somebody else, and she just handed her exactly what she'd been afraid of.

 

She dropped her phone onto her comforter as though it had burned her palm, "What the hell is wrong with me?"

 

And just as Minji's stomach dropped so violently she felt like she was gonna hurl, Hanni read the message.

 

Her phone buzzed, and Minji lunged for the phone she had dropped minutes ago so quickly it slipped from her hand, bouncing once against the mattress before she caught it again, her heart hammering against her ribs.

   

9:50 AM

   

minji?

   

hanni im sososo sorry please i didnt mean any of that i was frustrated and took it out on you and thats not fair

   

i miss you can we go out again? i promise to listen pleasepleaseplease dont be mad at me i miss you so much

   

didnt i tell you to stop texting me? what the fuck r u doing now?

   

i know i didnt listen to you im sorry i just couldnt take it anymore i miss you so much please ill listen to you and never ever look in the direction of any other girl again

   

fucking mutt. get out of my messages and go do something else with your life and PLEASE do not even TRY to talk to me at skl

   

 

Minji slowly lowered her phone into her lap, fuck.

 

By the time class started the next day, Hanni had 5 unread texts- all from Minji.

 

She sent a cautious, "Morning!" at 7:12.

 

Hanni stared at it from beneath her blankets, thumb hovering over the notification for a long 10 seconds before locking her phone again- she wasn't ready to respond, she wasn't ready to open the conversation. I mean, she did just wake up- but letting it sit on delivered feels easier than trying to figure out what to say- or rather, what not to say

 

At 7:28, Minji sent, "I deserved that…" then a minute later- "I miss you." Just as Hanni started to get dressed, her stomach twisted, but she still didn't answer, tucking her phone into the pocket of her jacket. (Minji's jacket… keep in mind.)

 

At 7:41, It was, "Please don't ignore me forever," followed by an, "What r u wearing tdy?"

 

She spotted Minji just as she and Danielle stepped onto the school grounds.

 

She stood near the main entrance with her backpack slung lazily over her one shoulder- it seems a bit odd to see her not in her varsity jacket, but then again… Hanni did take it. Hyein, a freshman- talked animatedly beside her, hands moving almost as much as her mouth… whatever story the freshman was telling is apparently very important.

 

But Minji wasn't being an active listener, or listening at all.

 

Her eyes continuously swept over the crowd arriving on campus, searching every face that walked through the gates before moving onto the next one… looking for a specific 5'3 Vietnamese girl.

 

Looking for Hanni.

 

Her chest tightened, and without thinking she reached over and grabbed Danielle's wrist, "This way."

 

Danielle barely had any time to protest before Hanni redirected the two of them toward one of the smaller side entrances that hardly anybody used unless they were A: running late, or B: picking up door dash for lunch.

 

"You're walking faster than usual." Danielle observed, keeping her pace beside her.

 

"Shut up…" Hanni grumbled- finally making it to her locker and unlocking they padlock forcefully, before she could even grab her notebook- her phone buzzed again in her pocket.

 

She huffed, she didn't have to look at it to know it was Minji, but she looked anyways- unlocking the screen just enough for the notification banner to expand.

 

(1) New message from: Minji: can we talk for like 3 mins? please?

 

Hanni locked the screen with a click of her tongue, while Danielle watched the entire exchange from the corner of her eye.

 

"You leaving her on delivered now? I mean- what happened?" She laughed, nudging Hanni's shoulder.

 

"She started it, Danielle… you don't even know the full story, so I don't wanna hear it from you."

 

"I know enough of it, word spreads fast, y'know."

 

Hanni sighed- "No, you don't."

 

"I know enough to know she's apologizing." Danielle smirked, leaning casually against the neighboring locker.

 

Hanni slammed her locker shut, rolling her eyes and started her walk to first period, but unfortunately for her- Minji had finally spotted her.

 

She caught the exact moment their eyes met across the hallway, Minji's entire posture changed- the uncertainty she'd worn while scanning the crowd vanished almost instantly, replaced by relief- she excused herself from Hyein so quickly the younger girl pouted in confusion, watching the elder practically stiff-arm her way through the sea of students.

