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"What would you do if I abstracted tomorrow?" Pomni asks fearfully.
Jax turns to face her in the eye; his face is no longer the warm and playful one... it is almost soulless, empty, a fake facade only. Was he always like this? No. This is different; he is dissociating right now.
His eyes. His eyes scare Pomni the most; they are just like black holes...he seems to be just a shell right now.
"I'd move on...and probably forget about you," He answers. That's not true, it can't be.
Pomni looks at him, completely betrayed, then she turns around, looking at the gun she is holding tightly. Why? It was her? Did she do something wrong? Why, why, why, WHY?
"Okay..." Pomni takes a deep breath, trying to process everything that just happened. "Okay... I understand" No, she didn't understand. And she is so tired of trying to understand anything right now.
She looks at the gun again, sobbing, her eyes are now full of tears, tears of fear, of betrayal, of sadness and anger, so much anger.
Jax, from the beginning, had already been repenting of everything he had said and done to Pomni. He was so scared of losing another friend that he pushed away the only person who would be his friend now. That infuriates him so much, but he couldn't be so heartless not to mind his frien- no. His teammate. She would no longer be his friend.
"Hah..you can't take a silly joke?" He tries and fails again to ease the air.
Pomni could only fold herself into her knees on the floor, with the seductive gun being held by her engloved hands, and then turned around.
"Oh, I see, so you're finally going to do the right thing, Pom Pom, c'mon, shoot me!" Jax points his fingers to his head, but Pomni doesn't do anything; she just keeps staring at him.
"What? You're scared you'll hurt me?" That clicked something into Pomni's mind, he's right...They CAN feel pain, but only for a moment, a few minutes, a millisecond, perhaps? She didn't quite really know about how pain worked here. But she knew that the times that she got hurt were REALLY painful, but... not for too long. Nothing anyone couldn't handle.
She plans something.
"I will. not. Shoot you," She says to Jax, waiting for his answer that never came. "I will not shoot my friend just to win, I will not betray you, so... if you're not my friend, then shoot me."
"Ahh, Poms, I think you don't understand. I don't care about what you think, I don't care about this 'friend' stuff, i.couldn't.care.less.about.you. So stop this already and shoot me" That hit her, it's time to really know what he truly thinks, because she can't believe in anything of this bull--it he is saying right now.
"So you don't care, right?" Pomni stutters and trembles before doing what she is planning to do. "You know that we can feel pain, right? We just can't die. It means that if you don't shoot me right now, I'll suffer."
"What do you mean?" Jax answers, his smile slowly fading, not understanding what she is saying.
So she raises the gun to her stomach and keeps staring at Jax. His eyes widened, now understanding what she is willing to do.
"You know what I mean, you'll shoot me now before I shoot myself, avoiding my suffering, or you will shoot me after this. Your choice" She bargains with him. If he didn't care at all, why was he trembling? His smile turned into a frown. "I'm warning you, shoot me right now."
"Hah... I've already said that I don't care, you're so dumb to think that I'll fall for that-"
BANG
Pomni pulled the trigger before he could finish, her legs started to get numb, and she fell on the ground, whining in pain. Static was all she could hear right now; her eyes went blurry with her tears.
A deep bullet hole was opened on her stomach, and it's now leaking a black and glitchy liquid.
"POMNI, ARE YOU CRAZY? WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS?" Jax ran to her and knelt on the floor, holding her head still, to look at him
"S-shoot m-me" Pomni could gasp a few words; her breathing is shallow, and her stomach is leaking more and more every second.
"YOU'RE SICK, YOU KNOW THAT? " Jax yells, with anger, but mostly with concern, he wouldn't shoot her, he doesn't want to give in.
"I-It hurts, Ple-ase J-jax..." Jax then looks at her with tears in his eyes. If he shot her right now, she would be fine, but then his facade would fall; it would imply that he cares about her.
"Pomni..." He looks away, trying to find anything to stop the bleeding, not finding anything, he just presses her wound, maybe it was a terrible idea, she just starts to yell weakly in pain, and bursts into tears even more.
"Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God...Hold on a little more, please" Jax doesn't move his hands away from her wound; instead, he just holds it and tries to find the only help he could find: Caine. He hates to admit that, but he needs him right now.
But then he realises that calling for help would be much worse than just shooting her. In reality, caring for her was already worse; he couldn't fake it anymore.
"Pomni i" He then takes her gun that fell on the floor and points it at her head, ready to end her suffering
"I knew...you c-cared." Pomni then faints; he didn't even know this was possible to happen, then he finally closes his eyes and pulls the trigger.
BANG
He won the game...this wasn't supposed to happen, without thinking, he just pointed the gun at himself and
BANG
No one won the game at the end.
(For comfort, read below)
Pomni sees that Jax entered the loser's corner, and everyone looked at him.
The silence is LOUD, but then everyone gets teleported to the circus, and everything is back to normal. Except it isn't
Pomni looks at Jax, and he stares back; A faint smile appears on her face. She comes closer to him, but he doesn't get away from her.
"I knew you cared," Pomni looks deep in his eyes.
"That doesn't mean anything... I'm not a monster, and that's all." Jax scoffs and doesn't smile back; he is just nervous to say the least.
"If it were just a cartoon show, you'd let me there and keep smiling, but that wasn't what happened; you tried to help me, and got scared." She is right, that is undeniable. Jax holds his face and frowns even more. All of a sudden, Pomni is caught off guard.
"I know this is not just a show, right? And I care about you, you were... You were in pain; how could I just ignore a friend needing me?" That was unexpected.
"A friend, huh? So I was right after...whoah" - Jax interrupts her. He pulls Pomni closer to hug her, and he hugs Pomni so tightly that it makes her breathless.
"Just shut up! Shut up already....and never do such a thing again!" He demands.
She notices he is really crying, she doesn't talk back, but instead just hugs him back.
"I won't"