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will has recently found the strength to want to come out. he never expected this to happen, as james has reassured him multiple times he’s fine staying private, and loves their domestic moments between just them, his favorite being playing with wills hair while he hums a song to put him to sleep, it works every-time, putting the older man to sleep quickly.
he’s told will multiple times it’s all on his terms as james is more than comfortable coming out as being in a relationship, but isn’t in a rush.
They’re filming a video for wills second channel “Subscribers Sent Us 100 Mystery Boxes!” when they receive a waxing at home kit, will plugs it in while james throws the grapes costume in the good bin
“this is me little honey pot.., so is this” as will pats james’ shoulder.
james stares at the camera awkwardly, assuming that part will be cut as will usually slips up and regrets it later.
ieuan laughs “i’m assuming that will be cut!”
“no let’s keep it, he is my honey pot” he says gleaming at james with the biggest love eyes, obviously this part will be cut.
once the video is over will scoots his chair next james’s and grabs his arm while resting his head on his shoulder
“are you tired love?” james asks while resting his head on-top of his boyfriends
“not necessarily, i just love you so much pet” he replies while rubbing his hand up and down his boyfriends arm
“feeling sappy today are we?” will hums in response as he soaks in the moment, ieuan leaves to make sure the footage gets to the right place, aby has already left to grab supplies to clean up the office, leaving it just them, soaking up each others love.
they stay like this for a few minutes, aby saw them through a window and decided to let them have their moment, james occasionally kissing the top of wills head
“shall we start heading home darling?” the taller man asks, will just nods against his shoulder, nuzzling his nose into his neck to get a strong smell of his lover before standing up and grabbing his things walking to the door, as james gets up to meet him, will quickly finds james’s hand and intertwines their fingers, james slowly rubs his thumb along the backside of wills hand, he’s expecting will to drop his hand the moment they get outside, when he dosent, he looks up at will but he just keeps walking.
they make it the whole way home holding hands, once they get inside will kisses the back of james’s hand before letting go. james could see the slight anxiety through will, they’ve been dating for a year now and that was there first time showing affection in public, as will was very nervous of being caught, as he wasn’t out to anyone. (unless he was drunk alone in a bathroom with james at a party).
they kick off their shoes and make it to the couch, as james sits down will still taking off his converse, he turns to james who has his arms open, he waves his fingers and whispers “c’mere”, will makes his way over, james wraps his arm around will once he sits down next to him and holds him close, kissing into the top of his head, as if he could kiss away any evil anxiety inducing thoughts happening in there.
will looks up at him gently, as james starts to kiss his face, all over, not leaving any spot that hasn’t been kissed by him, he eventually pulls will up onto his lap, so will is know sitting with his side melted into james, his nose meets james neck and he breathes in deeply
james starts rubbing up and down wills arm looking at it intently, noticing his freckles, wills eyes are closed and he just soaks in the moment.
“were you fully comfortable holding hands?” james breaks the peaceful silence that had enveloped them
will sits up moving beside james and off his lap, so he can fully look him in the eyes, james moves so his back is against the armrest, looking deep
into wills blue eyes, holding his hands tightly.
will has a thoughtful look on his face as he slowly nods
“use your words love, you can be honest with me, remember, we’re going at your own pace, whatever you’re comfortable with sweetheart” the younger says with a soft smile, he sees wills eyes fill with tears as james slowly wraps his face in his hands, his thumbs rubbing his cheeks, prepared to catch falling tears, “it’s okay love, tell me if you want, you know you’re safe with me baby”
will practically melts at the pet name, he’s used to pet names, but baby has a soft spot in his heart, he’s always wanted past partners to use it but they never would, the term alone caused tears to fall as james slowly wiped them with his thumbs.
“i want to show the world i love you jamie” james smiles, he’s immensely proud of how far is boyfriend has come, he nods showing will to keep talking
“i think if we take it slowly, like holding hands, i’ll get more comfortable and then we can tell everyone?” he sniffles as another tear falls down, james removes his hands and quickly wraps them around will bringing him in close, practically picking up will to make him sit on his lap again, while wills side melts back into james, he knows physical touch helps relax the older man, as will rests his head on his shoulder
“that’s a great idea darling, baby steps, just remember if you’re ever uncomfortable three taps and we’ll stop and talk, okay baby?” james says while one hand plays with wills hair while his other rubs his back, reassurance has always been huge for will, he’s known to overthink and james has always been there to help and stop the thoughts. they made the three tap rule early into their relationship, a silent of saying ‘i’m overwhelmed, uncomfortable, or want to leave a place early’ james used it a lot when he needed his tiktok time during shoots
will lifts his head up, james’s arms still wrapped around his back
“i don’t even know why im crying” he says while sniffling, the tears have dried up while james still rubs the small of his back while making eye contact, “i think im just feel so much right now, not even negatively, i just love you.. so much, it gets overwhelming” will stares deeply into his eyes, “i want everyone to know how much i love you pet… some day, they will know”
“i love you so dearly baby, id love to show off our love, one day.” he voices goes to a gentle whisper, his hand moving up from wills back to grab his face gently “one day darling, doesn’t have to be anytime soon love”
while james is now holding his face, he kisses him, so gently, like he’s made of glass and could break at any moment, will kisses him back just as gently, his hands moving to the back of james’s head to play with his hair gently, they kiss each other like they’ll never have sex, as if their relationship is built from love in the purist form.