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The sound of rain hitting the roof was lulling me to sleep. I had been crying for the past few days for reasons that I would rather not say. The rain was an exact feeling for how I was doing today.
A bolt of lightning ripped through the darkened sky and brightened up the room. There was an echo of a loud “crack” from the lightning, followed by a loud roar of thunder. Thunderstorms were my favorite thing, even when I am in the worst of moods, it somehow makes me feel better.
I am curled up in a ball on my bed, thoughts of everything that has happened today running thick through my mind. I was getting so lost in thought when a knock sounded on my door.
“Go away!” I shout.
The knock comes again and then I hear a familiar voice, a voice that I really didn’t want to hear.
“Harry, please let me in,” the voice rings out.
Tears start to come down my face again. The person for all my misery was standing behind the door. What kind of shit for person shows up like that and expect everything to be alright.
“I say go away! I don’t want you here Niall!” I shout again.
I hear him try the handle and when it doesn’t budge I hear him sigh.
“Harry please let me in, we need to talk,” he pleads with me. I can hear a hint of sadness in his voice and for a moment I feel guilty but I quickly push it away.
“NO! Go away Niall, I don’t ever want to talk to you again!” I scream.
I can hear him curse and then hear his fading footsteps retreating down the hallway. I sigh, thank god he left, I really didn’t want to deal with him.
Another crack of thunder echoes throughout the house and a bolt of lightning rips through the sky again. I sit up in my bed and peer around my room.
It had gone unmanaged the past couple of days, ever since that incident a few days ago. Let’s just say it was between Niall and I and it didn’t turn out too well. Love really sucks and whoever said to never miss opportunities to tell someone how you feel should go to hell because it wasn’t true at all; my life would have been a whole lot better if I never would have told him.
The rain continues to pour outside and I can hear it hitting the roof, my eyes begin to droop and for the first time in days, I am able to fall asleep.
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My mother forces me to go to school, saying that I shouldn’t sit around in my room and mope all the time. I get up from bed, get dressed and begin the lonely walk to my high school.
It is raining again today; it has been raining really ever since my confession to Niall all those days ago. It feels like Mother Nature is taking pity on me and letting all my emotions fall from the sky in sad and depressing water droplets.
I look at the ground as I am walking the familiar roads and you can literally see thousands of worms that have made their way up from the ground. It really is quite disturbing and I am afraid of stepping on them. I sigh and try to dodge as many of them as I can but to no avail as I step on one and squish it, killing it and somehow wishing that it was me dying and not the worm.
The buildings of my school come into view and I can see all the kids running inside trying to avoid the rain and at this point I am completely soaked from the rain but I honestly don’t care. I make my way inside and I can hear people whispering about me. They all must have found out about my confession to Niall and were talking amongst themselves about it.
I open my locker and throw my bag inside and grab my books for my first class of the day. I slam my locker shut.
Thunder can be heard echoing throughout the school and it calms me down instantly. I trudge my way to my class and make my way to the back of the room. I sit down and start to scribble in my notebook, writing poems like I am accustomed to.
The rain falls down
piercing through my heart like a thousand knives
I move on from you
A slow and steady process
You cut me
Cut me like a knife cuts an object
You haunt me in my dreams
You haunt me in my nightmares
I see your smiling face
I see your majestic blue eyes
You are like a drug
A drug that I am addicted to
I cried today
Cried like a thundering rain
Emotions shake through my entire body
Rocking me directly to the core
I move on from you
A drug that I am addicted to
Tears fall from my cheeks and land on the poem that I am writing. It hits close to home, letting all my emotions out on to the page.
The bell soon rings, dismissing us from class. I gather up my things and head to my locker once again.
I hear another roll of thunder echo throughout the school again and then see a bolt of lightning streak through the darkened sky.
I open my locker and throw my stuff back in and spin around when I feel a tap on my shoulder.
My face falls when I see that it is Niall standing there.
“Oh, it’s you,” I say with venom in my voice.
Niall’s smile fades and he looks at me hurt.
“Why are being like this Harry?”
I scoff at him and just walk away but was stopped by Niall grabbing my wrist.
“I said, why are you being like this Harry?” he asks again.
At this point I can’t hold my emotions in anymore and blow up on him.
“Why am I being like this Niall? Hmm, let me think. Oh, how about maybe it has something to do with the fact that I told you I was gay and you were completely disgusted with me. You looked at me with complete hatred and it made me feel like I didn’t belong here. How about the fact that I thought my best friend of all people would be the one to accept me, but no, he doesn’t. How about the fact that I have been in love with my best friend for years and my feelings for him went unrequited when I came out and he didn’t support me. Maybe that is the reason why I am like this Niall!” I spit at him.
I turn around and walk away, leaving him to wallow in the words that I said to him.
Tears were falling down my face because I was hoping, just hoping that he would stop me again from walking away but he didn’t, he just let me walk away, confirming to me that he doesn’t feel the same way about me like I feel about him.
Thunder rips through the halls of the school again and goes straight to my heart. Suddenly, my breathing became shallow and I was struggling to stand. An intense pain ripped through my chest and I dropped my things onto the ground. I scream and collapse on the ground.
I hear footsteps running down the hall. My breathing starts to slow down and the last thing that I see before my world turns to black is a set of blue eyes looking at me, welled up with tears.