 

"Hanni, wait-!" she called- but Hanni kept walking, quickening her pace in hopes to get away from her.

 

The hallway between the first and second buildings was already beginning to fill with students, making it nearly impossible to move quickly. Minji slipped around a group of people carrying science projects, ducked past another cluster of sophomores, and eventually- her longer legs caught up to Hanni just outside the science wing, slightly out of breath as she matched Hanni's pace.

 

"Can I talk to you?"

 

Hanni stopped abruptly enough for Danielle to nearly walk into her, and so did her fellow students around them, slowing down- sensing the drama.

 

Hanni crossed her arms to face Minji, "About what?"

 

Minji swallowed, her eve's apple bobbling nervously, "About yesterday, and the night before."

 

"Which part, exactly? The part where you yelled at me over text then came crawling back begging me to go out with you again 30 seconds later?" Hanni pushed, trying to keep her voice leveled but rolling her eyes.

 

Minji winced, "I know I messed up, I'm sorry- okay? I was just frustrated and-"

 

Hanni abruptly cut her off, "And you took it out on me, you've said that already."

 

Minji took a careful step closer, "Can we please," Minji glanced briefly at the growing audience near them. "-talk somewhere that's not in front of half the school?"

 

Hanni's expression hardened, "No."

 

Minji rubbed nervously at the back of her neck before trying one last time, "Hanni-"

 

"I said, no."

 

Minji opened her mouth again, desperation creeping into her voice, "I just want you to listen for a second."

 

Hanni almost had a look of humor on her face, looking directly at Minji for the first time since the conversation began. "Funny, because that's what I was doing at dinner while you decided I was being 'ignorant'"

 

Minji's shoulders sagged, the words landing visibly, "I know…" she mumbled- her voice quieter now.

 

"Do you really?"

 

Minji looked at her with the most pitiful puppy-eyes ever, like a top 3 of all time performance, but Hanni just looked away from her, jaw tight.

 

She stepped back, "Danielle? Get her away from me."

 

"Hanni, seriously? Come on-"

 

And as if Danielle was a hired Fortnite npc, she complied- exhaling slowly before stepping between them, "Minji? I have nothing against you… I think you should give her some space.." she mumbled carefully.

 

"Give her space?" Minji repeated, utter disbelief in her voice, "I've been giving her nothing but space since last night.

 

Hanni looked anywhere but her.

 

"Please." Danielle said- the one word from her carrying enough weight for Minji to finally back off.

 

Minji's eyes remained fixed over Hanni, using her height to an advantage to look over Danielle and at her- "I didn't mean what I said-" she tried again, hoping the swell of noise around them didn't drown out her words.

 

Danielle touched Hanni's elbow, "We should go."

 

Hanni nodded, turning away and leaving Minji with her feet rooted into the ground.

 

"Can I at least get my jacket back?" Minji called out, cupping her hands over her mouth to project her voice, but it was to no avail.

 

That afternoons practice went just as well for Minji as her morning, but unfortunately- the Cheer team's practice schedule didn't align with the Basketball teams, meaning she couldn't confront or talk to Hanni.

 

The first 15 minutes of practice is calming to her- the squeak of sneakers across freshly polished wood, the echo of basketballs bouncing, the familiar smell of varnished wood mixed with sweat and rubber- it was the one place where everything always made sense.

 

But everything just seemed to be getting on her nerves- to Minji, the court was sort of like a refuge, the one place where her thoughts normally organized themselves, every drill demanded enough concentration to crowd out whatever had happened outside of the gym, academic stress stayed outside the gym doors, and her bad days disappeared behind the baseline.

 

The first ball that found her hands felt unfamiliar, the pebbled leather rough against her fingertips that Minji suddenly seemed incapable of remembering despite thousands upon thousands identical motions. She bounced it twice at the free-throw line without thinking, listening to its hollow echo return from the bleachers before lifting into an easy shot- or what should've been an easy shot.

 

The ball struck the back rim with a sharp metallic crack, ricocheting off farther than usual.

 

She frowned, she knew it wasn't unusual to miss- everybody does, but it was unusual to not know why.

 

She jogged after the rebound herself, refusing to let anybody else retrieve it. I'll make the next one, I always do.

