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Dear Mapicc,
I know we aren’t on the best of terms but I need you to know I miss you. I know that I could have killed you and I did what I did to save your life because without you I would hate myself for knowing I screwed up, that I messed everything up.
I have been a horrible friend, and I understand if you hate me because you have all right too. I can’t let you go without telling you how much I regret everything how you could have been here with me right now we could be the Devious Duo, but you aren’t and everyday my heart hurts more and more. It feels like it’s being ripped out of my chest, it feels someone is slowly suffocating me.
I love you; you are my best friend. You light up my life and you are my home. I choose you everyday and any day. All I have left of you now is my memories of us. Even if a memory is all I have left with you that’s all I need because you mean more than the whole server to me.
I keep going because I know you would want me to, I keep striving to be the best I can be because I know you would want me too. I spend sleepless nights thinking about what I did and I cry so much and think I will drown in my tears. I feel like being without my best friend will slowly kill me.
Mapicc you are the only person I care about and you need to understand that the choice I made leaving you in the Underworld was the best decision because if I lose you to the war that is coming I don’t think I will survive. Losing you is losing me. That is why I can help you. I will save you soon as it’s safe. I love you Mapicc with every bone in my body so please forgive me and understand what I am doing is for the best.
Love your once dear friend Spoke.