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Entry 1: ??/??/????
Hello diary. I just got you today! The man who brings us stuff gifted this to me. It said that it would keep me entertained. But I feel like I'm already entertained much with the rounds of tag I play each day. And playing with the other killers.
Oh well! I'm not complaining, I love new gifts. And I get to write about all the stuff I used to just hope to remember. I think once we're done playing, I should go to the doctor for that. I don't think it's good to be forgetting this many things. That's what I remember from those medical TV shows, anyways.
Well, I guess I should introduce myself to you. Even if you are just pages I'll write on eventually. I hear that objects have souls in them. Or well, sometimes I think that they do. But that's besides the point.
Im C00lkidd! Im 10 years old, maybe 11? I haven't been keeping track of the dates lately, so maybe my birthday has already passed. I have red skin, and my Dad says that I'm a demon hybrid? Or something like that, I don't remember. I play tag with a bunch of people, and I like it. But lately it's been getting more and more boring.
Today's round of tag was very interesting. At least I thought it was. In it was my Dad, 007n7. Guest 1337. Shedletsky. Builderman. Chance. Elliot. Taph. Veeronica, or V33? I can never remember if it's numbers or letters with her name.
But whenever it started, I looked up and saw Chance standing on Shedletsky's back. Whenever they saw me, Chance scrambled to get of his back. Screaming as he scratched at Shedletsky's face. Then Chance pulled out his water gun. But I think they forgot to aim it?
So it shot the water back at themself. Which made them mad. And so he started screaming before running off. But I think the screaming made him really tired. I didn't see Chance running around for the rest of the game. Only the other players, or at least until I caught them all.
After Chance ran off, Shedletsky was just standing there. So I, obviously, run after him. And he started to run away. Until...Vee, V33? Robot girl comes by. Skating before she somehow jumps on Shedletsky's head.
Which caused her to fall, and while she tumbled. He gripped his head, shouting some things I'm not allowed to repeat. Seriously, I think Dad would punish me. Maybe Azure? She doesn't really like it when I curse...
Anyways, after robot girl fell. And Shedletsky was done screaming in pain. I see Taph run over. Holding their...smoke bomb thingy? (I'm not sure what to call it, but it makes a big boom and flash of light that hurts my eyes.)
But they throw it badly. So it lands far away from me, Shedletsky, and robot girl. I watch as their wings puff up, before they turn around running away. Although I was wondering if I should chase after them. But I decided against, totally not because of how much I was laughing.
Watching robot girl get back up, I noticed her grabbing the board. And she rode away from us two, leaving just me and Shedletsky. Not for too long though, as Builderman and Elliot came over to us two. Watching as I was laughing and Shedletsky was clutching his head still.(it couldn't have hurt that bad!)
Builderman built one of his contraptions. Aiming it at me, and I felt the little pelts from it. But I could barely feel them. I heard them talking to each other. Mainly just Elliot asking Shedletsky what happened.
And when I looked back up I saw Taph again, standing next to Elliot and Shedletsky. Pointing at me, I stopped laughing then. Realizing I still had to tag them you know? I picked up my wooden sword that helped me tag them, and I ran after Builderman.
He was alone so it was easier to catch him. But then I felt Shedletsky’s sword hit me. I turned around, expecting him to be smiling with his fat ###. As 1x1x1x1 calls it.
Instead, when I turned around. All I saw was Taph and robot girl huddling together, both holding his sword with one arm each. I stared at them.
I’m still wondering what that was! I mean why didn’t Shedletsky have his sword. Better question, why were they both holding it while hugging each other close. It was a very weird thing for me to see.
They tried to swing it, but they both missed horribly. Causing robot girl to drop it, grabbing Taph’s sleeve and running away dragging Taph behind her. I watched them run, only to be greeted by my Dad teleporting in front of me.
Honestly, I knew I should’ve tagged him. But I only sat down in front of him. And if I remember correctly our conversation went like this.
“Dad did you see that!?”
“No, what happened?”
I laughed some more, before I went on.
“Whenever our game started I saw Chance standing on Shedletsky’s back! But when they saw me, he panicked. I guess they didn’t want to be tagged.”
“I mean isn’t that the point of tag?”
“I guess it is. But anyways, when he fired his water gun it shot back into his face. And I guess the water made them tired enough to give up on our game of tag. Seeing how he fell asleep.”
“Oh yeah, huh.”
“Then Shedletsky was running away from me. So I chased him, it’s tag! As he was running away Vee/V33(?) was skating, and landed on top of his head! Which made her fall over and Shedletsky was screaming.”
“Wait what?”