 

Well, clearly not today.

 

Her second shot spun halfway round the rim before slipping out- the third clipped the front iron, the fourth drifted left, missing the basket all together.

 

None of them felt particularly bad leaving her fingertips, each one looked right for the first second it was in the air before betraying her at the very end- and she found herself doubting the mechanics that'd been second nature for years.

 

The rim hadn't moved, it was still 10 feet high, 18 inches wide. Exactly where it's always been, and nothing about it changed- so why did it feel impossible to hit?

 

So she tried again, and again- but every miss just sharpened her awareness of the one before it until the shots stopped existing independently, they became a chain- each mistake dragging the next one down with it before the ball had even left her hands.

 

Her teammates continued rotating through drills around her, laughing occasionally whenever someone banked in an ugly 3 or celebrated an impossible shot that had no business falling, the atmosphere in the gym remained light- but Minji felt disconnected from it all.

 

A pass hit her squarely in the chest before she finally realized someone had thrown it at her, she caught it instinctively- her hands aligning theirselves on the seams, shooting it… airball.

 

The ball looked like it was going to fall seamlessly through the rim- but it stopped just short.

 

Several of her teammates pretended not to notice, that made it all worst- the pity was harder on the stomach than teasing. Minji hustled, retrieving the ball before anyone else could reach it, dribbling it harder than necessary as she walked back to the shooting line.

 

She squeezed it tightly in her hands- the seams pressing into her palm.

 

Minji could still see the messages they had become something far more inconvenience than words on a screen- replaying themselves in her head whenever she had even half a second of silence.

 

She wishes she could climb inside her phone and trip the message apart letter by letter before it ever reached the other end of the phone.

 

Another pass met her hands, she barely bent her knees before releasing- too long, it clanged against the backboard before it could complete a full arc. Another- too short, another, too far right.

 

Every miss chipped away at her confidence- but confidence wasn't something she'd ever had to think too much about before, to Minji… it just existed, built through years of early morning workouts in empty gyms, but confidence is fragile. It erodes away gradually, and one failed attempt could break it all at once.

 

Conditioning came next, usually she loved running, it gave her comfort in the exhaustion. Her muscles burning while she kept pushing gave her something tangible to focus on, fatigue is easier to handle than overthinking- but today, every sprint just game her more time alone inside her head.

 

Back and forth across the court, baseline to the opposite one, again and again until her lungs burned and her legs were heavy, but the ache in her chest refused to disappear beneath the physical exertion.

 

On the next rep, she crossed the baseline a fraction of second later- the tiny failure irritating her almost as much as the missed shots.

 

On the next water break, she reached automatically for her water bottle, sitting near the far end of the row of chairs, resting her elbows onto her knees- trying to let herself catch her breath as sweat dripped from her chin, landing onto the hardwood near her shoes.

 

Her phone remained zipped safely inside her backpack, Minji deliberately left it there- knowing there wouldn't be any messages waiting for her after practice, she could imagine Hanni sitting somewhere else on campus, probably laughing with her friends, probably relieved she's not being bothered by Minji anymore.

 

The next day, avoiding Minji became instinct for Hanni.

 

She found herself checking every hallway for the loud laughter that followed Minji wherever she went before turning the corner, she told herself she was only trying to avoid another confrontation, but really Hanni doesn't think she can stomach seeing Minji again.

 

It should been impossible, this school has nearly 2,000 students, separate academic buildings based on subject, 6 stairwells, 2 gyms- but she keeps seeing her!

 

The first time happened during passing period, Hanni was carrying a drink in one hand and her notebook tucked beneath her other arm, still wearing Minji's jacket- when she stepped into the hallway connecting the main building to the music one, and on the opposite end- nearly 40 feet away, Minji had just come through the front entrance with her bag hanging open.

 

There were dozens of students between them, teachers, freshman, someone dropping a stack of books, but Hanni didn't notice any of it.

 

Minji looked up first, meeting Hanni's eyes over the sea of students in between the two of them.

 

Their eyes met, but the eye-contact lasted maybe three seconds at most, but that seemed to be the highlight of Minji's day, telling from the way her shoulders unrounded, and she looked like she forgot how to breathe.

