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    Still here, he thinks. Still breathing.

    Alive. Alive. Alive.

    It is a strange ritual, and he does not examine it. There are many things Lu Guang does not examine. He has built a small, orderly house inside himself and he walks its hallways every day with his eyes lowered, and he does not open the doors at the end, because he knows what is behind them. A bullet. The wet sound of a body hitting the floor. The particular heat of blood on his own hands, which are not his hands anymore, not in this timeline, not in this clean, forgiving life where nothing has happened yet and perhaps nothing ever will.

    Or: how grief is just love with nowhere to go, and lu guang feels as though he will bleed to death from the pain of it.

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