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(Rogue)
Ah had always known from a very young age that ah’d never find someone that will love me and not get hurt by or because of me and even though Ah knew that, it still made want to be with someone,experience love at its greatest, be able to hug or kiss or even just hold someone’s hand.
These kinds of wishes are useless to think about because sometimes there is just nothing you can do about them,especially if you’re a mutant as people think we’re dangerous, and Ah mean they are technically right.
That’s exactly why Ah push away anyone who gets too close to my heart.Ah mean, isn’t that what you do in the name of love?
Protect the ones that you love from the danger you create, to ensure they have safety from yourself even if that means you have to have huge sacrifices in order for that to happen? Ah mean that’s what all romance books have ever taught me.
But sometimes even when ah try so hard to hide away, not show weakness or let anyone into my heart it will always be that stupid ,little ,grimy swamp rat that somehow manages to slither in through the iron bars I created to block everyone out.
Mr Remy Lebeau
It was a really sunny afternoon, since the professor passed away Scott had taken up the spot at leading the xmen, now even though it was a bit chaotic he was managing his way. After many stressful days fighting and training we all decided to take a break from Scott’s constant bossiness with a team game of basketball.
Basketball was never one of my favourites. There was so much shoving and skin to skin contact so you can pretty much tell why ah don’t enjoy it. Usually ah’d just sit to the side enjoying the natural environment around the mansion as it gave me some sort of comfort however on this particular day ah could not as ah had a rather anoying Cajun standing over me with a wide smirk on his face.
Sometimes how ah’d wish ah could just kiss it off that stupid face of his. So instead of doing that ah stick to the normal routine of not letting him get too close.
“Chere why don’t you join a game with us for once eh’?” He asked with his chirpy tone still smirking but leaning closer.
Putting my gloved hands on his chest I slowly rose up keeping the safe distance warning him slightly before whispering to him so the others wouldn’t hear “Don’t get too close and cocky dark eyes or I’ll wipe off that smirk right off your face”
“I really wouldn’t mind if you did mon Amie” he replied in a similar quiet tone slipping his hand into mine interlocking fingers. Before ah could even think about what to do next we were rudely interrupted ,if ah say so myself, by jubilee telling us to hurry up.
Realising we’d been seen ah quickly backed up, letting go of Remy’s hand almost immediately. Ah could feel the heat slowly getting to my face. Now knowing ah was definitely about to turn cherry red outa’ pure embarrassment ah swiftly turned around and walked off heading towards the others but covering my face.
Recently we had a new member join the team. Now from the moment he joined ah quickly spotted jubilee’s eyes on him. It really reminded me of me and remy if ahm being totally honest.
Now if you know wolverine you will know he is kind of the father figure to some of us and that includes me and jubilee. Logan makes sure to always give Remy a hard time for even staring at me let alone constantly flirting with me. At this point he’s probably had the shovel talk with him multiple times even though we ain’t together.
Without a doubt he will be giving the new guy an extremely hard time as that boy is super cocky and is going right at his youngest adopted daughter.
As ah snapped outa’ my daydream ah realised that the boy was gone and all that was left was an angry wolverine and an even more infuriated jubilee.All that could be heard was the shouting between them that was so quick that you could barely hear what they were saying.
“Why did you scare him off Wolverine!” Jubilee shouted crossing her arms pouted. It looked like Logan was going to give some very dad like response such as ‘he’s not good for you or something along those lines however, right on time Scott ‘I am the leader’ summers comes out of his office alongside Jean after staying in that small dark room as if he was Dracula.
Turns out the Logan had used a basketball to scare off the boy and somehow it managed to smash through the window of Cyke’s office. He looked extremely agitated even though Jean was rubbing his back. It went a few minutes of me staring at that physical contact before ah realised ah should stop to not look like some creep. So ah instead directed my focus to something completely unrelated.
Ah turned to look at Remy who was staring at the tiny glass pieces that were on the floor right underneath the window. They glistened like a fallen constellation from the reflection of the sunlight. Ah could understand why that caught his eye,he always had some sort of weird liking of shiny things almost like a crab.
He looked like he was in some sort of magical trance and ah couldn’t help but laugh quietly at him. Somehow ah wasn’t quiet enough as he quickly glanced at me and slightly annoyed at the fact ah was laughing at him.However that annoyed face didn’t last long and he instead was looking at me the same way he was looking at the glass, as if ah was made of pure light.
Whenever he looks at me like that, time seems to stop around us and ah manage to always loose focus at everything else. Quite stupid really, don’t know why ah do it.
