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The Illyria Academy Host Club was, by any rational measure, the most beautiful place on earth to have a complete emotional breakdown.
Golden late-afternoon light filtered through seven-metre velvet curtains, turning every drifting speck of dust into a tiny falling star. The air was thick with the scent of Bulgarian roses, French vanilla candles, and the faint, expensive tang of whatever cologne Orsino had ordered his valet to 'no, not spray, mist' onto the fainting couch that morning. A string quartet had been playing for three uninterrupted hours, their fingers bleeding artistically. All eyes were fixed on the creature draped across the centre of the room like a discarded silk scarf.
Orsino, Duke of the Host Club, lay on the fainting couch in his signature pose: one hand pressed to his forehead, the other trailing limply towards the marble floor, his princely blond hair arranged in perfect, windswept despair. He was wearing a white brocade jacket, and his violet eyes were glistening with the imminent threat of tears.
“Stop,” he breathed.
The quartet screeched into silence.
“No, no, no.” Orsino sat up just enough to look wounded. “That was the sad playlist. I requested the devastated playlist. The one that begins with the Bon Iver cover of ‘Wicked Game’ and descends into that Lana Del Rey song where she whispers about dying on a yacht. How am I supposed to properly languish if the music isn’t clinically depressing?”
The first violinist, a girl named Something-or-Other who had long since stopped expecting tips, bowed apologetically. “My lord, since you had requested our premium service only for the first hour, we have since switched to shuffle.”
“Shuffle,” Orsino repeated, as though she had confessed to drowning a kitten in his rosé. He collapsed back onto the couch. “You all despise me. Even your violins find my love unworthy of curation. Play on, play on — let the chaos of randomisation mirror the chaos of my heart.”
The quartet, interpreting this as permission, launched into a jaunty sea shanty. Orsino moaned piteously but did not have the energy to countermand it.
In the corner of the room, behind a mahogany desk piled with ledgers and seventeen spreadsheets open simultaneously on his laptop, Malvolio did not look up. His glasses — thin, wire-rimmed, custom-tinted to hide all expressions bar contempt — caught the candlelight as his pen moved steadily across a page:
Item: two hours of string quartet overtime, overtime billing rate triple.
Cost: catastrophic.
Yield, tangible or otherwise: negligible.
Note: investigate if Orsino’s allowance can be garnished for ‘preventable self-indulgence.’
Malvolio’s title, technically, was Vice-President and Steward of the Host Club. In practice, he was the only person who knew the budget, enforced the dress code, scheduled the cleaning staff, filed the tax exemptions, and prevented Orsino from accidentally bankrupting them all by ordering a solid-gold statue of himself weeping. He was, in the politest possible sense, a tyrant in a tailored suit. The other hosts called him Malvolio to his face and various unspeakable things behind his back, all of which he had neatly noted in a spreadsheet titled Revenge With Compound Interest.
“Malvolio sir,” chirped one of the first-year host trainees, approaching the desk with the caution of a gazelle approaching a lion that was doing its taxes. “The Duke requested another dozen white roses for the fainting-couch area, but the florist says we’ve exceeded the monthly flower budget.”
Malvolio’s pen paused. He lifted his head, and the trainee felt his soul undergo a brief but thorough audit.
“We have exceeded it have we?"
The trainee withered at once. "I'm afraid so, sir."
"And by how much have we...exceeded?"
The trainee withered further. "Four hundred percent."
Malvolio shut his eyes. "The Duke,” he said at last, as smooth and lethal as a silk garrotte, “will languish with the eleven dozen roses he already possesses. If he requires additional botanical assistance to convey his despair, he may avail himself of the wilting carnations left over from last Thursday’s ‘Abandonment’ theme. Inform him I said precisely that.”
The trainee fled.
Malvolio made a small, satisfied notation in the ledger. Then, because he was a thorough man, he added a sub-note: Carnations: useful for passive-aggressive rebuke. Potential for future deployment against twins?
