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Ilgaz watched as Ceylin was shot in front of the prosecutor's office, in front of so many people.
No one expected this, the special operation was over, the criminals were arrested. What happened? who shot? Everything happened in seconds. Ilgaz looked around, everyone was lying down or running here and there. He ran to Ceylin himself.
Ceylin was lying on the ground, bleeding profusely from her right side. Her eyes were closed and she was not moving.
Ceylin? Ceylin, give me a voice - Ilgaz begged Ceylin and took her head in his hands - Ceylin, darling, open your eyes - Ilgaz put Ceylin's head on his knees and looked at the wound.
The bullet had gone deep and Ceylin was losing a lot of blood. Ilgaz removed the scarf from his neck and pressed Ceylin's wound - someone call an ambulance, help me, he shouted.
There was chaos all around. The police were clearing the area. In a few minutes, the sound of ambulance sirens was heard.
Ilgaz wanted to talk to Ceylin, to tell her something, but he lost the ability to speak. He was afraid that it was too late and Ceylin couldn't be survived, and he was angry that they couldn't protect her.
Here, here, one is wounded, - Ilgaz heard the voice of the policeman.
Doctors came to them with a stretcher and took Ceylin out of his hands. Ilgaz's hands and clothes were covered with her blood.
Ceylin! - Ilgaz woke up from the shock - Ceylin, I'm coming with you too, stay strong, darling - Ilgaz followed the paramedics.
Sir, please stay here, don't interfere with us, we have to carry out manipulations in the car and your place is not there - said the doctor to Ilgaz and closed the door of the ambulance.
Ilgaz, covered in Ceylin's blood, watched as the ambulance left the prosecutor's office.
Son, go, don't stand here - Ilgaz heard Metin's voice.
Dad, I have to be with Ceylin, I can't leave her alone, I have to go to the hospital, I promised to protect her, but I couldn't, Ceylin must be fine - Ilgaz started crying uncontrollably.
Calm down son, I know, I will do everything and find the person who did this, come on, let's go to the hospital - Metin grabbed Ilgaz's shoulder and took him to the car.
It took several minutes for Ilgaz and Metin to reach the hospital. Ilgaz cried all the way and begged God not to hear bad news when he arrived at the clinic.
In the reception room, they told him that Ceylin was admitted for surgery.
Ilgaz and Metin sat down in the corridor of the hospital. They had nothing left but to wait. Ilgaz put his hands on his knees and bowed his head.
- Ceylin told me last night that she can live without me, but she doesn't want it. She chose me again, as always. She told me that she is afraid that our love is a disease - Ilgaz said to Metin in a low voice - you know, Ceylin always came back to me. Regardless of Cinar's mistakes, your mistakes, my mistakes, she always chose me, always chose our love and came back. Until I lost her, I couldn't appreciate how lucky I am that a woman like Ceylin chose me - said Ilgaz in a low voice.
- I saw my son, and I always appreciated Ceylin very much for not leaving you because of our mistakes, always standing by your side, uniting and supporting our family in the most difficult times. These 5 years have shown us that it is difficult for all of us to function without her, son - Metin put his hand on Ilgaz's knee - don't lose hope, Ilgaz, even if she chose you now, she won't go anywhere. She will fight and be fine.
- I never had the right to choose myself and prioritize my feelings. I did not want to be a burden to others, on the contrary, I took everyone's burden on my shoulders. I always chose the prosecutor before Ilgaz and repressed Ilgaz's feelings. Only after meeting Ceylin did I wish I could resist it, choose myself, sometimes give up on what's right and act on my feelings. Now the most important thing is that Ceylin comes back to me and I know exactly what kind of life I want with her.
- Ilgaz, my son... I know that it is my fault that you grew up like this. I always demanded too much from you, I always treated you harshly... Maybe I didn't show it, but I was always proud when you broke the rules because of the woman you loved. I also know what love is. Because of your mother and Cinar, you know I made a big mistakes, and even though I regret it, my actions hurt other people, as a husband and father, I would probably do the same now. Son, the most important thing for me is that you were happy and you made the choice you want, I'll support everything - Metin wrapped his arms around Ilgaz and hugged him.
Ilgaz looked up at his father with tears in his eyes and smiled weakly. Soon they were joined by Erguvans and the employees of the ET’s office.
Surgery had been started for more than 3 hours and Ilgaz was bothered by the anxiety of waiting. After a while, the doctor came out of the operating room.
“Ceylin Hanim lost a lot of blood. The bullet went through her body and it took us a long time to remove it, but now everything is fine and her condition is stable. We will leave her in the intensive care room tonight, and from tomorrow we will observe the dynamics of her improvement and make a decision based on that” - said the doctor.
And Ilgaz took a deep breath for the first time in hours.
There was no point in staying at the clinic at night, so everyone went home.
Ilgaz spent the whole night awake and as soon as it dawned, he returned to the clinic.
Can I come in to see Ceylin Erguvan? - he asked.
Ceylin Erguvan regained consciousness last night, and this morning the doctor recommended that she be transferred to the ward. I will let you in with her in a little while – woman answered Ilgaz.
Ilgaz smiled, he couldn't imagine if he would get chance of seeing Ceylin so easily. Before entering the ward, he called Eren to find out if they had found the person who shot Ceylin.
Eren told him that the shooter was arrested in a few hours. They found him in contact with Kadir Aksoy and was tasked with taking revenge on Ceylin even if Kadir was arrested.
Soon, Ilgaz was told by a nurse that he could visit Ceylin.
- Ceylin - Ilgaz said softly when he opened the chamber door and saw Ceylin lying on the bed, pale and weak.
- I got shot in live TV, what's that like, huh? Now I will really be a celebrity ha ha - Ceylin tried to smile.
- It's not funny, Ceylin - Ilgaz frowned - I watched you get shot by a bullet and you fell down, I had your blood on my hands and clothes - Ilgaz carefully sat down on Ceylin's bed and put his hand on her hand - I was very scared, Ceylin. I thought I lost you, - Ilgaz took Ceylin's hand and kissed it - after 5 years I got a chance to get you back and now I couldn't bear to lose you anymore.
- The doctor told me that everything will be fine, Ilgaz - Ceylin tried to calm him down - the main thing is that we finished the special operation and the case will be closed.
- Ceylin, are you talking about work again?
- I wasn't kidding when I told you that I was ready to give up my life... but I'm fine, I'm alive, Ilgaz.
- I will never leave you again!
- Ilgaz, After you left, I thought a lot and realized that I like my life the way it is now. I am fine in Ankara. The company is successful, I also like being a manager, I have a good staff, many friends, new people with whom I enjoy communicating, with whom I do not have a trauma bond, and our relations are light and fun - Ceylin smiled - I am busy with many activities and I have left things there that I want to finish. I don't want to go back to Istanbul. I feel calmer and better away from my family. This is my final choice and decision and I wanted you to know. I can't ask you to make a choice, Ilgaz. You have family and life here, I understand that too.
- Ceylin, you probably didn't listen when I told you that I can't live without you. If you want to be with me, that's not an option for me. If you want me to be a part of your life in Ankara, I will definitely agree to that - said Ilgaz and caressed Ceylin's cheek - I was serious when I told you that I want to heal myself and I want to try a healthy relationship with you. There will be no problem, I will talk to baba, apply for a transfer to the prosecutor's office and they will find me a job in Ankara. You just tell me that you want to be with me.
Ceylin was silent for a few moments, then smiled gently and held Ilgaz's hand.
- Okay, then, let's try, let's go to Ankara - she said.
The End.