 

Minji looked like she was almost about to wave- her arm coming up over her head halfway before she forced it back down, settling for the smallest smile imaginable at the sight of Hanni, still in her jacket. (Even though they're not on the best terms rn..)

 

The second time happened just after lunch, Hanni rounded the corner outside the library while reading a reminder across the top her planner- on her way to her next class.

 

She almost walked straight into Minji, stopping barely 2 feet apart, close enough that Hanni didn't have any time to pretend she didn't notice her.

 

Hanni dragged her eyes up to Minji, who had opened her mouth- then closed it hesitantly. She thought Minji was going to apologize again, but she just nodded, Hanni returned the nod before they both stepped to opposite sides at the exact same time, awkwardly mirroring each other's movements.

 

Minji laughed quietly to herself, and Hanni's lips twitched upwards for half a second- before she finally got past her.

 

By seventh period, it had just become ridiculous- every accidental glance seemed to last a little longer than the one before it, each hallway Hanni stepped foot in somehow placed them within eyesight of each other, and every time Hanni tried not to look-

 

She looked anyway.

 

The final bell rang, students flooded toward the exits in every direction, conversations overlapping into one endless wall of noise, Hanni and Danielle joined the current of people heading toward the parking lot.

 

Halfway there, Hanni felt it, that strange sensation of being watched- she brought her palm to the back of her neck, feeling the goosebumps on her skin.

 

She looked up on instinct, and her instincts were of course, right- because just across the crowded hallway, Minji stood with two teammates discussing something animatedly, but as usual- she wasn't listening to them. She was looking directly at Hanni.

 

When their eyes met, neither looked away immediately.

 

The crowd moved between them in waves, people briefly blocking the view before revealing each other again- for a few quiet seconds, it became almost childish, one person disappeared behind a group of students- but would reappear a few moments later.

 

Then Danielle said something beside her, pulling her attention away for barely a second.

 

When she looked back, Minji was gone- the space she'd occupied had already been filled by other students making their way home.

 

Hanni stood there for another moment longer than necessary, her eyes unconsciously searching the hallway one last time before letting out the smallest sigh.

 

The auxiliary gym, more specifically when their schedules aligned- was one of the few places in the school where Minji and Hanni couldn't completely avoid each other, Basketball practiced on the far side of the court- cheer practiced along the baseline, it's been like that since the start of the season.

 

During these practices- Hanni never paid much attention to the others practice, she was too focused on counts and formations, but Minji always managed to steal a glance or two in between drills, but it's like the script completely flipped- because Hanni couldn't seem to look anywhere else but Minji.

 

Minji adjusted the straps of her practice jersey as Coach Tung drew up a play for the afternoon's scrimmage on the whiteboard, nodding along with the rest of the team while not absorbing a single word, glancing around- her teammates looked laser-focused, eyes fixed on the small whiteboard, even occasionally asking questions!

 

Minji's attention was somewhere else entirely, across the gym.

 

The cheer squad had just filed in through the opposite set of doors, chatting amongst themselves whilst tossing their bags beneath the lowest row of bleachers, their coach gathered them into a loose semicircle before beginning announcements, and in the middle of the group stood Hanni.

 

Minji still hadn't talked to Hanni, well- if eye-contact counts as talking, she definitely has, but words? Nonono girl, don't even think about it.

 

Though they had talked less than a few days ago, it somehow felt like months.

 

Hanni laughed quietly at something one of her teammates whispered, tipping her head back for a moment before smoothing out her ponytail and falling back into line, the laugh didn't quite reach her eyes fully the way it did when she was around Minji, but it was enough to make Minji's chest tightened- just another piece of evidence in the fact that Hanni is fine without her.

 

"Minji," Coach Tung's voice pulled her back, "Blue jerseys."

 

"Right,"

 

She jogged towards half court with the rest of her starters- stopping in the center of the court to bend and touch her toes, just as she straightened back up, she looked across the court without thinking.

 

Hanni was already looking at her.

 

Just like all of their interactions these past days, it lasted barely two seconds, just long enough for both of them to realize they had been caught doing the same thing.

