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It was just another night, nothing interesting happened at the day, everyone had their challenge, two teams were up for elimination, everything had gone just fine.
Except for X, not everyone can be fully fine, can they?
Anyways, the day actually went pretty well for X too, but a minor chat was just enough to destroy their positive thoughts.
"... Soo, X, have you been eating more lately?" Clock suddenly asked, while both of him and X were washing the dishes. Four wasn't around because their hands were itching from how much he cooked that day.
"Huh? No, I'm eating normally, not any less and not any more, just the usual, why do you ask?" They brightly answer, thinking Clock was just worried about something.
"Uhh, I just think you got... Fatter?" Clock stopped cleaning for a moment, just to point at X's stomach "Like... I'm pretty sure you were less chubbier some weeks ago."
"Well, I..." He stopped for a moment, did they really gain some weight? They looked at themselves and he didn't see any differences, so he looked back at Clock "I don't see any problem with my body, why are you so worried about that tho?" He tried joking it off, but the next answer was just worse.
"I mean, I guess if you were thinner, you would look more pleasant to be around.. You could even say that Four would like you more." Clock responded on a dull tone, like it was normal to say that out of nowhere, he even continued washing the dishes.
Different from him, X stopped, completely.
"More.. Pleasant?" They questioned, his head looking towards Clock, who didn't even bother to look back
"Yea? Like, both Four and Two are kinda of slim and you are just there. I guess it would be better if you lost some weight anyway"
X was in disbelief. At the same time, he took his words to the heart. Being thinner meant being nicer to talk or hang out with?
They stopped washing the dishes, cleaned their hands and took of their apron "Heyy!! Speaking of Two, I just remembered I needed to talk to them! Thank you so much for reminding me Clock, hope you don't mind washing the rest, see you!" X bursts out of the kitchen so fast that he couldn't even hear Clock's reaction
X intensely walked through the hallways, trying to get to his room, some contestants would greet him but X was so on his mind that they completely ignored them.
They even ignored Four! Ok not really, both of them crossed paths and X just said he was in a hurry, but Four knew those eyes. Thats why X ran away to his room even faster.
Getting into their room, he locked the door and sighed. He slowly went to the bathroom to look themselves into the mirror.
...
The urge to watch something sparkled on his mind, the terror on their eyes appeared almost the same time as that sensation.
X tried to distract themselves, they laid down on bed, tried sleeping...
It didn't work.
They picked up his book of recipes who was always lying around, tried reading something...
It didn't work.
He turned on the TV, trying to watch something else, anything that wouldn't make he watch that stuff.
It didn't work either.
X was hopeless, he turned off the TV, picked up the phone and... Wait, they could just tell Four, right? Four doesn't mind hanging out with him!
... No.
They are probably with many things on their mind, he wouldnt want to deal with X's bullshit any time soon.
So, X gave up.
He put his phone on don't disturb mode
Opened up his browser
Then he putted on the anonymous function, to make sure no one would find out.
They he searched, just two simple word—
———
It has been some hours, it was now midnight.
X really wanted to not watch those things again, they were months clean...
But a single comment causes them to break it.
They were so stupid.
He got up from bed, went to the bathroom again and started to wash his hands. He spent some minutes, just washing their hands.
Yet they still felt disgusting. That won't work I guess.
He dried their hands, and got back to his room, picking up his phone and turning off the don't disturb mode.
There was... Plenty of messages from Four.
He clicked the notification and read some of them, one caught his attention.
"I saw you rushing, and those eyes don't lie. So, when you are ready, come and talk to me ok? You know I don't judge."
...
If he ever told that to someone, of how disgusting and disturbing they are...
He knows damn well that no one would see them normally ever again.
Thats why it's better to stay silent.
X just simply responded to all of those messages from Four with one sentence
"I'm fine, don't worry about me."
Then he turned off his phone, putted it on the desk next to his bed, and went to sleep
Tomorrow will just be another day.