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At 8:30 a.m., Sherlock Holmes shaved very closely.
It was pointless. He had already shaved at 6:12.
The blade slid beneath his jaw with perfect precision, in that absurd territory where a gesture stopped being hygienic and became a statement. Sherlock studied his reflection with the severity he usually reserved for uncooperative suspects.
He looked awake. So the lie was convincing.
He had not slept, but not because he was worried, naturally. Worry implied an inability to establish a hierarchy of risks. He had established the hierarchy of risks before midnight, revised it at 1:17, expanded it at 2:43, rejected it as insufficiently elegant at 4:05, then decided at 5:22 that the major risks were now contained.
At 5:24, he had opened the sitting-room window.
At 5:31, he had closed it.
At 5:38, he had opened it again.
Baker Street had taken the air with the bad grace of an old house having a domestic virtue imposed upon it far too late. The cold had come in, touched the curtains, the books, the rug, the skull, the papers on the table, then settled into the flat like an inconvenient witness.
Sherlock had lasted eleven minutes.
Then he had smoked three cigarettes in a row at the window, watching the street fill with people who had the poor taste to lead ordinary lives.
He was not nervous.
He was simply waiting for a twenty-year-old woman, officially French, unofficially impossible, to leave a clandestine British institution where the State had confused protection, conditioning, and bad faith for long enough to produce Lena Moreau.
Nothing unusual.
He rinsed the blade. His face did not change in the mirror.
He suddenly remembered another morning, five weeks earlier, an almost identical shave and a case pretending to be administrative. A disappearance that was too clean, Mycroft exasperated, John in a car, and Turing at the far end of London as though hell itself had learned to produce paperwork.
Then Lena.
She had been late, obviously.
A child clinging to her leg, two insults in her mouth, dark circles down to the bone, and that way she moved through the Centre as though the building were simultaneously her territory, her prison, her sick animal, and a private joke.
The children looked at her the way you looked at an emergency exit that knew how to bite. The adults looked at her like a rare resource that answered back too quickly. Sherlock, for his part, had first seen the body, the eyes, the vigilance all the way into the back of her neck. The doors she never looked at because she had already counted them. The lie in the posture before the lie in the sentence.
Interesting, he had thought.
He turned off the water. The silence in the bathroom seemed oddly satisfied.
Sherlock put on his favourite shirt. He realised it at the third button.
Ridiculous.
He looked at the white fabric, the perfect cut, the exact collar. A shirt reserved for important hearings, delicate scenes, days when elegance needed to function as a scalpel. He was, objectively, going to collect a young woman from a clandestine building full of overtrained children, falsified files, and morally compromised adults. The shirt was therefore excessive. He kept buttoning it anyway.
In the sitting room, the flat looked guilty. Sherlock stopped in the doorway.
He had considered tidying.
The idea had occurred to him at 6:48, which was sufficient evidence of the general state of the morning. He had looked at the books stacked by the fireplace, the files on the desk, the forgotten cup beside the microscope, the remains of an experiment that had not yet acquired enough interest to deserve a conclusion, and had briefly considered reducing the visible chaos.
Then he had imagined Lena walking in, putting down her bag, looking at a shelf that was too straight, a table that was too clear, a skull that had been moved, and immediately understanding enough to laugh at him.
He had therefore abandoned the idea, out of minimal dignity.
He had then moved the skull eight centimetres to the left. Then three centimetres to the right. Then returned it to its original position.
The skull, which possessed greater emotional stability than most of the occupants of Baker Street, made no comment.
Sherlock crossed the sitting room. The upstairs room was ready.
Mrs Hudson had brought up clean sheets the day before, with that damp-eyed look of hers and that scandalous way of saying far too much while saying nothing at all. John had taken down Rosie’s last box two days earlier. He had pretended it did not bother him. Sherlock had pretended to believe him. Baker Street had creaked on the stairs with rare acoustic indecency.
The upstairs room was ready.
Sherlock opened the refrigerator. Mistake. He closed it again.
