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Hustle and bustle / cannot melt this loneliness.
Small talk / cannot wash away the solitude.
I turn my head away, refusing to care.
Trapped in my obsession, a fool playing the clever dullard.
Shame filled my iron core from the past, / turned into fuel called resentment.
I only fled my home to seek the one true confidant;
Never did I think the true confidant would stay through wind and rain,
Guiding me all my life, from beginning to end.
No need to sigh, no need to mourn, no need for pity!
Pride is not innate; sorrow is man-made.
Blame it on Saturn and Jupiter's intimate bond:
Peers, accomplices, sharing weal and woe;
Close friends, confidants, comrades in life and death.
They have not shared the pain of sin!
They have not felt the torment of walking on eggshells!
You little junior, how dare you step in!
Envy, jealousy, frenzy!
Jupiter appeared behind me, and I ignored him.
He has grievances, he has opinions, but I don't care!
You never lent a hand, so why pretend to be modest?
Neptune appeared before me, and I ignored him.
He has smiles, he has expectations, but I don't care!
Really... I really... don't care?
He is not X, why should I care?
Ah, it turns out he is willing to let everything go, calling my beautiful and flawless true name, crossing the void with me to find my only true confidant.
But... but... what good does this do you?
You once mocked my name as unpleasant,
You once tricked me into leaking my stinking private secrets.
You once... you once accompanied me on my journey,
Offering practical advice to help me recognize and correct my cruel words and deeds.
I don't know when it started, but I began to bitterly envy you:
Envy that your original heart never changes, that you are carefree.
You are never changed by the environment; you are the one who changes the environment.
Stress, counterattack, constant anxiety;
Inferiority, self-abandonment, excessive concern.
I have experienced all the loneliness of being unable to fit into the collective,
I have experienced all the loneliness of being misunderstood by ordinary people.
I broke the shackles I set for myself,
I walked out of the chamber of my heart and awakened to myself.
Inferiority or self-abandonment, I am who I am!
My dear yesterday's self...
Stop comparing your rings and appearance!
You are born kind, born beautiful!
Just treat the sarcasm of fame and fortune as a joke,
Living happily in this moment is the best!
Leap out of the cycle of the domino effect,
I cherish old friends, enlighten my children, and smile to my heart's content.
Perhaps tomorrow's changes will still descend upon us,
Perhaps the eight-planet alignment isn't the cure for all chaos.
No matter what, we are all getting better.