 

Minji directed her eyes to the floor once more, heat creeping into her ears, "Focus…" she muttered to herself.

 

Music flooded the gym as the cheer squad spread across the opposite baseline to review halftime choreography, forcing Coach to raise his voice over the speakers as they split into shooting groups- basketballs striking the floor in uneven rhythms.

 

Everything should've been normal, but its like they couldn't stop eye-fucking eachother from the series of repeated stolen glances.

 

Minji would catch a pass on the wing, instinctively scan the floor for an open teammate- but her eyes always continued another twenty feet until they reached where Hanni was hitting motions with the rest of her squad, and Minji's mouth would dry up.

 

And every single time, Hanni was already looking at her.

 

The worst- and definitely the most ridiculous part of it all was that neither of them seemed capable of stopping.

 

The next time happened while Minji was waiting her turn in a passing drill, she bounced lightly on the balls of her feet while another teammate finished at the top of the key, and out of habit… she glanced- guess where! The baseline.

 

Hanni had bent to pick up a dropped water bottle, and as she stood again their eyes met- the distance between them should've made her features indistinct, but it seemed every detail sharpened, the loose strands of hair that had escaped her ponytail clinging to her temples. Minji completely forgot the ball was coming, letting it smack directly into her shoulder before bouncing away.

 

She realized, almost embarrassingly, that she hadn't blinked in several seconds- and that she was still looking at Hanni, even though she'd already looked away.

 

The final whistle blew nearly 2 hours later, marking the end of the basketball team's scrimmage, the echo of bouncing balls disappeared, replaced by the tired conversations drifting around the gym as everybody packed up and got ready to leave, so did the cheer squad- their music stopping just as abruptly, leaving an uncomfortable silence hanging over the multi-purpose room.

 

Hanni shoved her pom-poms into her duffel bag nearly 3 minutes ago, already clad in her jacket (Minjis…) and ready to leave.

 

By the time the custodians locked the equipment closet, nearly everyone in the gym had gone home, except for Minji. Her bag had been packed long ago, her water bottle empty inside of it.

 

Hyein, one of her teammates- noticed, "Minji? You coming?"

 

Minji finally stood, slinging her bag over her shoulder, "I'll be there in a minute, just go ahead."

 

Hyein smiled knowingly but didn't press any further, disappearing through the side doors with everyone else- Minji listened until the voices outside became impossible to distinguish from the distant traffic beyond the campus, and only then did she move- towards the back exit.

 

The one that opened behind the gym, where delivery trucks unloaded equipment, where almost nobody walked there after school, but Minji already knew she'd find someone there.

 

Outside, the late afternoon sun had begun its slow descent behind the gym, washing the back of it in a warm glow that softened the otherwise cold brick, by this time of day- most of the campus had emptied by now, save for the occasional student-athlete heading to practice or teacher making lesson plans. The breeze stirred the chain-link fence that divided the auxiliary gym and the football stadium, making it rattle faintly before settling into silence again.

 

Hanni stood beside that fence with her backpack resting against it, her left hand twisting the ribbon she'd untied from her ponytail, she wasn't really looking at anything, her eyes were fixed somewhere beyond the empty field in front of her, but her mind was miles away- trapped in the same thoughts she's been spending all week desperately trying to outrun.

 

She almost didn't hear the footsteps approaching.

 

Minji stopped several feet away from her, sucking in a deep breath before finally calling out, "Hanni?"

 

The sound of Minji's voice carried across the concrete separating them, hesitant enough that i barely disturbed the quiet ambience surrounding them- despite how gentle the word was, Hanni's shoulders stiffened immediately, and she considered pretending she didn't hear her for a moment, but nonetheless- she slowly turned around, meeting Minji's eyes.

 

Minji stood a few feet away, still wearing her practice shorts and the faded white t-shirt she wore beneath her practice jersey, damp strands of hair still clinging to her forehead from practice, her large hand gripping the strap of her backpack so tightly her knuckles had gone pale, she needed something physical to keep herself from falling apart.

 

The silence between them stretched long enough till a bird perched along the roof line chirped sharply before taking flight, its wings cutting through the stillness.

 

"You've been avoiding me, Hanni." Minji called, taking a tentative step towards her- trying her best to force a smile- but it didn't quite reach her eyes like it used to.

