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Looseleaf was in the bathroom, sitting on the floor while repeatedly dragging a blade across its arm with no sign of stopping any time soon. About 30 minutes earlier the OSC had basically screamed at it about punching and pushing Jack; they didn't even let it explain! Jack was being a fucking asshole to Paper, so it had to front to protect him from the possible threat Jack brought onto them both! So it just punched him a couple times. But of course.. Jack snithced like a little piece of shit.
It violently dragged the blade deeper and angrier across its skin. Why was it even mad about getting yelled at? It has gone through worse in the past. Why is it so weak!? It can't even protect Paper and itself properly! Such a fucking disappointed of a protector!
The OSC just stared at it with some obviously lingering fear, even though it was in hand cuffs anyway. Did they all think it was evil? Even OJ? Dont get started on OJ. Didn't he understand the situation!? Why didn't he let it explain? Why did he yell at it? And why did it crave his approval so bad?
Its arm was littered in deep gashes all over, they ran out of space and had to move onto its thighs. It kept going deeper, hitting the fat layer. What the fuck was it doing!? Its supposed to protect its and Paper's body! Why is it doing this!?
It tried standing up but felt..so weak. So useless.. Like a waste of space and life. What is even its purpose if it is destroying instead of protecting the body like it's supposed to?
It finally stoop up, shaking and barely able to stay up without clinging onto the sink. Its vision was starting to blur a bit. As they felt some panic overcoming its brain. Is it gonna die? No, it can't die! It can't! Everything burnt so bad, the cuts throbbed and leaked waterfalls of beautiful crimson blood. It let go of the sink, trying to get to the door. Until...
Thud.
It woke up on a hospital bed, wrists and ankles restrained to the bed like it was some dangerous monster. Its arms were hooked on IVs with bandages and stitches where the damage was done. It felt oddly calm, maybe because of pain meds or something similar.
"Oh, hi! Youre awake! Is this Looseleaf fronting?" It assumed it was suitcase asking the question due to the anxiety in her tone. It nodded feeling this pool of shame forming in their chest, slowly spilling itself throughout the whole body. It hated feeling vulnerable.
It decided to look around the room to see if anything else was happening, outside the room it could hear silent panicked sobs. It decided to look through the open door, the scene was kinda sad; OJ on his knees sobbing with his head on Cabby's lap while she stroked his hair as comfort.
"Hey you two! Its awake, by the way, it is looseleaf fronting!" Suitcase called out to the two outside the room. OJ's head immediately perked up from Cabby's lap as he stood up and hurried to its side. Cabby just calmly propeled her wheelchair into the room. "Hi there Looseleaf, care if we ask you some quest-" "No! Fuck off! Stop acting like you care about me!" It angrily spat out, those three were the whole reason any of that happened in the first place! They all had no business pretending to care about it. "You guys only care about me because im in the same body as Paper! If that wasn't the case I would be DEAD!"
The room fell silent, no one really knew what to say about that. It's not that they didn't care about Looseleaf, they all just got caught off-guard by the question. Did they actually care about Looseleaf's well-being or just something happening to Paper? They all just said nothing.
"You guys just see me as difficult don't you!? It's the whole reason im restrained isn't it!?" It spat out angrily. "You three don't care about me at all! Just Paper!" It didn't notice the tears running down its eyes without any near stop. "You all just hate me! But i hate you guys more!" It started to loudly sob inconsolably, none of the other theee knew what to do, they have never seen Looseleaf cry; they all barely saw Looseleaf at all! It would just come on when Paper was in danger or needed a break, but it looks like it is the one that needs a break right now.
The three saw as Looseleaf seemed to space out, most likely entering back into the headspace for Paper to take over. Cabby, Suitcase, and a very stressed OJ just watched for about 3 minutes as Looseleaf and Paper were most likely communicating in the headspace.
They all saw as most likely Paper taking front again snapped out of the clouds his head was in. "Hi?" He spoke up, next thing he knew he was basically tackled by OJ into a hug. "Woah there!" He prooceded to try(unsuccessfully) to hug OJ back. "Suitcase, Cabby! May OJ and I have a private conversation right now? Please?" "Of course Paper! You two take your time? Alright, you can tell OJ to take off the bed restraints!" Cabby added as she wheeled off next to suitcase.
Paper felt as OJ took off the restrainta and he could finally move his hands and feet to sit up. "So, Looseleaf told me you guys did something to upset it yesterday. What happened?" Paper asked, already know most of the answer but just wanting to hear what OJ had to say. "So, Looselaf attacked Jack and and we just Lectured it about putting another Object in possible danger." Paper gave OJ a look. "It said you guys didn't let it talk. And OJ you should know better that Loosleaf doesn't just attack people for no reason! Jack was being an asshole and just getting way too close to me! So of course it had to interfere."
OJ got this guilty look on his face, "im so sorry.. We didn't.. Uhm.. We just thought.. There is not really aanything I can say to better the situation. Im so sorry Paper.." Paper lets out a sigh "OJ, i know it's not obvious but Looseleaf sees you as a safe person it can trust, and you broke that trust by just assuming it was just being evil. I hate when people think that and it hates it too.." OJ just kept listening to Paper speak. "It felt worthless and unimportant because you made it feel worthless and unimportant, i know you didn't mean it, but they felt like they were just... Not worth it... Please, next time it fronts, apologize to it, so it doesn't hurt itself anymore.. "
Later that night OJ was in their shared room talking with Looseleaf. "Im seriously so sorry I assumed you attacked Jack just because you felt like it.. It was hurtful, stereotyping, and insensitive of me to just assume that and not let you explain, I don't just care about Paper; I care about you both. And I love and appreciate you both so.. So.. Much, please don't feel like you have to hurt anymore.. " Looseleaf to blush a little and let out a content hum. It finally felt understood.