“Vee/V33(?) landed on Shedletsky’s head while he was running away!”
My dad laughed for a good minute. I hadn’t heard it in awhile, so I was very happy about it.
“She what!”
“She landed on his head!”
“...There’s no way that’s true.”
“Anyways, after that I started to chase after someone nearby. And I feel Shedletsky’s sword hit my back. Guess what.”
“What?”
“Vee/V33(?) and Taph were holding the sword together. And both looked super scared while doing it. Then they tried to swing it again but they dropped it. And the two ran away right before you teleported here!”
I think dad was in shock, as he didn’t say anything. But afterwards I heard the clock ticking again. And I got teleported back, I didn’t win. But I don’t think we got punished for it?
There was a note on the food we got, from the man who gave me this diary. Anyways, it said that it was highly entertained from my round. So maybe if I do something similar once again, maybe I’ll be able to have a round without tagging!
As much as I like to play. Sometimes I’m tired, or sore. Especially my arms and legs. I think I’m finally growing taller? But it’s mostly just my arms and legs growing longer, not really my body.
Well, it’s time for me to sleep now. Bye diary!
Entry 335: ??/??/????
Dear diary,
Today’s round was kinda average honestly. It went like almost every single round. There’s nothing for me to note really, the only thing I remember is how my dad was left for last.
Well at least today, it’s Mafioso’s turn to cook. Yesterday was my turn. I like to make food for them, even if I suck at it. I’m much better at drawing or even coding. Even if I only learned a tiny bit.
As much as they try to pretend they like it. I'm self aware, and I have taste buds. Well, my food's not the worst of all of us. Noli makes abominations and calls it food. To quote the person who hates the best.
"NOLI YOU ###### HOW DO YOU MAKE FOOD THIS BAD? CHEFS THAT DIED ARE WEEPING FROM THE MISTAKE YOU JUST MADE. WHAT THE ACTUAL #### DID YOU DO TO MAKE THIS PIECE OF ####! I'M IMPRESSED YOU MADE SUCH A HORRID THING. OH DEAR 2X2, I'M BEGGING YOU TO SAVE US FROM THIS #####!"
(Or at least what I remember them saying... they said a lot about that dish.)
Well, today I had a check-up with Azure. She looked at my arms and legs again. She looked concerned almost, after she measured me. I'm not really worried about it. But those looks from them is starting to make me concerned.
She said something about how my torso stayed the same, while my arms grew even longer. And then she like prodded on pressed on my bones. I think I remember her pressing on my elbow and gasping.
But she didn't tell me if anything was wrong. Even though, I could tell it was off from what she knew. I just don't really know why she was so concerned. Actually, let me feel my own elbow really quick. It feels normal. I don't know why she was so concerned? Especially after she fed me some weird poultice or whatever she called it.
Oh well, at least she didn't question why I hesitated. To be honest, sometimes my limbs do hurt a bunch when I wake up. But I'm sure it's just growing pains! That's what I used to be told whenever my legs grew taller and they hurt.
Azure also kept poking my legs. Or well, near my ankles most. It really hurt, to the point I started crying. I think I need to start stretching before games. I haven't been doing it lately. But I guess I should start now, since my ankles have been hurting more and more from my running.
Though I got a lollipop from one of Mafioso's men. I don't know where they got it, but I don't really care too much. I'm not a thief, even if I do want more of those lollipops. Anyways, I'm glad they're so kind to me.
I don't really know why honestly. I think it's cause I'm younger then everyone else. And I don't have anyone else my age. Which, I kind of hate it honestly.
But it's fun to be with some of the killers! Especially whenever I'm training with Jason. He's nice to me, and yesterday we had a sparring session. But I think it was a bit unfair for me. He seemed distracted the whole time.
Oh well, I'm sure it's fine. Sometimes they all get in their feelings. Maybe it's cause they're homesick. Yeah, I think he's just homesick! I know I am sometimes, but it always gets better when I play with my dad.
And it's also fun to help Azure in the garden. I like to pull the weeds out for her. Alongside being able to watch the flowers bloom. I don't really talk about it, but I love flowers. Especially the tiny yellow ones that are super bright! I can't remember the name, but they're my favorite.
Not to mention how Azure also grows our vegetables. Sometimes, she even sneaks me my favorite ones before anyone else can get one. I love the fresh carrots and bell peppers. Although I used to hate them, they make me feel better then the slop we're provided with.
1x1x1x1 is also really nice to me. Even if they say it isn't them being nice. They just don't want to admit it, but I can tell. As much as they claim to hate us all. Honestly they're quite nice underneath it all! I think they once told me it's because hate isn't three dimensional, it has a fourth one. Whatever that means!