 

Hanni stood with her hands shoved into the pocket of Minji's jacket, her thumb finding the frayed edge of one cuff, picking at the loose threads just to give herself something to focus on besides the girl standing in front of her, looking directly at Minji would make every carefully rehearsed defense she had in her armory feel paper thin.

 

Minji let out a slow breath through her nose, the corners of her shoulders sagging ever so slightly "Its- I don't know what else you want me to do."

 

"I've apologized to you, I've given you space- I stopped texting," Her expression tightened, "I'm frustrated- Hanni." Minji let out, rubbing both of her hands over her face before letting them fall heavily at her sides, "You can't expect me to keep chasing after you forever without it hurting me."

 

"I noticed." Hanni uttered, her jaw tightening.

 

"I've been trying so hard to understand where you're coming from- you know?" Minji whispered, continuing before she could stop herself, "Do you just expect me to wake up one morning and decide you're not enough?" she said, almost sarcastically.

 

"When did I say that?" Hanni retorted, raising her voice to be heard over Minji's.

 

"You didn't have to say it-" Minji followed up, raising her own voice, her frustration had finally surfaced, but rather as heartbreak that had nowhere else to go then anger- when she spoke again, it was much quieter, "I just-"

 

She shook her head once, "I just wish you would let yourself try."

 

Hanni frowned, "Try what?"

 

"To try and love again." Minji croaked, her words landing with gentleness that surprised even Hanni.

 

"I know you've been hurt, Hanni." Her voice softened further, taking another step closer, "But im just… I'm not the person who hurt you-"

 

"So why take it out on me?"

 

Hanni swallowed, her eyes darting from Minji's face to the brick wall behind her, "I know that- I-"

 

Minji cut her off, "You don't."

 

Hanni looked taken aback at being cut off- eyes widening as Minji continued to talk.

 

"I'm serious about you." Minji admitted without hesitation, "I've been serious- since before the game, before the bet, actually."

 

"I mean, can't you tell?" Minji let out a shaky laugh, "Why would I ask you out if I was just trying to get with you in bed? Why would I text you every day, first thing in the morning?"

 

Hanni's breathing became noticeably shallower, she stared down at the ground, watching the toe of her shoe scrape lightly against the concrete.

 

"Say it, Hanni- say what I want to hear." Minji pushed, her posture becoming rigid.

 

"Say what? I'm not your fucking parro-"

 

"Say why- why you think I was doing all that." Minji heaved, her expression pinched.

 

Hanni nodded tightly, biting down hard against the inside of her cheek, eyes flickering up to Minji before dropping again, "You-…" she trailed off, glancing upwards at Minji again, who made a gesture for her to keep going, "You did it because you liked me."

 

Minji let out a short laugh of disbelief, void of all humor, "There, you finally… finally admitted it."

 

"You make it sound so easy," Hanni relented.

 

"It isn't, but I know you don't believe that, you don't believe a lot of things, actually- I think the only reason you're mad at me right now, is because I'm saying the truth that you struggle to hear." Minji reasoned, tapping her foot as her voice raised once again.

 

"It's hard for me to understand the truth, Minji? Can't you tell by now?" Hanni snapped, her eyebrows furrowing.

 

"I-"

 

"When I was constantly lied to in the past, told that I was overreacting, when I was left for a girl prettier then me-" Hanni paused, choking up on her own words, "It's hard to tell from what's true and what's not."

 

Minji couldn't bring herself to talk- searching Hanni's face for any signs that she was exaggerating- which she clearly isn't, instead finding somebody who looked every bit as confused as she felt.

 

"When I saw you after that game, I still had your jacket on," her voice trembled, "I was looking for you, but when I saw you-" Hanni stopped, her eyes filling in spite of the fight she was putting up to keep them steady.

 

"They were standing so close to you- they were laughing, and so were you. I stood there for maybe 10 seconds, but it felt more like 10 hours."

 

"I kept thinking, of course- of course she found someone prettier, of course she was bored of me already-" A tear escaped before she could stop it, she slumped against the chain link fence behind her.

