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"Who are you?"
"Akashichii, it's us. Aominechii and Kise, don't you remember us?" Kise was on the verge of tears. Aomine pulls him away from Akashi, letting the red haired parents a space for their son.
"Seijuro…please remember us" the lady pleaded.
"Doctor, did he lose his memories?!" the older man quickly went towards the green haired doctor that just entered the room.
Akashi expression and orbs remained blank.
No, I didn't lose my memories…
What I meant was what meaning do you have for me…?
Midorima checked his former captain carefully. He frowns.
"Akashi, do you know recognize any of us in here?" he asked, hoping for an answer. However Akashi remained expressionless. His empty orbs shifted to each of them.
Who are you…?
And who am I…?
Who? Who am I…?
His orbs stare into the nothingness.
Midorima shook his head. Aomine looked at the red haired patient.
"Akashi, please at least tell us, you remembered Tetsu. KUROKO TETSUYA!" he gritted his teeth.
"We know you have been blaming yourself for the two deaths you have faced in your life. Please remember!"
Kuroko Tetsuya…?
Who is it?
Why I have to remember this Kuroko Tetsuya…?
Two deaths…?
What are these people talking about? I don't understand…
I don't understand what they mean…
"Kuroko died… remember? So is your twin brother, Ryu" the older man continued. He cried.
I remember…
Ryu is gone…
Why is this person crying…?
I'm the one who is sad…
"Seijuro, LOOK OUT!" Kuroko shouted upon noticing the incoming trailer from his side.
It was too late. Akashi did not manage to drive the car away from the incoming trailer that crashed into them. The last thing he saw was a sky blue haired male looked at him in panic before everything went dark.
The sounds of ambulance, rings into his head.
Blood spilled everywhere.
He survived.
Kuroko died.
Without notice, pearl of tears escaped from his empty orbs down to his expressionless face.
Tears…?
Tears in my eyes …?
Why…why am I crying?
Ah…I remember now…
Tetsuya died…
It was my fault…
He died…
Just like my brother…
It was my fault…
They died.
It was days later, Midorima has discharged Akashi from the hospital. His parents brought him back to the main house.
He remains blank. No one knows what is he thinking or what he wants to do. Just like a robot. He stares into the nothingness all day long each day. Even when Aomine and Kise drop by, he only replies with a word or two.
I'm empty
Because I don't know where my heart is…
"Sei, it's time for dinner" the lady that calls herself as his mother taps on his shoulder gently. He turns around. His mother looked surprised upon seeing those empty orbs looking at her like a stranger. She smiled.
"You…don't have to force yourself to remember everything…slowly one at a time…"
He did not reply as he turns around, looking at the photo frame that hangs on the wall.
I should be the one that died not them…
He walks around the house. The maids bowed at him but he ignored. His gaze falls on each every photo frame in his room, a photo of him and Tetsuya, smiling at the camera.
Akashi, you should stop frowning
Akashi, let's get some vanilla milkshake
Akashi, we will be together forever…right?
Akashi…I love you.
His tears fall, his orbs widened. For the first time after weeks, his expression broke.
"Tetsuya…."
"Sei, the maids prepared some tea and cakes. How about you have some?" his mother knocked on the door. No answer. She opens it. The tray she carried dropped.
Akashi is missing.
In the empty streets, he walks slowly, walking to an unknown destination.
Where is my heart…?
I want to find my heart
I want to search for my heart
His steps stopped in front of a basketball court. He saw a ball at the corner of the court. He picked it up.
What am I trying to accomplish by searching for my heart?
If I found it…will Tetsuya and Ryu come back…?
Will I be free from this guilt..?
No…it's a selfish reason…they won't come back…
That's the reality I don't want to accept…
Ryu is dead.
Tetsuya is dead.
I killed them…
My brother, who I hated the most
Tetsuya, who I loved the most…
I'm the worthless one here…
Worthless me, petty me
But I'm so hurt by Tetsuyas' death…
What if I died?
