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Hello.
I never wanted to make an announcement here but I felt that I need to especially due to what happened.
Technoblade, for the lack of a better way to say it, saved my life.
I will not get into too much detail because this isn't about him, but about me. But if Technoblade hadn't been around, I honestly doubt I'd still be around either. And while I am not deluded enough to think I was his friend, nor will I ever understand the pain of those who actually met him and is closest to him... I cannot express my gratitude about him without delving into me being personal.
I've been trying to avoid being too personal in this work, and honestly, I would've rathered I just canceled this series quietly. And yes, sorry, but this series was cancelled due to several circumstances before this. I just... Had been in a rough patch in my life for a long time now. This fanbase has hurt me outside of AO3 and had contributed much to my depression. And thus updates became sparser until finally I gave up and just abandoned this in a fit of rage and apathy without informing anybody as other authors who casually disappeared from the face of the earth. That, is something I regret.
Now that you know the context, it is now easy to say that despite all of that and everything... Technoblade was a constant.
When MCYT content had became such a trigger to me that I've been avoiding anything Minecraft related like a plague, I noticed that Techno was the only one I truly stuck with. Even with all of my outside issues of the fanbase my greatest friends here I met through Techno. And finally, even through my biggest bouts against my ongoing depression, Techno was there as a comstant along the way, even though I didn't quite appreciated it at that time.
Techno kept me going all those months
And now...
I regret realizing that until it was too late.
Even at his death bed he remembered us. Again, I never knew the man, and his family deserved all of the respect and privacy that he needed. Yet speaking as a fan and hearing him crack jokes in what was his final letter to us, disappearing in a blaze of glory making sure we are laughing along the way so we can have closure... Technoblade is a great person. And- And... A hero of mine.
I can never thank him enough, and I wish to cherish what little life I may have left, even when I am don't have the will to live. I know that, despite not knowing me, Techno wouldn't want anybody to fall apart without him. It is why he gave us such kind words before his passing. And I, however long it takes for me to grieve about it, shall take this as a way to somehow keep going. Technoblade fought till the bitter end, and I will to. It's what he would've wanted.
So I'm giving what little audience I have here the same courtesy he had given me who doesn't deserve it. Here's your closure, this fanfic series is sadly cancelled, and was for a while now. This series that blew up specifically cause I wrote about Techno. This series I made at the height of my love of the lore and ended just when I was leaving. Isn't it fitting that the last fic I released of this is a Technoblade fic? It's just... I didn't wanted to leave it like this.
But I wish to move on with my life. Techno has given me numerous second chances and stewing in the regret of not finishing something is only detrimental to me. And you, whoever stuck with me, deserves some closeure to. But again, this isn't about me.
This is about Techno, and how much he meant to me. And I had no other way to express my gratitude towards him besides delving into myself personally.
Sorry you had to hear this alongside what happened. Again, this isn't about me and I don't wish to make this about me. But I feel like this is my only way to move forward. Techno appreciated life through and through, I shall spend mine doing something I love. But really, I appreciate my time working on this too. Everyone's kind comments meant a lot to me and I will cherish them moving forward.
And while this is done, please, continue writing about Technoblade, continue his legacy. Take your time to grieve and let your emotions out. But if you're ready, don't find it in yourself to abandon your Technoblade art and writings like me. I left for personal, health related reasons. Doesn't mean that stopping all of your works is disrespectful. It isn't, keep screaming his name. Keep his flame lit. Technoblade never died for he lived on within us all. Let him be remembered forever more.
So everyone, thank you for sticking with me, no matter my faults.
And Technoblade...
Wherever you are, if you can still hear me somehow, a tiny spec in your legions of fans... Thank you. Thank you deeply. You have inspired me and countless others. You saved my life and you didn't even knew it. I can never express my gratitude in you in full. If I too have a hundred lives I won't regret ever following you. Please rest, Blood God, forever in peace. Thank you.