It's kind of like tough love. Like they'll let me try it out. And if I fall face-first, they'll help me back up. But they'll also make sure that I remember it's a lesson. And to remember how it felt to fall on my face.
Anyways I wonder if I'll get another round tomorrow. I've been having a bunch lately. While I do like the games, I'm also tired and my ankles hurt! I hope I get a break for a bit. That'd be really nice actually.
Oh well, maybe if I do get a round tomorrow. I can just sit and rest. Seeing as I have been winning a bunch lately. Although I should ask just to see if we can handle another loss.
Actually I'm gonna go do that right now!
Okay I just checked, I can sit if I have a round tomorrow. Yay! I'm so happy, I've been really tired of playing tag. Like yeah it's fun, but not after I've been doing it so many times this month.
I think I've had 19 rounds for the last 2 weeks. I don't know how you find the energy to get through that. Oh well, at least I can rest tomorrow. Hopefully it doesn't put me in a game tomorrow.
If it can hear me, I beg of you. Please don't put me in a round tomorrow! I'm so tired. And these runners aren't even trying anymore. I think they can tell I'm tired! That's how bad it is.
While it's nice that they can tell I'm tired. It doesn't change the fact that I still have to play tag with them all. I'm hoping desperately that I am saved from another round. Actually, I'm begging for such a thing.
Anyways, it's night. I should sleep probably, bye diary!
Entry 350: ??/??/????
Dear diary,
Today Jason has been missing for two days. I don't know where he is. And neither do any of the other people. I asked 1x1x1x1 because sometimes she goes missing for a few days. But she didn't know where he went. I asked Azure but...well, I didn't really get an answer.
Then I decided to ask the other killers. I can't remember what they said. But I think they said that they also didn't know? Although I kind of remember John pointing outside, to a mound of dirt. There was something on top of the mound, but when i try to remember. All I see is like black and red squares over it?
Anyways, I tried to go out into forest. Maybe go look for Jason. But when i was only a little bit inside of the trees. I got pulled back by one of Mafioso's men. Soldier I think? He told me to just stay near the camp for now.
He looked scared for some reason. But the only thing in the forest was just Sixer and her big cave? When we walked back, I asked him why he was so scared. Soldier(?) only looked behind us multiple times. Breathing heavy for some reason.
Whenever I tried to ask someone else. I looked out the window, and saw Sixer was in the garden? She usually isn't there, because she's so big she destroys the plants. But I saw Azure talking to Sixer, and Azure looked super worried. Her tentacles were twitching, which usually is only when she's nervous.
I can't really remember what they said. Just that in the corner of my eye, those black and red squares were there? I don't know why that's happening. But, I'm kind of scared about that actually. Especially whenever I try to remember something, all i can see is those squares.
I'm scared about that actually
Well, I'm not scared. I just I don't know to describe it. But it's bad. And I can tell it's bad. I think I should tell someone, but I don't think anyone could help me. It'd get worse, I know it would. I don't want any more check-ups from Azure, especially with how many are over how my arms and legs keep getting longer.
I hope Jason comes back. He was nice to me. Especially whenever he taught me how to play with my wooden sword. It was fun to see him smile, even if he had his mask on. I could tell by how he perked up whenever I hit a target head-on.
He was nice to me. I can't remember his face, but I do know he hated how it looked. He wrote it down one time, when I asked why he wore it. I'm scared I'll forget that too. And he used to give me bigger portions of our food.
But I think he was giving me some of his food. Some days, when we lost too much. There wasn't enough food for all of us. Jason used to give me his on those days. I know he tried to hide it, but I'm not stupid. Even if I pretended to not see it.
He sometimes acted like my dad, especially after I told him I missed my dad. And I really did appreciate it, but sometimes it felt like he was trying to hide something from me. I know I'm probably 11(?) now. But I'm old enough to handle whatever it is. I think I should know.
But it's not like they'll even tell me! I just, I don't know. I think I deserve to know. I'm not dumb, even if I do stupid things. Just, where did he go and what was he hiding? Maybe it was related to why he's gone now.
No, he's not gone. Just missing, he'll be back! I know he will be. He's not that mean, just to leave me without a word. He wouldn't do that to me! Hopefully he wouldn't.
I just wonder if when he comes back, maybe he'll bring a trinket! Like when my dad has to go to a new town. He gets me a tiny trinket for me to keep. Maybe Jason is just on a vacation or at work! I'm sure he's fine. I can't wait till he's back, I have so much to tell him!
