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Do I know love
A crush and dove
Celebrities fill my mind,
but realism isn’t kind
Can I even date,
someone through a locked gate?
Should my standards exist?
Should the minimum man persist?
Do I deserve to love?
Will they put me above,
everyone else every day?
Are relationships meant to stay?
I have yet to see,
someone I can crush on
Someone for me
A daydream for eons
I’m afraid of not loving,
but I don’t mind dying alone
Just one date, so I can start shoving
all my feelings away, never to be shown
I don’t care if he’s toxic
I don’t care if he’s mean
He could strangle me anoxic
I just want to be seen
I don’t care if he’s trash
I don’t care if he’s insane
I deserve every gash
I deserve pain
I want love, but I don’t deserve it
The life I’ve lived has seen to it
I should be punished for what I did,
but I don’t know what I did
Is this why I don’t have a crush
Is this retribution for my actions
I don’t have a man to gush
All I want is a distraction
Am I aromantic?
I’ll just wait for my soulmate