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Castiel has spent fourteen years loving Dean Winchester.
Fourteen years since Dean gave him a nickname that felt more like kindness than anything he'd ever received at home. Fourteen years of being Sam's best friend, Dean's almost-family, and the quiet alpha who learned to keep his instincts and heart, carefully suppressed.
After all, the hardest part of loving Dean has never been that Dean doesn't know.
It's that Cas has never stopped hoping.
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Cas had presented as an alpha at fifteen, right on schedule. Sam had presented as an alpha too, a year later. They'd grown up around each other, so there was never that push and pull or instinctive challenge.
The suppressants helped, Cas had been on them since he was eighteen, like most alphas. They kept things manageable and kept him from doing something stupid, like following Dean around like a lovesick puppy or worse trying to claim him.
But sometimes Cas wondered if the suppressants had done more than that. If they'd smoothed over the edges so well that Dean had stopped seeing him as an alpha entirely.
Because Dean wasn't just an omega. He was Dean.