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Its a November monday again. Lamine couldn't get off his bed for approximately 10 minutes now. The darkness outside and the fuzzy blanket made it impossible to stand up and go to school. Lamine looked at the time - It was 6:30 am. "Just ten more minutes.." thought Lamine to himself, as he put his phone away .He could still take a nap and then just quickly put something on and rush to school, so thats exactly what he did. The second he snuggled in that white cozy blanket, everything became fine again, and all the problems dissapeared for just a moment.
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Pau was sitting in Xavi's car, as he was driving him to school.
"Exited for Science first period?" Asked xavi, slightly teasing Pau. Pau knew that picking sience as his first class was never the best option, but ever since he did, the junior year has been nothing but hell.
Pau sighed, and put his hands on his face, ran them down and annoyed grunted " Are you seriously asking me this at seven in the morning?" Xavi just let out a silent laugh, before turning the car straight to the grocery store , that wasn't that far away from the highschool that they both were in. Pau didn't even complain. He knew that xavi would often stop by to get himself an energy drink, even though pau never liked that addictive habit of his.
Xavi parked the car quickly, and before walking away, questioned "You want anything? I have like five dollars on me." Pau shook his head, too lazy to even answer, before Xavi Espart slammed the door and walked to the store. As pau rubbed his eyes, trying not to fall asleep in Xavi Esparts car, he heard raindrops hitting the glas windows of the car, that quickly got intensively faster and bigger. Pau just couldn't belive what was going on. It was already a horrible Monday, because he had no breakfast, as his sister ate the last portion of cereal, he didn't sleep almost at all.. And it was raining? "Oh god this day cant get worse." Murmured pau, hitting his head on the front of the car, almost making the cat figure of Xavi fall down.
As Pau started to zone out, with the loud sound of raindrops hitting the window, the door slammed open, with xavi behing all hyped and jolly. Having first period German was much better then Science, so atleast he had reasons to be happy. Just as pau was about to complain , Xavi started the engine and began to drive . "I saw Gavi, Hector and Pedri together, they were buying cookies or something. I said hi just because of hector be honest. " Pau just muttered a quiet "mhm.", which Xavi didn't hear.
After a second, Xavi exclaimed "didn't see Lamine with them though", with a big grin on his face, knowing what hes doing. Still no reaction from Cubarsí. Xavi turned his head to Pau, as he sipped his energy while driving. "How tired are you dude?" Pau leaned back to his seat, grabbing his backpack, knowing that theyre about to be at school.
"I.. ugh I didn't sleep at all. Like two hours? " He groaned. Xavi offered him a sip of his redbull, and for the first time in a while pau didn't decline the offer, taking a big sip of the coconut flavoured drink .
Xavi espart parked the car on the school, and they both sprinted to school, trying to avoid behing wet as much as possible, even though Xavi was already halfway wet. Pau stopped the second he stepped through the school door, the white lighted Hallway blinding his eyes. Him and xavi walked to their lockers, barely talking. Xavi then, spontaneously asked "Pau, why do we even drive so early to school lessons start in only like 30 minutes?"
Pau was too exhausted to think. Now he was even more upset cause he realised he could've woken up properly and eaten his breakfast. Pau groaned loudly, before facepalming, and aggressively snatching Xavis drink out of his hand, to take one more sip of Caffeine. On the way up, they both met Marc bernal. Marc dabbed up Xavi, and wanted to bad up pau, before confusely looking at his face "Dude how much did you sleep" Pau didn't want to anwser any more questions, especially before class.
"Can i just go to class guys?" Asked Pau , in almost a whisper . The hallways were still pretty quiet, so Marc heard him perfectly clear.
"Well .. if youre so tired then do that! See you in English! " Pau just high fived Marc bernal, gave the empty redbull back to xavi espart.