As if summoned by the very thought of chaos, the grand double doors of the music room flew open with a crash that sent three carefully arranged rose arrangements toppling to the floor.
“OR-SI-NOOOOO!”
Two identical figures burst into the room, arms slung around each other’s shoulders, their matching auburn hair windswept, their matching blazers askew, their matching grins wide and utterly devoid of sobriety. They were not twins by blood. Much more frighteningly, they were twins by choice. The first, one Toby Belch, was brandishing a half-empty bottle of what looked like sparkling cider but was almost certainly not. The latter, Andrew Aguecheek, trailed in his wake, clutching a paper umbrella and giggling.
“Olivia,” Toby announced, gesturing so broadly that cider sloshed onto the marble floor, “says no.”
“She says never,” Andrew added delightedly. “She says she has sworn off all men for seven years because her brother has abandoned her for a study abroad programme in the Maldives, and she will spend every waking moment in mourning until the very thought of love is as ash in her mouth.”
“She’s got a black veil,” Toby contributed, “and a very dramatic window seat. We spied through the hedges. Very cutesy, very demure. Very unattainable." He gave Orsino's supine state a once-over. "You’re doomed, old boy.”
Orsino sat up so fast he nearly fell off the fainting couch. “Doomed? Doomed? You bring me word of her exquisite suffering and call it doom? Don’t you understand? A heart that can mourn so deeply is a heart that can love with equal profundity!" He had now fallen off the couch entirely, and was attempting to regain dignity by pretending he hadn't. "Why, Olivia’s sorrow only makes her more beautiful. A woman who weeps for her brother will one day weep for me, and those tears will be the most precious jewels in the treasury of my soul!”
Andrew squinted. “You want her to cry over you? That’s weird, right? Toby, that’s weird.”
“Tremendously weird,” Toby agreed, taking another swig of cider. “We love it.”
“I must compose a new message,” Orsino declared, springing to his feet. “Something that speaks to the exquisite architecture of her grief. Something that says, ‘I see your pain, and I wish to be the guardian of it.’ Malvolio, take dictation!”
Malvolio’s pen had not stopped moving throughout this entire exchange. His notation now read: Twins: inebriated. Property damage: rose arrangements (3). Cider spill: marble floor, cleaning surcharge. Olivia: confirmed rejection. Orsino: entering manic phase. Predicted outcome: another unsolicited love letter, meaning there will be imminent cost of courier, followed by cost of therapy for courier.
“I am not a secretary,” Malvolio said without looking up. “I am the steward. The distinction is important for both legal and emotional reasons.”
“You’re the only one who spells ‘thee’ and ‘thou’ correctly!” Orsino wailed. “The twins think ‘wherefore’ means ‘where’!”
“It does mean where,” Andrew said, offended.
“It means why, you absolute walnut,” Toby corrected, with the smugness of someone who had learned that fact specifically to say so.
“I don’t care what it means, I care what it feels like.” Orsino spun in a circle, his jacket billowing. “Olivia, oh Olivia, your name is a song, a prayer, a—”
A colossal boom of thunder cracked the sky, so loud and so near that the chandelier above them trembled, and every candle in the room guttered at once. The string quartet hit a dissonant chord and then fell silent. Even the twins stopped giggling.
Through the tall windows, the golden afternoon light had vanished, swallowed by a sudden, malevolent bank of purple-black clouds. Rain began to lash the glass in sheets, and the wind howled like an entire orchestra of depressed cellos.
“Bit dramatic, even for you,” Toby said to Orsino.
“That’s not me,” Orsino whispered, pressing a hand to his heart. “That’s… that’s the universe. The universe understands my pain.”
“The universe is creating a flood-risk,” Malvolio said, finally rising from his desk to close the laptop before a downpour could destroy seventeen spreadsheets of irreplaceable passive-aggression. “Everyone remain indoors. The ornamental lake is prone to—”
The doors burst open for the second time in ten minutes. This time, the intruder was a soaking-wet groundskeeper, his uniform plastered to his body, his eyes wild.