 

Minji's expression crumpled, taking another step into Hanni's space,"Hanni-"

 

"I really thought you were serious…" Hanni whispered, barely audible to Minji.

 

"I am." Minji responded firmly, "I am serious."

 

She reached into her pocket and pulled out her phone, "I don't have a single one of their numbers," Minji unlocked it without hesitation, handing it to Hanni- who had just finished wiping the stray tear from her cheek, "You can look, I've got nothing to hide."

 

Hanni stared at the phone, then back up at Minji, then back to the phone's screen.

 

Minji lowered the phone into Hanni's shaking palms, her voice quiet but unwavering, "The only person I wanted to talk to after that game," she met Hanni's eyes, "Was you."

 

Minji took another step closer, leaving barely any space between them now, "If you give me a chance, i'll spend as long as it takes to earn your love."

 

The way Minji kept wringing the strap of her backpack until her knuckles turned white whenever she thought she'd said the wrong thing, the way her voice cracked ever so slightly every time she said serious, as though admitting it aloud still made her nervous. Even standing there, looking exhausted after practice with damp hair plastered to her forehead and a faded T-shirt clinging awkwardly to her shoulders, she wasn't trying to win an argument. She was trying, thought it was clumsily, desperately- to keep someone from walking out of her life- nobody had ever looked this afraid of losing her.

 

The thought struck so suddenly that it almost stole the air from her lungs, or well- what was left of the air in her lungs.

 

Oh.

 

Her heartbeat faltered before surging back twice as hard, a rush of warmth spreading from somewhere beneath her ribs until it reached her fingertips- looking at Minji no longer felt like looking at the girl who'd made a ridiculous bet in the hallway or the basketball player who couldn't stop teasing her before games, she saw the girl who texted her every morning without fail, who had apologized until her voice went hoarse, who had respected every request for space even when it clearly hurt, who was standing in front of her now with nothing left to hide except the hope that this conversation might somehow end differently than the last one. Somewhere between the unanswered messages, the sleepless nights, the jealousy she'd mistaken for anger, and Minji's quiet insistence that she deserved another chance, Hanni had crossed a line she hadn't even seen herself approaching. (why r we lying yes u have hanni..)

 

She loved her.

 

Hanni bliked, snapping herself back to the present, she tilted her head slightly, pushing her phone into the pocket of Minji's varsity jacket before finally looking up at Minji through half-lidded eyes, cheeks still flushed from the overwhelming emotions she was feeling, hear heatbeat settling just enough that she could think clearly, "You keep saying things."

 

Minji frowned, then blinked once, "What?"

 

"You keep telling me things." Hanni's voice came out much quieter than she intended it to, her breathing finally beginning to steady after what felt like the longest conversation of her life.

 

"I mean them."

 

Hanni held her gaze for another long moment before the smallest smile tugged at one corner of her mouth, "Then," she reached forward slowly, her fingers curling around the front of Minji's shirt just beneath the collar, anchoring herself on the fabric, "Show me."

 

Minji stared at her with a blank expression, one of somebody who won the lottery but still hadn't processed it, a soft heat settling on her cheeks when she realized what Hanni was leading on- she searched Hanni's face one last time, making sure she saw no hesitation she might be missing.

 

Hanni nodded the unspoken question with the slightest nod.

 

Minji took her hand off the strap of her backpack, letting them rest earnestly on the dip of Hanni's waist, closing the final inch between them to brush a kiss against her lips- the weight of Minji pushing against her pinned Hanni against the chain-linked fence on her back, and she could feel the metal pressing into her skin- but it seemed to just heighten the ecstasy she felt.

 

Their lips met in a hesitant first kiss that lasted less than a heartbeat, when they separated they remained close, neither of them opening their eyes right away.

 

Hanni let out a shaky laugh that sounded more like relief, her grip on Minji's collar hadn't loosened, but before Minji could chicken out or retreat more than an inch, Hanni tugged her forwards again with a quiet roll of her eyes.

 

"Mutt… so desperate."

 

Minji's hand tightened around Hanni's waist- pulling her impossibly closer to her, deepening the kiss between them, Hanni tugged harder around the fabric by Minji's neck, the tightness around her air pipe leaving less air for breath, but it only made Minji's knee buckle at the feeling of Hanni having complete control over her.