Pau walked up the stairs, hearing something in the tone of "Did you really drink it all!?" From Xavi espart. Pau Cubarsi didn't really care. He walked up to his classroom and opened the door. The only classmates that were there were Désiré Doué and Kylian, seating near eachother. Pau couldn't stand Mbappe on his sight at the moment.. or.. at all.. He just mumbled a quick hi, before getting to his not assigned but the only place where he would sit, the place on the front row on the left. He put his head on the table, letting the blunt lights in the classroom consume him. There was only person who could make this day atleast a little better, and they were nowhere to be seen.
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Lamines alarm rang for the sixth time . He , for the first time with his half opened eyes actually looked at the time. 7:23 am. Exactly 22 minutes before his class would start. He jumped off the bed . It wouldn't be as bad if it was someone else, but for lamine it was a disaster. He had to style his hair, put on something fancy, drink a coffe and only then go out and drive to school. He could never let the seventeen year old himself look not perfect at school, where every one could see him. Lamine rushed over to the closet, and quickly put on his favourite black jeans with white patterns, a white shirt and a pink fluffy jacket. He looked out the window, where it was heavily raining."Fuck." Said lamine to himself. He still didn't change his outfit. He rushed to the mirror to scrunch his hair for it be fluffier and curlier, and put on his favourite headband. Lamine wasn't the proudest of what he was looking like today, but he couldn't waste one more minute.
He had no time to waste, so he grabbed his favourite sakura fragrance and sprayed it all over himself. His friends would often tease him for liking "girly scents", but he didn't really give a damn about that. Or anything, that could potentially show that his ego got even a little crushed. Lamine grabbed his backpack, without even checking if he had everything, and ran to the door. Its already been 15 minutes of him getting ready. It was usually around 40 minutes, so a win was a win. He sat on the wheel and started to speed towards the school, cause looking at his attendance he wasn't allowed to miss anything for this week. He wouldn't complete the challenge anyway, but not being late for the first period on a Monday wasn't that bad of a deal.
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Everyone was already in class .. except for Lamine Yamal. Cubarsi's day actually got worse for a second. No way for the worst day of his life lamine would be absent? Not like he cared That much , but whatever.He banged his head on the table. Just a minute before the bell rang, he heard the door click. The door dramatically opened, and Lamine yamal walked in. The second he did, the room started to smell like sakura cherry blossom and a soft note of cupcakes. From the back of the class, Nico Williams and Gavi both yelled loud "LAMINE!!" And Pedri shouted "Stop scaring me like that dude!" Lamine waved at the class, like he was some famous celebrity, and Nico started to clap . Before he went to the back of the class, he glanced at Pau. He looked extra good today, but Pau didn't even look at him? Lamine rolled his eyes, and went to the back of the class where he would always sit. He sat down, and pulled a notebook out of his backpack.. and started searching for his sience book. Wait.. he didn't have it with him. Fuck. The teacher was definitely going to be mad if he wasn't in a good mood today.
The second the teacher sat everyone down, the class started. Lamine payed no attention, and just talked to pedri who sat Infront of him about what food they were going to grab for lunch, since he hadn't eated anything today yet. In the meantime, Cubarsi was taking notes in his quiet corner. Usually no one even wanted to sit in the front row, so he just took the place and listened to the teacher, while also being able to sometimes take his phone out , or zone out while looking out the window without anyone noticing . Halfway through the class, when all the students got work to do, Lamine just stared at one person. And that person was Pau Cubarsi. He couldn't take his eyes off him. His hair was so messy and pretty, and the pullover that he had on looked so cozy and comfortable, Lamine wished he could touch it with something more then just his glance.
Last time they interacted was three weeks ago, when Pau dropped his book near lamine, and he helped him pick it up. Pau nodded and told him a clear thank you, while lamine nervously responded with something like "No problem". He knew Pau probably didn't even like him. Didn't even think about him at night. He didn't even know if pau was into boys? Lamine would overthink every eye contact and word into something either way too delusional, or something that made him spiral for hours. "He looks so cute while talking notes" Lamine thought to himself. He rested his head on his arm, smiling without anyone noticing.
