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1. I Feel Numb (Make Me Better) by omfglookitsme

   Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   04 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Shane Hollander
   • Ilya Rozanov
   • Zane Boodram
   • Luca Haas
   • Troy Barrett
   • Brandon Wiebe
   • Wyatt Hayes
   • Anya | Ilya Rozanov's Dog
   • Irina Rozanova
   • Grigori Rozanov
   • Post-Canon
   • Established Relationship
   • Married Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
   • Post-Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • POV Ilya Rozanov
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst
   • Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game (Game Changers)
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Ilya Rozanov Needs A Hug
   • Depressed Ilya Rozanov
   • Angst with a Happy Ending

   Summary

   Ilya has always weathered the storm, whatever it may be, but right now his foundations are crumbling and he’s not sure he can survive another.

   OR

   Ilya's mental health has been deteriorating but he has been adamant that he can handle it. Then it all comes to a head, and the weight of it all is crushing him, and he just wants to feel something.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   15,255

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