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This place. Again.
Empty biome of dead grass block. No relief. Nada. Just bad memory, old mistake people assume I did. The same place every night when I sleep. Not often, though cause I hate it here.
Anyways. Should just start walking before I get catch by bad memories. Maybe find a way out ? But I doubt it has. I really really doubt that. But anyway. Walking. All I gotta do. And think. That's a good thing to finish mad. Yay.
" Why have the same dream again ? Uh ?" I yelled out.
Like someone's gonna answer.
" Maybe to stop you doing stupid thing ? You done enough in the past. "
Wha- ? Mapicc ? I turn around. Yep. Definitely him. Shoot.
" I didn't- "
" I didn't mean !" He copied me. " Like I believed you. Cause who is the fault to get me and Jumperwho in a jail ?"
" Not me, duh. I'm not the one who controled that."
He chuckles. Whatever. Just hallucination. Why I'm talking to some hallucinations/dream ? I start walking away.
" What a coward. Escaping reality. Like always ! "
"What a shame ! You are disappointing. "
Shut up. I don't need it.
" Why do you think I tried to killed him ?"
Mapicc. Again. Wait, what ? I stopp. What does he mean by that ? I turned slowly toward my old best friend.
"You here me, Spoke !" He laughed at me. "I tried to kill you and you were stupid enough to think we were still friends !"
What ? I feel tears growing to the corner of my eyes. No. No crying. It is weakness. I'm not weak. Not anymore. Just turn back and find an exit. He didn't mean that. That was not true. Right ? Right !?
Some one poked my shoulder. I ignore them. It poked it again. I will not answer whoever it is.
"You were going to cry, aren't you ?"
" I were not. You imagine it." A little shake in my voice. Mapicc really was haunting me, hu ?
I hate this place. Really got nothing. Not even a tree-. Nevermind. Got one. Dead like the rest of the place but still.
"Spoke is weak. Does he have friends ? No ! Why ?"
"CAUSE HE IS SOOO SELFISH! "
"SHUT UP ! I'M NOT WEAK ! I'M NOT AND I DON'T NEED FRIENDS ANYWAY ! WHY SHOULD I ? TELL ME !"
Oh. I did explode for a dream. Well, a nightmare. Right. Tears was going down my cheeks and I was shaking. But I sit like nothing under the tree. There wasn't even a sun. Just an endless nigh and starless. Great. I laught at my self. I'm going mad ~! That's... Is perfectly fine ! Nothing to worry about ! What is the next stage ? Death ? Suicide ? Ha !
"Why not ? You wouldn't be trouble anymore. To anyone."
Fuck. He is right. But I kind of don't want to leave the unstable. It is funny. Maybe should I travel the server ? I would get recognised by people because of my reputation. And the NULL ? What I'm going to do with them ? I just... Can't leave, right ? Maybe I can hide ? I heard that Wemmbu did goes on invisible for some time before Parrot found out for Flame... Maybe not... Though, people will search me ? Or just dance because I disappeared ?
"Who knows ! What if they're happy about it ? What you're gonna do ?"
. . .
I don't know. Maybe a really bad idea. Yeah. Should I speak to a random player about it ?
" They'll think you are mad. Just a player going crazy. "
Someone I trust ?
"Someone you trust ? Let me laught ! You don't trust anyone since Jumperwho and Mapicc betrayed you. "
Right. No friends. My breath shakes one more time and tears travel through my cheeks to the ground. Yeah. Maybe just stop being is a good idea.
"You may be right." I said out loud.
"Why ?" A voice ? "Spoke ?"
This voice ? No. No hope. And if it was an illusion again ?
"Spoke, wake up."
Authority. That was the tone.
"Uh ?"
I open my eyes. It was bright.
"Underscore ?"
"You're awake !" He sighs. Wha- ? "I was getting worry. It look like you were having a nightmare."
. . .
"... I was." I muttered. "And I was alone. Really scared."
"Sir, you don't have to be worry about it. I'm here by your side."
I start crying again.
"You promise ? That you'll stayed and be my friend ?"
He open his arms and I approach for a hug.
"Yes, sir." I let some sobs get out. He was so kind.