I’m sure I’ll be just fine while he’s gone. Even if I missed having someone to train with. I have Azure and 1x! They’ll be happy to play with me. And I can play with my dad in the meantime
Yeah I’ll be alright! Sometimes I just act like a big baby. But I know I can survive. Jason would’ve wanted me to do so anyways! But I think It’ll be harder with him being gone.
(I don’t really wanna write about that anymore so I’m gonna move on.)
Anyways, today I had another check-up with Azure. Which, I like her but I hate the check-ups! She still doesn’t know why I’m growing so odd. But I think it’s because I’m different from them, I was born with a tail and horns.
Maybe my biology is just different from theirs. Maybe this is how my growth works. If that was the answer, I’d be happy. Because at least then, I don’t have to get check-ups all the time.
Not to mention how suspicious they are over my own feelings. I get that they may be concerned. But I am just fine! Even if I can’t remember some things. I am still fine and I am still healthy.
Like I get it’s odd in their eyes. But I feel fine! I don’t know why they make such a big fuss over it. Seriously, nothing is wrong with my body and how it’s growing. I feel perfectly fine and content!
Although I don’t really think it is normal. Back before I got to this camp, I grew like all my friends. Now it’s just mostly my limbs getting longer and stretched. It’s kind of scary? But I feel fine. I think…
Entry 478: ??/??/????
I can't remember him. Everytime I try to remember him, he's gone! All I have left is these stupid entries. But I've noticed that there's something crossing out my words? Some of them are scratched out too. I don't know what's going on, I can't remember him.
Where is he? Where did he go? They won’t tell me. All they do is drag me away from the forest, and I don’t know why. He’s in there, I know he is.
They don’t want me to find him. They keep stopping me every time I try to look. They hold me back. They shield my eyes away from the truth. They’re the ones who keep me away from him, can’t I look for my missing friend?
I think they’ve noticed. But I don’t care. I can’t keep going like this. It’s unbearable, I just can’t. How do I make it all just stop? I’ve stopped going to check-ups. I’ve stopped talking to them. Sometimes I stop playing tag.
But I know I must play. Or else the food will run low.
Sometimes I see those squares take over. And I think I ruthlessly play tag or…No don’t think about that.
I can’t do this. Where did he go? Why can I barely remember him. This isn’t fair. This isn’t what it promised me. I don’t think I can even remember what it promised me.
Something along the lines of seeing my dad once again. Alongside a pick of anything else I want. But I don’t remember what I wished for from it.
They keep me away. It keeps me away. I want to leave. I’m so tired of this place. Let me go, I’m begging for anyone to save me.
I think he escaped somehow. I wish he had taken me along with him. He's missing, and they wont let me find him. Maybe it's because he got out, and they wanna keep me here. They want to keep me trapped in this hell.
And not to mention, I keep getting these like visions. Where the black and red squares reveal something else. I hope it isn't real. I really don't want it to be real. I don't know what I'd do if it was real.
Especially the ones that concern my dad.
Why was he on fire? Why was that foam brick I throw in his head? Why? Did I do that? Why did I have a burning sword in my hand, it's a wooden one? I swear it was wooden.
I want to go home. Before there was any of those visions. Before the black and red squares. Before my legs and arms started growing abnormally. Before I came to this camp. Before I ran from my bed, wanting to catch that little stray cat. Before I was even born!
Why is this happening? Am I being punished? Why have I been placed in this hell? Why can’t I remember? Where is he? Where is he? Where is he?
Is there a way to get out of this maze. Am I left to die in this place. Where am I? Is this hell? I want my dad. I want my dad! I want my dad! I want my dad, or someone.
I just need someone here. Why has it done this to me? Did I kill them? Was it even me? Where did they go? Where are my memories? Is this all because of it? Maybe it's because of them.
Why is it all black and red? There’s nothing left in there for me. All that is there is simply squares. Is there a reason I play tag? Is it even tag? It can’t be tag. I don’t believe it anymore.
There’s no way it’s tag. I’m killing them aren’t I? They were right, I am dumb. I’m just a dumb and stupid demon. I deserve this, don’t I? There’s a reason I can’t remember, because I’m cursed.
Everything I do is stained by me. I’m a curse on the world. I’m just a demon. A stupid demon, who believed it’s lying words. How was I so dumb?
Where’s my memories? I can barely even remember anything before this hell. All that’s left is those squares. And those words from someone back then. They were right, whoever they are I can’t remember.
I am a devil. I deserve to be put through this.
I’m so sorry dad, I should’ve never been born.
Entry 630:??/??/????
It’s my birthday.
I don’t deserve a cake.