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1. you want it darker by arboreal_debris

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America - All Media Types  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Rape/Non-Con
   • F/F, F/M, Gen, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   26 Aug 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Rape/Non-Con
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
   • Natasha Romanov/Sam Wilson (Marvel)
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • internalized ableism
   • Medical Trauma
   • Trauma-informed care
   • Medical Procedures
   • Perpetrator trauma
   • Political Commentary
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • Bucky Barnes Whump
   • Steve Rogers Needs a Hug
   • steve rogers thinks everything in the whole entire world is his fault
   • Rape Recovery
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Past Hydra Trash Party (Marvel)
   • BDSM
   • Body Horror
   • Bucky Barnes Has PTSD
   • Consensual Non-Consent
   • Past Medical Abuse
   • Past Torture
   • Self-Compassion
   • erotic spanking

   Summary

   Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes are reunited, but only through the devastating loss of their former selves. Steve wants to help Bucky overcome the trauma of his captivity, but after Bucky deals with a retraumatizing hospital stay and the emergence of upsetting new memories, Steve is forced to realize how far out of his depth he really is.

   When Natasha surprisingly reveals her own past with the Winter Soldier, Steve is confronted with the fact that there are some parts of Bucky he doesn't understand—and that he and Bucky aren't the only ones who were turned into weapons.

   To help Bucky, and to uncover the sinister truth behind the supersoldier serum in front of the world, Steve will have to do the hardest thing he's ever done—truly face the pain and hurt of his own past, and revisit the times when he felt the most powerless. He must accept the help and support of his new friends, and allow them to truly see him.

   Is Captain America a hero, or is he a weapon?

   Did Steve Rogers get a choice?

   Series

   • Part 2 of disasters of war (it's what you're born for)

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   20,327

   Chapters:

   3/?

   Comments:

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