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1. to love me, is to suffer me by Anonymous

   Fandoms: Chainsaw Man (Anime)  

   • Explicit
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   11 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Angel Devil/Hayakawa Aki
   • Hayakawa Aki
   • Angel Devil (Chainsaw Man)
   • Alternate Universe - No Devils (Chainsaw Man)
   • Alternate Universe - Architects
   • Exes to Lovers
   • Exes with Benefits
   • Top Hayakawa Aki
   • Bottom Angel Devil (Chainsaw Man)
   • Smut
   • Heavy Angst
   • Flashbacks
   • Hayakawa Aki is Bad at Feelings
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Past Sexual Abuse
   • Angel Devil has Abandonment Issues
   • Internal Conflict
   • Medium Burn
   • Jealous Hayakawa Aki
   • Porn with Plot
   • Finger Sucking
   • Dry Humping
   • Anal Sex
   • Blow Jobs
   • Spit Kink
   • Sexual Overstimulation
   • Praise Kink
   • It gets kinky in the later chapters
   • Belly Bulge
   • Spanking
   • Angel Devil Can Touch (Chainsaw Man)
   • but he is scared of physical touch
   • Childhood Trauma
   • Emotional Sex
   • Possessive Hayakawa Aki
   • Light Dom/sub
   • Aftercare
   • Eventual Happy Ending
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • They fuck nasty in the first chapter!!
   • Codependency
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Getting Back Together
   • Non-Linear Narrative
   • It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better
   • Not Beta Read
   • Angst with a Happy Ending

   Summary

   “The guy you kissed tonight. Who is he?”

   “I—I don't know who he was,” Angel stammers, blinking up at him.

   “Really now? Did you like it? Do you let other people kiss you that easily now? Are you that easy, Angel?”

   Angel shakes his head, his gaze dropping in shame.

   or

   Angel breaks and calls Aki to pick up the pieces, again. Two years of exes trapped in an endless toxic cycle, unable to escape the wreckage that devours them both.

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