He made a mental note to buy something that could reasonably be considered food, then discarded the note. Lena would eat anything while claiming it was a tactical decision, judge his fridge, probably steal Mrs Hudson’s cereal, then deny it with criminal bad faith.
He checked his phone. No message, naturally.
She was probably busy refusing to call a goodbye a goodbye, thwarting one last attempt from Bellamy, stopping three teenagers from slipping illegal objects into her bag, insulting Jack Mercer so she would not have to thank him, leaving the only place that had known how to keep her by breaking her in small, usable doses.
Sherlock put the phone down. Picked it up again. Still nothing.
Pointless.
He put it down again, then stood motionless in the middle of the sitting room.
He was not impatient.
The word was unacceptable and, in any case, inaccurate. Impatience belonged to people who allowed emotions to contaminate irrational decisions. There was nothing irrational about this one. It was a civilian exit, a prepared room, an exhausted woman, and the brutal certainty that the day was about to alter the structure of Baker Street.
He was therefore focused. Extremely focused.
Mrs Hudson gave two tiny knocks on the open door.
“Sherlock?”
“Yes.”
She appeared with a tea towel in one hand and the expression of a woman who had decided not to comment on the shirt, which already constituted a comment.
“Have you eaten?”
“I’m not hungry.”
“Obviously.”
She came in and set a plate containing two pieces of toast, a cup of tea, and a small bowl of strawberries on the table.
Sherlock looked at it.
“Why strawberries?”
“Because they’re very good.”
“Insufficient criterion.”
“For you, perhaps.”
She surveyed the sitting room. The open windows, the ashtray, the shirt, the phone positioned exactly too close to his hand, then the toast.
Her expression barely changed.
“What time is she arriving?”
“Nine thirty, if everything goes according to plan.”
“So ten.”
“Nine thirty-seven.”
Mrs Hudson smiled.
“Of course.”
Sherlock turned towards the fireplace.
“This is not a ceremonial arrival.”
“No.”
“It is a temporary placement in a more defensible location.”
“Naturally.”
“The word placement is already excessive.”
“I didn’t say anything.”
“You were thinking very loudly.”
“I’ve lived here a long time, dear. I’ve learned to think quietly.”
He shot her a look. She ignored it with unbearable ease.
“I put a clean towel in the bathroom. And soap. Not the lavender one. The one she won’t hate.”
“You cannot possibly know she would hate it.”
“Oh, yes, dear. She looks like you.”
“Like me?”
Mrs Hudson gave him an absolutely criminal smile.
“Fussy about details.”
Sherlock said nothing.
Mrs Hudson looked at him with that dangerous softness that occasionally made him want to flee the country.
“She’ll be all right here.”
He should have replied that that was not the point. That all right was a vague category. That Baker Street was not designed for wellbeing.
He said:
“Yes.”
The word came out lower than intended. Mrs Hudson pretended not to hear it with excessive precision.
“Eat at least one piece of toast.”
She left.
Sherlock remained in front of the plate. He took a strawberry. It was excellent.
He ate the whole thing, for scientific purposes, then checked his phone. 8:34. Still nothing.
He put on his coat, then checked the inside pocket: phone, keys, cigarettes, access authorisation, useless paper from Mycroft that no sensible guard would dare challenge after the first sentence, and a small folded note on which Mrs Hudson had written a list of things to buy for “a young woman who must not live entirely on coffee and corpses.”
He had not thrown it away. Simple oversight.
He went downstairs.
The wood creaked beneath his feet with ridiculous emphasis. Baker Street, the traitor, seemed to be holding its breath.
On the landing, Sherlock stopped.
Five weeks earlier, he had gone downstairs for a disappearance. This morning, he was going downstairs for an arrival.
The distinction was purely technical.
He opened the black door. London air came in, grey and damp. Sherlock turned up the collar of his coat.
He was simply going to collect Lena Moreau.
His associate.
A twenty-year-old woman fresh out of a military asylum with a cardboard box, several knives, three layers of bad faith, and a troubling ability to make the future less boring.
Nothing unusual, then.
He smiled, very slightly, then stepped outside before anyone could see.