“My lords,” he gasped. “The yach t— the Illyrian Queen — the party yacht— it’s capsized! In the lake! The storm came out of nowhere, the waves were enormous — they say there were passengers — people in the water — ”
Orsino’s hand flew to his forehead in a gesture of theatrical horror that was, for once, entirely genuine. “A shipwreck! Here! On our ornamental lake! Oh, the humanity! The tragedy! The aesthetic!”
The twins exchanged a look. Toby’s expression flickered with something that might have been guilt. “The Illyrian Queen? That’s… that’s our yacht.”
Andrew’s face went pale. “We docked it. We definitely docked it. After the party. Probably.”
“Probably,” Toby echoed.
Malvolio’s glasses flashed with the cold fire of a thousand impending insurance claims. “Define ‘probably’.”
“Define ‘insurance’,” Andrew countered weakly.
Another thunderclap drowned out whatever Malvolio was about to say — which was just as well, because the look on his face suggested it would have been legally actionable.
Half a mile away, on the carefully manicured shore of Illyria Academy’s ornamental lake, a girl was coughing salt water onto a bed of imported white pebbles.
The lake was not, strictly speaking, a lake. It was a glittering half-moon of artificially turquoise water surrounded by marble balustrades, willows imported from the Seine, and a small, tasteful replica of a Grecian temple that doubled as a boathouse. It had never, in its thirty-year history, produced waves larger than the wake of a swan. Tonight, it had produced waves large enough to snap a forty-foot luxury yacht in half.
Viola had no idea about any of this. Viola, at this particular moment, knew only three things: that she was alive, that she was cold, and that the pebbles beneath her cheek were not helping the situation.
She pushed herself up onto her elbows, retched a final mouthful of lake water onto the pristine shore, and took stock of her situation. Her clothes — a simple dress she’d worn for the cruise — were shredded at the hem and clinging to her like a second, shivery skin. Her dark hair was plastered across her face in wet ropes. Her shoes were gone, claimed by the depths. The storm still raged overhead, but here, under the overhanging branches of a French willow, there was a small pocket of relative calm.
Behind her, in the middle of the lake, the wreck of the Illyrian Queen was sinking with a series of melodramatic groans. Bits of deck furniture bobbed on the surface: a deck chair, a champagne bucket, a single, inexplicable flamingo floatie. Viola watched it all go down with the numb detachment of someone who had very nearly gone down with it.
“Alive,” she said out loud, just to confirm it to herself. Her voice came out raspy and strange. “Right. Good.”
A groan from somewhere to her left made her jump. She scrambled sideways and found the Captain sprawled against a marble bench, clutching his arm.
“Captain!” Viola stumbled over to him. “Are you all right?”
“Dislocated shoulder,” the Captain gritted out. He was a grizzled, weather-beaten man who looked like he had spent his life on actual oceans and was deeply insulted to be shipwrecked on a decorative pond. “And my pride. The Illyrian Queen was supposed to be unsinkable. She was a luxury vessel, for god's sake.”
“She was a party yacht on a lake,” Viola said. “I’m not sure unsinkable was ever on the table.”
The Captain let out a bark of pained laughter. “Sharp tongue. You’ll do well here.”
“Here being…?”
“Illyria Academy. Most prestigious school in the country. That lake belongs to them, the deep-pocketed bastards. So does that boathouse, those willows, those pebbles you’re kneeling on, and probably the air you’re breathing.” The Captain shifted, wincing. “We’re on their shore. They’ll send a rescue party eventually - their Duke is dramatic but not heartless.”
“Duke?” Viola’s brow furrowed. “The school has a Duke?”