 

When Hanni and Minji finally separated, they didn't move very far- Hanni stayed against the fence, and Minji remained flush against her.

 

The virtually nonexistent space between them had shrunk to little more than a shared breath, both of them standing perfectly still, Hanni's fingers remained curled loosely around the front of Minji's shirt, though her grip had softened considerably, no longer pulling her closer. Minji looked at her with an expression Hanni's never seen on her face.

 

Minji let out a small breathless laugh, still smiling hopelessly, "Does this mean you're not mad at me anymore?"

 

Hanni rolled her eyes automatically, but she couldn't hide the corners of her mouth beginning to lift, "Maybe just a little… but," she looked directly into Minji's eyes, jabbing a finger into her chest, "I'm willing to see where this goes."

 

For Minji, it was worth every sleepless night, every unanswered message, every awkward hallway encounter, and every ounce of courage it had taken to walk behind the gym afternoon.

 

She smiled wider with unmistakable relief, "One day at a time?"

 

Hanni nodded, "One day at a time."

Notes:

hello! i hoped you guys enjoyed all this… writing this was honestly a journey, first i found out i got a 1 in ap physics, but i passed ap lit with a 4 so it basically cancels out, then a pipe above my room exploded on the first day of me working on this, causing black mold to develop on my ceiling, didnt have access to my room and had to basically evacuate everything from my room since that shit collapsed! had to get that fixed and in the meantime had to write the first 13kish words on my phone, so sorry if those parts are kinda ass… then, my grandma passed away so that was a whole nother thing, (rip to her) but nonetheless i pushed through to write gay fanfiction, just as she would like me to (pretty sure she was homophobic), them my evil situationship broke no contact with me via spotify and i spiraled and texted her back, (bad decision) my plug raised his prices, and the day before uploading... Fucking fraudor posted the ot4 photos for the debut anniversary and that is lowkey my #9/11 even though im american... and as nietzsche said in the Gay Science, “Who can attain to anything great if he does not feel in himself the force and will to inflict great pain?”, so all the hardships ive overcame throughout the writing process helped me better my writing in a sense (bros just saying shit 😭😭) Is this my ao3 authors curse? Maybe but i dont wanna jinx it.

 

i wouldn’t have done this without all of my oomfs supporting me! special shoutout to you guys AGAIN, especially my oomfs who constantly like my posts like its astonishing how u guys like it .2 seconds after i post… wink wink mai and grace😭😭ALso happy early birthday mai!

 

anyways, about the fic itself. this honestly was a hard write if that makes sense? especially the parts about basketball, like that shit was mad corny to me for some reason im ngl..and i havent played in a while like idk why but i would start cracking up everytime i imagined minjis loser ass playing basketball or everytime i typed swish out… Anyway. I made this is a hs au instead of college au since 1: im freshly graduated from highschool and have no idea how sports and stuff works in college, 2: i felt it would be 10x more realistic (party scene, the atmosphere of american highschool in general and the basketball games..) since ive experienced those and it must be a whole nother level in college.. 3: i felt more comfortable wriitng this, and if someone is up in my comments talking about some “damn bruh u graduated hs 2 months ago and still writing fics in a hs au? just say u peaked in highschool” Die /j. coding this was a pain in the ASSS even though i followed a tutorial i edited some of it to my liking and messed up the css like multiple times… i was originally going to have a contact name and image for minji but it just wasnt cooperating and had to remove it. please excuse the uneven spacing as the fucking < p >
things were pissing me TF off.Sorry if its a bit corny at some times to me it was funny... okay. And i know you might be like "Wait wtf how could hanni be cheated on/left in the past if shes like.. super popular and desired at the school." well to that i say... Nobody randomly becomes a brat overnight like u have to have atleast one event in ur life to get u to that point and i believe the reason brat cheerleader! hanni is super avoidant and bratty is because she is distrustful due to her past relationship. Thats just my take on the au so dont rip out my guts if u dont like this #sorry. and if u caught the references in snook in there I love u I just cant write without referencing some of my favs.. Sorry for the word vomit i hope u guys all enjoyed!

 

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