Akashi falls onto his knees, he looked at both of his hands, both are trembling under the heavy rain.
Tetsuya would surely be sad for me
Tetsuya might be the only one sad for me...
"And still, I …" his tears start dropping.
"I lost Tetsuya to my carelessness!" he cries as he raised his head facing the raindrops.
"Sei, please don't blame yourself for what happened…it's...not your…fault…" Kuroko struggles to keep his orbs open. His breath came in shallow. His tears falls. Akashi held his hand tightly.
"DON'T LEAVE ME TETSUYA! THAT'S AN ORDER!" an order that that Kuroko could not obey. Akashi tears falls like rain, his heart begging to the heavens not to take Tetsuya away from him.
"Sei…" Kuroko hands slipped off Akashi grip. Slowly it falls to the side. The heart monitor rings in a long beep as long flat lines appeared on the screen. His chest stopped heaving. His eyelids shuts close. His bangs falls to the side.
"TETSUYA!" Akashi cried.
Akashi falls forward to the ground, his tears dropped onto the hard ground along with the rain. Then he noticed someone in front of him, shines bright yet so warm. His orbs widened.
"Seijuro…"
There standing, Kuroko. He smiled as he crouched down.
"Sei…I'm really glad that I was your partner"
"Because you are so kind"
"But kindness alone isn't enough"
"You have to become stronger or you will be overwhelmed by the guilt you have kept in your heart"
"My heart…I have lost it…but I'm searching for it" Akashi replied.
"No, Sei…It's right here. It belongs to yours only and don't run away…" Kuroko puts his palm on Akashi chest, right where his heart is. He smiled.
"What has happened was not your fault…Ryus' death…my death…it was never your fault…Sei"
"I was lying when I told myself I didn't have anything…it was easier to think that way…it was easier to hate my brother…I was escaping from reality all these while…" Akashi mumbles, upon realizing what he has done all these while.
Kuroko cupped Akashi cheeks with his warm palm. He smiled.
"Sei…I am never been happier than spending my lifetime with you…I am never been happier that you are the last person I see before I died…I love you…thank you for being there for me…" pearls of tears rolls down his cheeks as he slowly fades away.
"Where are you going, Tetsuya?" Akashi frantically tries to reach for him but he was too late.
"Goodbye…Sei" his voice echoes. Soft orbs disappear into the rain.
"AKASHI, WHERE ARE YOU?" several voices calling for him as it got closer and closer. He heard familiar voices approached him.
"Akashichii, what are you doing under the rain" Kise panicked as he quickly took off his jacket and wrapped it around the latter while Aomine covered both of them with an umbrella.
"We were worried for you; your mother called saying you disappeared!" Aomine looked at his former captain.
Is Tetsuya the only one who's happy about mine…?
No…not at all…
Aomine and Kise drove him home, where his parents wait for him. His mother is in tears, while his father hugged her, calming her down. Upon noticing Aomine car in the porch, they quickly get to their feet and went towards the car.
"Sei!"
"Where were you?"
"We thought you would kill yourself again" his mother cries.
Akashi expression was empty until he saw those tears of his worried mother and father.
She's crying…
Mum is crying because I disappeared…
"Mum…"
Tears rolls down, his parents were shocked. Both of them looked at him. His expression broke. Shine has returned to his empty crimson orbs.
"What did you say…?" his father tried to confirm it.
"What did you just said? 'Mum'?" his mother asked.
"Did you say 'Mum'?" she hopes for a miracle to happen.
"Mum…thank you for giving birth to me…" Akashi continued as he cried. His mother hugged him as she burst.
"You remembered us!" she cries.
"I'm sorry for making you worry…Dad" His father can only smiled as he pats Akashi head gently.
Aomine and Kise exchanged looks. Felt relieved after a long day.
I can say this for the first time…I am happy that I am alive.
End. Yep. That is how short this fiction is. Practically its about Seijuro blaming himself for the two deaths of those he loved. He locked himself away. Unable to find why he was alive.
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