"Lamiiinee!! Im saying your name for like the thrird time , hello?" Said Nico, louder then before . Lamine shook his head and Turned to Nico Williams.
"Ah yes sorry.. i got distracted." Nico just chuckled, before telling lamine something. He couldn't even remember what, cause he wasn't listening as much. Lamine just couldn't get his thoughts back together.
Nico spoke a little too loudly this time "No way they actually cancelled the football game just because of a light storm? Makes no sence to me !"
"Nico Williams and Lamine Yamal!" Yelled the teacher out loud, which made the boys immediately separate and pretend to take notes.
Pau turned his head, and looked at Nico. And then at Lamine. They made eye contact for approximately 2 seconds for the first time today, which brought lamine enough joy, to bite his lip to not smile from excitement.
"No way the game got cancelled. I was planning to go." Thought Pau to himself. He enjoyed going to the games.. Not even knowing the exact reason why. Well he did - but he tried to convince him it was because if his nostalgia to the football team. In the freshman year Pau Cubarsi joined the schools football team, but quit next year due to him not behing able to focus on school or mental health. He felt like it was the best decision hes done to improve himself, even though it left an empty hole in his chest since then. Pau really frowned at this point. His day did manage to get worse. He looked out the window- still heavily raining. Thank god his friend Xavi would always drive him to school, cause otherwise Pau would be soaking wet. Not like he doesn't have a drivers license, he does, but he always has to share a car with his sister, so to avoid arguing and discomfort he agreed that Xavi is always going to pick him up for school. He sometimes felt pathetic for that but whatever. Pau slowly zoned out, looking at the raindrops fall from the sky all the way to the garden near the schools parking lot.
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After everything Good always comes the bad part. Thats why right after Lunch Lamine had social studies. He absolutely hates that subject. More then math, English, French or science. The only thing that kept him away from just skipping this class as often as possible was the green eyed boy, who he only had two classes with. Other then that, everything was awful. The stupid teacher trying to be funny, the yellow lights that didn't even work on the back of the class and the motivation posters were nothing but trash. Lamine would either just fall asleep at the back, or not listen to the notes that the teacher made at all. Nothing made sense in his mind, so he would just copy the notes later on from someone random who actually knew what was going on. Except for Pau, Lamine got the courage to ask him only once, and and then went crazy in his room because Pau seemed like he "hated" him, just because he was dry.
At the moment he had absolutely no mood for everything. He woke up too late, his football game got cancelled and he never even had the chance to style his hair.
This was the worst day ever. . . Or was it?
Lamine stood in the hallway, waiting for his class to start. His teacher wasn't even there to open to door to the damn cabinet, so everyone had to awkwardly stay in the hallway. Or atleast thats what lamine thought it was. He would always jump around with his friends, and yell out stupid shut before his classes started, but today they all didn't even approach him after lunch. "A quick hi would be good?" Thought lamine to himself, staring at the ceiling of the not so well lit up corridor. Then he realised that Pau Cubarsi and Marc bernal were standing on the opposite spot of where he stood. Now lamine fixed his posture, and closed his backpack. He never really realised how automatically he tried to fix everything and look good Infront of Pau, until it looked a little obvious and he started regretting it.
"Pau , can we please call after school, i understood absolutely about nothing today" Explained Marc Bernal.Pau just gave Marc a quick dissapointed look, before yawning and responding with "No shit. Just call me whenever you have freetime. I have nothing to do.. i think? Except if Xavi decides to randomly invite me over to his place again". Marc just nodded, before dabbing Pau up, halfway hugging and walking away slowly, approaching his Gym class. Lamine locked his eyes on Marc bernal. He kind of wished he'd be the one calling Pau, or behing the one to randomly have a sleepover with him. Fuck. Hes doing it again. Hes Letting his jealousy consume him, even though he has much more stuff to think or not think about.