“That's what the Host Club calls him. Orsino. Duke Orsino. Runs the most exclusive social club on campus.” The Captain’s expression softened into something almost amused. “An eccentric lad. Handsome, if you can tolerate his melodrama. In love with a countess who won’t give him the time of day. The whole school’s very invested in the drama. I was ferrying a group of his admirers across the lake to catch a glimpse of him when the storm hit.”
Viola’s heart, which had been dutifully focused on survival up until this point, did a small, traitorous skip. “Handsome, you say?”
The Captain gave her a look. “Lady, you just crawled out of a shipwreck.”
“I’m just gathering information. Situational awareness.”
“Uh-huh.” The Captain grunted. “Well, lucky for you, my waterproof phone survived. There’s a video. The school’s social media account posts highlights of the Host Club. Orsino’s in most of 'em. Can’t escape him. It’s in my inside pocket — can you reach it? My arm’s a tad useless.”
Viola, careful not to jostle his injured shoulder, extracted the phone from his jacket. The screen was cracked but functional. She swiped it open and, after navigating past a series of increasingly concerned weather alerts, found the Illyria Academy Host Club’s official page.
The most recent post was a video. She pressed play.
The screen filled with an image so beautiful it made her bruised ribs ache. A boy — a young man, really — with hair the colour of spun sunlight was standing in a rose garden, cradling a single white rose in his cupped palms. He was looking at the flower with an expression of such profound, reverent sorrow that Viola half-expected the rose to burst into tears from sheer empathy. His violet eyes shimmered. His lips parted. The camera zoomed in.
“This rose,” he said, his voice a tremulous tenor that wrapped around Viola’s spine and pulled, “is wilting. Just as my love for Olivia wilts, unwatered by her regard. I shall keep it here, in my heart’s garden, until the day she deigns to be my gardener. Alas, I fear I shall be a desert forever.”
The video ended. The comments section below was a cascade of heart emojis, weeping faces, and one person who had written “touch grass” and been booed into oblivion.
Viola stared at the frozen image of Orsino’s tragic, gorgeous face.
“That,” she said slowly, “is the most ridiculous thing I have ever seen.”
The Captain snorted. “Told you.”
“I want to marry him.”
“Told you.”
Viola handed the phone back, her mind already racing. She was a stranger in a strange land, shipwrecked, alone, her twin brother lost to the same storm that had nearly killed her. The thought of Sebastian, her infuriating, beloved identical twin, sent a spike of grief through her chest, but she shoved it down, unable to process it yet. The only thing she knew for certain about her future was that she wanted, with every inexplicable fibre of her being, to be close to that ridiculous boy and his wilting roses.
But how? She had neither connections nor credentials. She was a girl, which, given the social structures of prestigious academies, would likely relegate her to the ranks of adoring fans. She didn’t want to be a fan. She wanted to be inside. She wanted to be the person Orsino confided in, the person he turned to in his deeply unjustified despair, the person whose shoulder he wept on when he finished weeping on roses.
Ah, shit: she wanted to be his best boy.
She looked down at herself. Soaking dress. Tangled hair. Absolutely no masculine energy whatsoever, let alone sexy masculine energy.
Well, that could be fixed.
“Captain,” she said, her voice suddenly steady. “Do you happen to know if Illyria Academy has any policies against cross-dressing?”
The Captain stared at her for a long moment. Then he started to laugh, and the laugh turned into a wheeze, and the wheeze aggravated his dislocated shoulder so badly he swore.
“No policies,” he managed, when he could breathe again. “This school is full of rich eccentrics. Last semester, a boy attended classes dressed as a powdered-wig magistrate for three months as a ‘performance art piece about justice.’ No one batted an eye. You could wear a sack and declare yourself a duke, and they’d probably give you a club budget.”
Viola’s smile was slow and sharp. She pushed herself to her feet, swaying only slightly, and made her way to the water’s edge. The pebbles were littered with debris from the wreck: splintered wood, a torn silk cushion, a silver butter knife from the yacht’s dining table. And there, half-buried in the white pebbles, a large, curved seashell, polished smooth by the lake, washed ashore like a gift from whatever god protected lovestruck idiots and bold girls.
