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1. I was learning to forget you by chuuyaaamyfootitches

   Fandoms: The Freak Circus (Visual Novel), Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist - Wifies (Web Series), SFAWTDE/DAWTDE - Fandom  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M, Other
   • Work in Progress

   24 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • AveryTheMayo/Derek Hutchins
   • AveryTheMayo & The King In Yellow (Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist)
   • Pierrot/AveryTheMayo
   • Harlequin/AveryTheMayo
   • uhm idk - Relationship
   • Jester/Ticket Taker (The Freak Circus)
   • Doctor (The Freak Circus)
   • Ticket Taker (The Freak Circus)
   • Jester (The Freak Circus)
   • Harlequin (The Freak Circus)
   • Pierrot (The Freak Circus)
   • Wifies (Video Blogging RPF)
   • The King In Yellow (Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist)
   • AveryTheMayo & d3rLord3 (Searching For A World That Doesn't Exist) - Character
   • mentioned Wifies (Video Blogging RPF) - Character
   • Avery | AveryTheMayo/Derek Hutchins | d3rLord3 - Character
   • Slimeknight/Slimeking
   • if you know me no you don't
   • Healing
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Implied/Referenced Character Death
   • doomed yaoi
   • not actually doomed yaoi
   • Yearning
   • Injury
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Falling In Love
   • falling in love twice
   • English Is Not the Author's First Language
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Stalking
   • maybe slowburn
   • friends to almost lovers to lovers
   • Trauma Recovery
   • Survivors Guilt
   • Identity Issues
   • Emotionally Constipated Derek Hutchins
   • Everyone Needs Therapy
   • slow healing
   • No one is having a good time
   • Communication Is Hard When Your Boyfriend Shares A Brain With An Eldritch God
   • Author Is Sleep Deprived
   • gays

   Summary

   Derek Hutchins died saving a world Avery never even knew existed.

   They were never friends.
   They never met.
   Avery doesn't know what Derek looked like, what his voice sounded like, or even where he lived.

   All he knows is that, somehow, Derek understood him better than anyone else ever had.

   Unable to move on, Avery leaves everything behind and starts over in a quiet town where everyone seems afraid of the local circus.

   Maybe a new beginning is exactly what he needs.

   He finds strange warnings about a circus no one wants to talk about...

   ...and someone who was supposed to be dead.
   _________
   Hey! just a little reminder english is not my first language. Enjoy!

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   10,036

   Chapters:

   5/?

   Comments:

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