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Akito Shinonome is a boy.
He knows he’s a boy; he's been one his whole life.
He plays soccer, wears street fashion. There's nothing about him that screams feminine. Sure, he does work at a fashion store but that doesn’t really mean anything he just enjoys fashion..
So why does he feel so wrong whenever he looks in the mirror.. he’s wearing what he always wears so why does it feel so weird his face isn’t as soft as I should be, his chest feels too flat. He looks too bony.. it just isn’t right. He brings his hand up to his hair and begins to flatten it out a little. It's the only part of himself he really likes.. he’s been growing it out a lot recently so it's down to his shoulders.
It looks girly.
It looks nice, it looks a bit more like me.
Suddenly an alarm takes Akito out of his thoughts
Ring ring
“Fuck, how did it become so late already Im going to be late to work if I kept this up” he moves to turn off his timer and throws on his work uniform taking one more look at his appearance fixing his bangs before heading off to work.
Surprisingly Akito enjoyed his job a lot more than he liked to admit even though he’s constantly complaining about it to Toya. He loved helping people picking out clothes in general but his favorite part of it was whenever he got assigned to the female clothing section. Of course he would never admit something as embarrassing as that to anyone, he only liked it more because it’s easier to find outfits for customers that actually look pretty in the women’s section compared to the men’s.. that’s all there was to it.
As Akito stepped into the employee’s room he met with his coworker Hinako. “Akito! You're finally here! I was worried you wouldn’t show up today! But anyways you’re assigned to the check out today” she gave him a light smile as she handed him his schedule for the weak. “Ugh seriously check out again I swear I don’t think there’s a single person who actually likes running the cash registers” he mumbled taking the Schedule out of her hands. “At least today’s the only day I have it” causing Hinako to chuckle. “I get it Akito but hey someone has to do it and that someone is you~! I like what you’ve been doing with your hair though it looks a lot better at this length you know I-” she gets cut off by an alarm. “Ah sorry about that Akito looks like my break is over” Hinako exclaimed as she rushed back out onto the floor.
Akito couldn’t help but sigh, he hated the check out. He’s always cursed to deal with the most insufferable people when working. He wishes that he could swap with Hinako but he knows that she hates the register even more than he does. After setting his bag down into his locker he ventured out to the main floor to start his shift
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Akito is about 4 hours into his shift and it’s safe to say he’s so fucking done with his life
He HATES checking people out. It's pretty much unbearable. He actively feels himself dying inside by now but he’s forced to smile and deal with all of these annoying people. Sure most of them are okay however the annoying ones always test his patience a little too much.. god he wishes he could be practicing with the rest of vbs.. whatever three more hours and then he can go home. He focuses his gaze on the clothing section that he would have given anything to be assigned there today but of course he could never be that lucky.
“Um hello? What are you staring at?” A customer asked impatiently which just annoyed him even more. “Ah sorry about that” he mumbled out, forcing a smile to his face as he scanned the items. He couldn’t help but observe the clothes as he bagged them up. They look so cute.. running his hands against the fabric he has a sinful thought.
I wish I could wear something like this.
“Your total is going to be 9,000 yen, cash or card” he takes the card from them as he mutters out “have a nice day.”
God, when will this day be over..
It’s finally over. He logs out of the system and locks up the cash register for the night. As he walks back over to the break room the clothing can’t help but catch his eyes.. “whatever I’ll take a quick look before I go home… I can go get something for ena..” he peaked at all of the clothing that was hanging up but two things caught his eyes… a hair bow and a pink bracelet.. they look so beautiful he couldn’t help but to stare at them.. he looked around for a minute before grabbing both of them and heading to the check out. No one would know right? As he is paying for the items a coworker came up to him.
“Hey Akito I never thought you would by buying something so girly what’s with the change~”
That statement left Akito speechless… girly. He thinks I’m girly. He’s going to make fun of me isn’t he.
“I’m not a girl.”
He looks off to the side not even able to face him.
“It’s for my sister anyways she’s always begging me to buy things for her that’s just how Ena is” he looks back at him praying he bought the excuse
“No need to be so defensive about it I was just joking. Have a good night Akito” patting him hard on the back as he walks away.
God that was close.
After he pays for the two items he clocks out. He can finally have a break. He can finally go home and rest.
He can’t stop thinking about that conversation even after he gets home.. what would happen if he knew this wasn't for his sister. Would he make fun of him? Tell the others in the store? What if they all saw him differently.
He throws his bag down onto the floor of his room, stepping back into the mirror he begins to tear up why is he like this? Why does he look like this? “What the hell is wrong with me I’m over reacting to this I know I am but…” his voice trails off as he rolls his sleeves up. A few more cuts wouldn’t hurt..
Right?