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1. i think i hate you (i don't know how to love you) by cyli

   Fandoms: 恋与深空 | Love and Deepspace (Video Game)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M
   • Complete Work

   29 Jul 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Main Character/Qin Che | Sylus
   • Qin Che | Sylus/You
   • Qin Che | Sylus
   • Main Character (Love and Deepspace)
   • You
   • Reader
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Angst
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • MC isn't like explicitly suicidal but there are. themes
   • so if the themes will hurt you please be wary
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Recovery
   • POV Second Person
   • No Use of Y/N for Reader-Insert
   • Angst with a Hopeful Ending
   • Hopeful Ending
   • story wise MC doesn't know Caleb is alive yet

   Summary

   It's always we, with Sylus. Whenever he offers you something. It's never I, never just you. Always we, always a pair, like he can't imagine existing separately from you. There is no Sylus without you; there is no you without Sylus. He carries you now, and you rest against the curve of his neck like you belong there. A perfect fit. Two perfect puzzle pieces slotted together. Two halves of a soul that have spent their entire lives searching for the other. You feel safe for what might be the first time. “I think I hate you,” you say.

   (or, a look into the grief that comes when the only love you've ever known ends in loss, when anger is all that remains in you, when you run out of people to blame.)

   Language:

   English

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