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“J O B! To employment!” You sing out as you clink your glass of alcohol against Jinu’s. “Now you’re really starting to become an actual citizen, I’m Proud of you Jinu!” You say with a huge grin.
Today was his first day having a job so you thought it’d be good to celebrate with some good ol alcohol and grilled meat. “How was work?” You ask as you wrap the meat in lettuce and offer it to him, he eats it directly out your fingers and puts his finger up telling you to wait. After he swallowed he smiled; “it was great everyone was so nice.” You smile, “Thats good! Here, eat. Here, have some more to soak up the alcohol.” You offer him another lettuce wrap and he eats it.
“I also saw Rumi from afar, you know, she looked like she was doing okay.” He laid his head down and smiled at you, “you wanna know something though?” You took the shot and killed the nasty taste with some good lettuce wrapped meat.
“What?” You incline. “When I saw her it was different… I still felt the same but then you came to mind, and I started to think things like ‘i wonder what y/n is up to. Did she eat? Is she making one of those crazy concoctions just to throw at me?’ And I don’t know when but my thoughts just filled up with you, like they always do.”
“Jinu, you want another lettuce wrap?” You ask pushing another one towards him and he frowned sitting up, “there you go doing it again.” “Doing what?” “Whenever I try to give you my attention or something you always try to push my attention elsewhere.” “Cause it’s awkward if you stare.” “No, even now you just did it.” “You’re drunk.” “I’m not drunk out of my mind… I’d call this liquid courage at most right now.”
He gets up and walks around the table towards you who takes another shot as he’s doing so. “I like you.” You pushed a fat lettuce wrap in your mouth to buy you time, ‘he was a light weight with beer so he’s definitely a little buzzed from just those two shots, I don’t want to tell him your just drunk because that is so mean and rude but I also don’t want him to wake up and regret anything either.’
“What are you thinking about, hm? Do you not like me back?” “Could you dance to soda pop with me?” You ask abruptly as you get up. “Uh sure.” You smile, hoping this would derail him from the topic, at least until he’s sober.
You turn on Soda Pop and you both dance to it, Jinu being a lot more sloppy since he was drunk. He bumped into you causing you to lose your balance mid dance. In a hurry he tries to grab you but he ends up going down with you.
You groan at the throbbing pain on the back of your head. “Pff— Jinu you must be really drunk huh?” You say between chuckles, “a little.” He says propping himself up on his elbows while caging you in. You watch as his eyes wander your face, his hand perishing your hair off your forehead.
You swallowed, hoping the lump that formed in your throat would go away.
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I had just got off of work, man it was hectic. I saw Rumi, from afar at least, but anyways I guess the other Saja boys were only that easy to deal with because we all had a common goal. Man, I kind of miss them.
I wonder before all this happened who was her bias wrecker? Maybe Abby?
I was so caught up in my thoughts I didn’t even realize I was already home.
“I wonder if she worked overtime. I hope not.” I look at the elevator then the stairs. I let out a sigh, “yeah let’s not get our hopes up she’s a busy woman.” I mumble to myself as I get in the elevator and wait to reach my floor.
I put the pin in and opened the door, the sounds of mini confetti instruments going off. There she was standing in the doorway, always in her oversized nightgown and robe with the biggest smile on her face. “Happy first day of work Jinu!”
My heart fluttered, probably skipped a beat too. She’s just so….happy and contagious. The way her lips curl up when she’s excited, she makes me feel like I’ve been good all my life…
My cheeks were hurting, probably from how hard I was smiling right now, I couldn’t help myself. I eased out of my shoes and quickly went towards her and wrapped my arms around her, swooping her up off the ground.
“Woah! That scared me bro, do you like it that much?” “Yeah, I love it.” My voice softened so much in her presence I felt like I was melting.
I put her down once she patted my shoulder and she grabbed my hand leading me through the house, the smell of grilled meat consuming my nose. “Nothing is better than grilled meat and soju for a night of celebration!” She led me to my seat and pulled my chair out. I gave her a small thanks and watched as she quickly rounded the table to her seat. She poured us some soju and raised her shot glass, “J O B to employment!” She cheered as we clinked glasses.
“Now you’re really starting to become an actual citizen, I’m Proud of you Jinu!” She smiled again but it was more proud than the last. “ how was work?” She asked and so I tell her.
I even told her about seeing Rumi she seemed pleased when I said something about her. I didn’t like that, I didn’t want her to get jealous but I also didn’t want this pleased look coming from her after she just heard what I said. I told her how my thoughts filled with her even in the presence of Rumi.
I just really wanted to tell her, and maybe it was the liquid that was encouraging me to do so, I didn’t care I just wanted her to know. But she kept brushing my words off as if she didn’t believe them, was it that impossible for me to like her in her eyes?
I told her straight up, “I like you.” And again she brushed it off by asking if I wanted to dance to Soda pop.
It’s fine… for now it is, maybe I should just tell her again when I’m completely sober, maybe then she’ll believe me.
When we were dancing I couldn’t tell if I was the one moving slow or was it the song but quickly when I bumped into y/n I realized it was me and we went tumbling down together.
When I open my eyes she was under me caged in by my arms.
‘Why won’t you believe me?’ Was my first thought but the more I looked at her the more she put me in a trance.
Fuck.
She’s so pretty.
She’s so, so, so, so, beautiful.
And the way she shifts under me with this unsure look, as if she doesn’t even know she’s absolutely breathtaking, how adorable.
“Can I kiss you?” She looks at me as if I needed to repeat myself but I don’t. “Not on the lips…?” I couldn’t help but smile at her confusion.
God you really did your big one with her. With this beautiful woman below me.
I hold her face in my hands and tilt her to the side just a bit and kiss her cheek. Her skin was warm against my lips. Just a second, maybe two—but it didn’t feel short. It didn’t feel enough, either.
She blinked at me like she didn’t know what to do next. “Is… that all.?”
Her voice was quiet, a bit hesitant. My lips parted but nothing came out. My chest…
My body felt like it couldn’t handle the feelings that were swirling inside of me. Is it possible to like someone this much?
How do I even respond to this question? Is it a test? Is she asking for more? What do I do? What do I say?
Just like that I was stuck, like a coward… or rather I was stuck like a man who cared too much.
“If—“ I clear my voice, “if I go any further i won’t want to stop.”
You looked at me. “You can control it.”
“Hah… fuck. Don’t have so much hope in me, I’m only a man.” “You know how far you can go.”
‘You make me so weak.’