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1. wait, i'm not down just yet (i've got mountains of regret and my sorrow fills an ocean) by everyoneloveslucy

   Fandoms: The Rookie (TV 2018)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, Major Character Death
   • F/M, Gen
   • Complete Work

   18 Oct 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Major Character Death
   • Tim Bradford/Lucy Chen
   • Tim Bradford & Lucy Chen
   • Gennifer "Genny" Bradford & Tim Bradford
   • Tim Bradford
   • Gennifer "Genny" Bradford
   • Tom Bradford (The Rookie)
   • Joy Bradford
   • Lucy Chen (The Rookie)
   • Kojo the Dog (The Rookie)
   • Whumptober
   • Whumptober 2026
   • Whump
   • Tim Bradford's Overlooked Mental Health
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Suicidal Ideation
   • Suicidal Behavior
   • References to Episode: s1e20 Free Fall (The Rookie)
   • Implied/Referenced Child Abuse
   • Implied/Referenced Domestic Violence
   • Tim Bradford's Rookie Year
   • References to Episode: s1e1 (The Rookie)
   • References to Episode: s02e11 Day of Death (The Rookie)
   • Guilt
   • survivor's guilt
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Depression
   • References to Episode: s4e9 Breakdown (The Rookie)
   • Angst
   • Post-Episode: s06e06 Secrets and Lies (The Rookie)
   • References to Episode: s6e6 Secrets and Lies (The Rookie)
   • Ambiguous/Open Ending
   • No Beta We Die Like Zoe Andersen
   • 5+1 Things
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat

   Summary

   It is, by all measures, a perfectly lovely—though perhaps a little chilly—day in spring when Tim Bradford wakes up and decides to kill himself.

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   Five times Tim Bradford wants to die, and one time he doesn't.

   Title from the song, "What Are You Thinking?" by sELF.

   Whumptober 2026 Day 18

   No. 18: Suicide Attempt | Isolation Sickness | Amnesia
   "You set the tone."

   Series

   • Part 6 of everyoneloveslucy's Whumptober 2026
   • Part 14 of rewrites + missing moments
   • Part 28 of fics from the rookie universe

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