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1. i don't smoke (except for when i'm missing you) by deer_in_a_trap

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Iron Man (Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   18 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Steve Rogers/Tony Stark
   • Steve Rogers & Tony Stark
   • Bruce Banner & Tony Stark
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Steve Rogers
   • Clint Barton & Natasha Romanov
   • Steve Rogers
   • Tony Stark
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • James "Rhodey" Rhodes
   • Pepper Potts
   • Thor (Marvel)
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Clint Barton
   • Bruce Banner
   • Howard Stark
   • Obadiah Stane
   • Edwin Jarvis
   • Drug Abuse
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Underage Drinking
   • Underage Smoking
   • Panic Attacks
   • Angst
   • Fluff and Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Self-Harm
   • Eating Disorders
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Past Suicide Attempts
   • Grooming
   • Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault
   • Child Abuse
   • Abuse
   • Derealization
   • Dissociation
   • Tony Stark Has a Heart
   • Steve Rogers/Tony Stark Angst
   • Tony Stark Angst
   • Tony Stark Needs a Hug
   • Tony Stark Has Trust Issues
   • Tony Stark Has Daddy Issues
   • Tony Stark Has Issues
   • Tony Stark Has Self-Esteem Issues
   • Strangers to Friends to Lovers
   • Slow Burn
   • well i try to make it slow burn
   • Bad Parent Howard Stark
   • Abusive Howard Stark
   • Creepy Obadiah Stane
   • thor speaks like shakespeare sorry not sorry
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Self-Sabotage
   • absent parent maria stark
   • Protective Steve Rogers
   • Found Family
   • Alternate Universe - High School
   • Title from a Mitski Song
   • this is my first work ive ever posted gulp

   Summary

   Tony Stark is tired of being alive.
   He's done with doing the same old thing every day, the cycle repeating itself like he's on a hamster wheel. Dealing with abuse from his father, the weird affection from Obadiah, and the constant eyes on him is getting to be too much. Can he break the cycle and find something to live for? Possibly the reassuring company of Steve Rogers and his friends will be enough.

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