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Sean fumbled with the keys in his hand, mumbling out of his annoyance because for the life of him he could not get this door open. Finally he got the key in the keyhole and pushed the door open. He leaned against it to close it behind him, huffing quietly. He wanted to lay down and sleep for 16 hours like, immediately. Classes that day were hell.
He wandered over to the bed where he found Jake who was.... Still asleep..??? It was 3pm. He crawled over Jake to bury himself into his side, one arm draped over his full stomach and the other curled into his back. He always liked how full Jake's figure was, especially because he'd known him since he was a kid and he was a lot thinner as a preteen. He liked having the knowledge that the person he cares most about is healthy and full of food every day.
He could exist here, in this bed, forever and be happy.
.
He awakes to hands on his back and a leg folded over both his. Jake wasn't asleep anymore, he was choosing to hold Sean like a pillow. His face almost cracks into a grin before catching himself. "g'morning jake.." he looks up at the other boys red face.
"it's 6pm." He huffs and holds Sean a little tighter. "Yeah but you were asleep at 3 dude, it's basically morning for you!" "That's not how that works." Sean frowns and reaches up to poke the other's face. "Whateverr." They stare at each other for a moment, holding each other like partners. Its sickeningly mundane, like they could grow old this way. But that wouldn't happen because they're just friends. He thinks. He's never really thought about that, actually. He knows he likes men and women but would he ever date.. Jake? Would Jake even like him? Probably not. But maybe they could grow old together... Uh... Platonically.
He tilts his head a little as he stares at Jake's face. He was rounded, soft at the edges, but still defined. His more squared chin is still visible under the chub, his straight nose which almost looked hooked when he was younger, his lips. He has pretty thin lips but they're never chapped or cracked, they've always looked soft. He's.. so pretty.
"Hm?" Crap, did he say that out loud?? "What? Nothing- dont look at me." Sean rolls over and buries his face into his pillow. "No, you-? you called me pretty?" Jake leans over his side to place a hand on Sean's cheek and guide his face out of the pillow to look at him. "No I didn't!" He helplessly lies, his cheek heating up under Jake's hand. He just giggles in response, letting go of his face to cover his mouth. "Oh my god you're red."
Sean fumbles with his words a little before covering his face with his hands, sitting up against the wall. "Shut up.." he warms further behind his hands. Jake stares at him for a while as his laughter dies. He gently takes one of Sean's hands in his to move it from his face towards Jake's heart, it was unintentional but he holds it there like thats exactly where it was meant to hover. "It's fine sean.. I think you're.. uhm, pretty too." He glances away as he mumbles that last part.
Sean's other hand slowly falls from his face. His fingers twitch within Jake's hold and his breathing slowly picks up. "i. uhm." His chest heaves like he's been running and his heart is pounding so much it might punch through his chest. "Jake." He tilted his head at Sean's tone, slowly looking at him. "Uhh, uhuh?-" "-Can I kiss you."
"....huh?" Jake blinked. Was he dreaming? Surely he was. Sean just asked to kiss him, Sean would never do that. He only broke up with his girlfriend a few weeks ago. Surely not? Yet, when Sean's hand in his moves to be properly interlocked with his own fingers, he knew deep down this is real. "...i- nevermind- im sorry, I- I didn't mean to say that." Sean is panicking now, why is he panicking? Jake grabs Sean's shoulder with his free hand to stop him from panicking and wriggling further away.
That hand moves to the back of his neck which becomes riddled with goosebumps. "..hhm- please, uh. Please do." he mumbles. "a- what?- uh, yeah okay." Sean stumbles over his words like he was just born and has no idea how he got here. He pulls at a curl nervously, legs shifting around on the bed beneath him, and Jake isn't much better. His face is pink and flustered, pushing his glasses up now and then. Neither made any move for several minutes.
Sean took it upon himself to close the gap, free hand falling from his hair to Jake's cheek. It was almost too good to be true. Jake thought he was dying, and oh God, he would be happy to die right here. With Sean's soft lips against his. His hand in his. Yeah, yeah he could die right now. Sean slowly pulled back, like he was hesitant to let go but had to to gauge Jake's reaction. Jake was almost shaking with his giddy, he was red and looked like a middle school boy who got a peck on the cheek from their crush. It was adorable. Sean laughs almost like a scoff as he struggled to keep it in, causing Jake to almost immediately shrink. "What- what's so funny.."
"I'm sorry!- I'm sorry it's just," Sean looked at his puffed up cheeks. "You're so cute!! Hhf-" he started laughing, clutching Jake's hand tighter and moving the other from Jake's face to his own to cover his mouth. Jake blinked a few times, awkwardly sitting there waiting for Sean's laughter to die down. Sean wiped his eye theatrically before pecking Jake again. "I love you dude." "Wh- don't call me dude right after kissing me???" Jake sputtered. Sean ignored him and properly kissed him again.
They held each other there for a while, pulling away for air before latching onto each other again. Sean had scooted much closer to him at some point, the position something Jake had only dreamed about. His back against the headboard, Sean sitting between his feet. Not too close, not suggestively so anyhow, but it was so much more intimate than either had ever thought they'd be. Jake's hand on Sean's nape moved upwards into his curls, gently scratching his scalp. Sean scooted closer, between his calves. At some point they'd forgotten they need to breathe.
Maybe they didn't want to breathe.