“I promise I’ll get you somethin’ just as shiny as that one day , mon soleil” he affirmed, gently reaching for my arm with a soft smile and this time ah let him grab it.For some reason ah felt like ah couldn’t move and was to scared to break the eye contact , scared that ah would loose him if ah even dared to look away for a second.
After a few second of just stand there silently, we both realised that all the others had left and we were the only ones standing on the court.
Remy decided grab the ball that was on the floor and hold it out in front of me then ask “How about we play a game together Chère? Just the two of us?”
Giving him a warm smile ah nod and snatch the ball out of his hands whilst he’s not focused. Bouncing the ball in the other direction towards the hoop ah hear remy jog towards me from behind trying to catch up and somehow he manages to step right in front of me blocking my view of the hoop.
“Remy this ain’t fair, you’re so much taller than me!” Ah groaned in disappointment, moving from side to side trying to dodge his blocks. For some odd reason he went from laughing at me to dead silent with a huge grin on his face as if he came up with the most evil plan to conquer the world in a matter of seconds.
But before I could even ask him about that he grabbed my chin and leaned down to my ear.I could feel his hot breath on the side of my neck before hearing him suggest “You should learn to speak French ,mon amour”
Confused as hell ah answer back with the ball in one hand and my other on my hip “And why is that swamp rat?”
He then proceeded to step back a bit so ah could see his face but not break the distance, tuck a strand of hair behind my ear and whisper gently “Because I’d love to hear my language on your tongue ,ma belle”
Ah quickly felt heat rise up to my face and the ball slip out of my hands. My jaw dropped instantly and ah was at a loss of words. Ah was opening and closing my mouth like a fish outa water. Once ah snapped out of it I quickly turned around and shouted “You cheating little-“ but stopped mid way through because ah was so flustered ah didn’t know what to say
“What? Cat’s got your tongue eh’?” He smoothly added spinning the ball on his finger whilst laughing.
Instead of replying ah cross my arms and started to walk off huffing dramatically out to the field beside the court.Ah knew Remy had very few weaknesses and one of them being making me upset, ah always used that as an advantage.
It was always so funny to see his face how he went from laughing his ass off to instant regret like a little puppy. Ah can admit it is quite cute but ah shouldn’t be letting that get to my head, ah still need to keep a distance.
Ah reached the sort of middle of the field, stopped and then sat down cross legged with a big frown on my face. Ah could hear Remy call my name from behind me but ah didn’t turn around ah knew he was following me to make sure ah wasn’t to mad.
After a few seconds he sat down next to me, out of breath. Usually he’d start apologising by now but he was dead silent. Ah turned to look at him and he was pouting his lip and blinking at me to show he was silently apologising.
“Don’t ever do that again do you hear me?” Ah point my finger at his chest which he nodded rapidly to reply.
Usually when we would sit and talk about things and life we’d go to our spot on the roof as it was quiet and peaceful but for some reason this afternoon we started talking whilst laying in the middle of the field looking up at the sky.
Ah love when we have our afternoon talks, Remy always knew how to make things easier. Even though ah would usually just hide and keep the thoughts to myself Remy would always push me to at least tell him to make the pain lighter.
Time seemed to pass quickly and it soon became quite dark. We both knew that the team would soon try come looking for us and so it was good to start heading back.Though when ah started to stand up he grabbed my arm and looked at me with an expression that looked like a mix of worry and something else.
“Chère i know you’re strong and could definitely defend yourself. But could you promise me something?” He took a breath and ah could feel him rubbing my hand with his thumb. Ah always loved when he did that.
“Promise me if you’re ever in a situation that you need help getting out of and you can’t talk cross your fingers and I’ll take that as a sign to help you okay?” He whispered.
Ah always disliked promising something to someone as the other person will always find a way to break it. It takes a lot of trust to promise something.
But this?
This promise felt light and truthful from the way he looked at me to the way he said it with such gentleness. It made my heart ache that he trusted me enough to keep a promise.
Ah could not let him down.
“Ah promise, mon amor” ah replied giving a soft smile. He laughed at my use of French with my southern accent
“Hey don’t laugh at me! You said you wanted me to learn didn’t ya?” Ah exclaimed crossing my arms and standing up now.
Remy , still laughing, stood up and latched his arm with mine like a chain. “Now Chère you still have a lot to learn.”
“Hmm one day swamp rat.” Ah nudged his shoulder as we walked hand in hand towards the mansion for dinner.