Just as lamine was trying to get away from the jealous thoughts, he felt someone looking at him. Not a glance, but someone locking his eyes on him. He usually hated this feeling, the feeling that someone is judging you and staring at a little mistake you didn't notice. Lamine quickly looked up, just to see that THE Pau cubarsi was looking at him. He was peering at his pink fuzzy jacket, looking at the folds and details , containing the white crystals on the end of the sleeves. Lamine was afraid to move. He just stayed in the same position he was, just looking at Paus green , today looking more on the light tiffany and olive green mixed side of the colour palette.
Then, Pau did something lamine was yearning for, yet afraid of. He looked at him directly in the eyes. Straight eye contact without looking away. Lamine kept the eye contact for like half a second, then looked away, and then looked back, just to see pau smiling a little. Lamines cheeks changed colour, reflecting his natural blush on his skin.
Just as lamine thought this couldn't get more daydream coded, Pau Cubarsi — the one he has been having an insane crush on.. did a little wave at Lamine. Not a big gesture, just pulling his hand up to the level of his shoulders, and quickly waved at him, closing his eyes with a little grin on his face. Lamine Smiled and nodded real quicky, before turning his head to another direction. Oh fuck this was awkward. He didn't even say anything back? As he looked back , Pau was already searching for something in his backpack.Just as the tension slid a little lower, the teacher finally got to the classroom, and opened the door, for all the students to walk in.
Lamine couldn't focus for all period . He got so focused on pau staring at him, he couldn't think about any History.. Geographical map signs or whatever was going on. Something else then school had his stupidly short attention span taken away.
Pau didn't pay as much.. or better to say almost none attention to what happened earlier.Or atleast for the time he was in school.He just Waved at his classmate out of boredom. Classmate? He didn't even know anymore. Fuck. Now hes back at it again. Pau just shook his head, and continued to take his notes, sitting next to Micheal Olise, who was just listening to music.
In social studies, Pau was sitting at the back of the class, when lamine was on his exact place in his quiet corner where he would sit in every other period. That was super unusual for him, but the first day he came to the classroom Olise offered him a seat next to his, which Pau couldn't decline. The last Row was a little too far away from the blackboard for Cubarsis eyes, so he had to take his clear glasses out to see normally.
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Lamines day was one of the best days now . The football practice doesn't even matter anymore. Rain? Whatever.He was just happy about Paus soft look at him, which lasted for longer then he could've ever expected. The soft smile, the hypnotising eyes of his, everything could make the nonchalant Lamine melt away in seconds. Even if Lamine thought he was too thrilled, the sun came out of the shade of clouds.
In PE Gavi even asked Lamine if he took something, because of how hyped and happy he looked, knowing his mood in the morning. Lamine didn't care about anyone except his precious Pau Anymore.
After the seventh period ended, lamine jumped in his car. He just sat there for a couple of minutes, grinning like an idiot. He pulled back in his seat,and drove home like crazy. Everything was going much better then he could've expected when he walked into a classroom.The second the Younger boy arrived home, he dropped himself on his bed, full of overjoy. This day changed in a good direction in seconds. Was it that good that someone could manipulate his emotions so much, to the point that the worst day turns into a best day? Deep down Lamine knew someone shouldn't control your day as much. But now it didn't matter. He had a high blast. The kind of blast, that quietly dies down and goes somewhere much deeper then a thought
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Pau was on a bus. Every day after school, except for Wednesdays , he gotten home by the bus, listening to his quiet, melancholic music in his favourite headphones. Today it was different. Some feeling in his chest hit him hardly, in the most unexpected moment. He knew he needed to talk to someone, who would understand — Someone who wouldn't make a big deal out of stuff, but would be a good listener. Pau immediately knew who to text. He leaned forward with his phone, the sun peaking a little through the gray clouds, shining right on his eyes .
2.23 PM
Pau
Xavi. Can i come over at 8 pm?
Pau put his phone away, and leaned back again. This was definitely going to be something.