She picked it up. Turned it over in her hands.
Then, standing on the shore of an ornamental lake in the middle of the most absurd storm Illyria had ever seen, Viola gathered her wet, tangled hair into one hand, raised the seashell, and began to saw.
It was not elegant, and it was far from painless. The shell’s edge was sharp enough to cut but not sharp enough to cut cleanly, and she was left with a ragged, chin-length chop. But when she was done, when she shook out the uneven strands and caught her reflection in the dark, rain-rippled surface of the lake, she saw someone new looking back at her.
Someone more boy than girl. A delicate, sharp-chinned, almost too-pretty boy. A boy who looked like he could wear a page’s uniform and deliver love letters and be exactly the kind of companion a melodramatic duke would trust with his heart.
“I need a name,” she murmured to her reflection. “Something manly.” Then she thought of the manliest man she knew, or had at least studied about, and turned to the Captain. "Do I look like a Caesar?"
He squinted at her. "More like a Cesario, but sure."
“Cesario,” she said out loud, testing it on the wind. The storm was beginning to ease, the thunder rolling away into the distance, and the name hung in the air like a promise. “Not bad."
Behind her, the Captain watched this entire transformation with the expression of a man who had seen too much and was now simply along for the ride. “Well, the Host Club accepts new members by interview. The steward handles applications. Malvolio. Frightening man. Wears glasses like a weapon.”
“Malvolio,” Viola repeated, committing it to memory. “Steward. Glasses. Frightening. Got it. Anything else I should know?”
The Captain considered. “The Duke’s in love with Countess Olivia. Olivia’s brother left for the Maldives, and now she’s mourning and rejecting all suitors. The Duke will probably want you to woo her on his behalf. It’s a whole thing.”
“Woo a countess on behalf of the man I’m secretly inexplicably in love with while disguised as a boy,” Viola summarised. "That's a bit...complicated."
“Welcome to Illyria,” the Captain said dryly. “Everything’s complicated. And expensive.”
In the distance, through the thinning rain, Viola could see lights approaching: lanterns bobbing, voices calling out. The rescue party. Illyria Academy was coming to collect its shipwrecked guests. She had minutes, at most, to establish her new identity before she was swept into the system.
She turned back to the lake one last time. Her reflection — Cesario’s reflection — looked back at her, rain-dappled and determined.
“Sebastian,” she whispered, sending the thought out to her lost twin like a prayer. “Wherever you are, I hope you’re alive. And I hope you’re having a less complicated night than I am. I’ll find you. But first, cross-dressing seduction is in order.”
She squared her shoulders, lifted her chin, and strode towards the approaching lanterns with the confident gait of a boy who absolutely belonged here and had definitely not just hacked off his hair with a seashell.
The storm broke entirely as she walked, and behind the retreating clouds, the first star of evening appeared, bright and a little bit mocking. In the candlelit music room of the Illyria Academy Host Club, Orsino sneezed suddenly, feeling an inexplicable shiver of premonition, and attributed it entirely to his own romantic suffering.
Alas, he thought, pressing a handkerchief to his nose, even my body weeps for her.
He had no idea that the instrument of his salvation — and his total emotional destruction — was currently trudging up the academy’s grand marble steps in a wet dress, with uneven hair and a stolen name, ready to turn his entire world inside out.
The string quartet, sensing a lull, began playing a gentle adagio. Malvolio opened a new spreadsheet and titled it Shipwreck: Liability Assessment. The twins, bored now, started a game of seeing how many grapes they could throw into each other’s mouths from across the room, which quickly escalated into a grape reenactment of the Peloponnesian War.
And Viola — Cesario — paused at the top of the steps, looked up at the towering, ivy-covered façade of Illyria Academy, and smiled the smile of a girl who had absolutely nothing to lose except her female clothing.
She pushed open the doors.