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Peter can’t sleep. He’s trying, he did all of the Things that you are supposed to do to fall asleep, but his stupid brain won’t shut up about how clearly he isn’t actually trans.
> “Rapid Onset Gender Dysphoria”
> “gender dysphoria outbreaks occurring in pre-existing friend groups”
> “83 percent were girls”
> “In the end, Rosa wasn’t ‘trans’. Her gender dysphoria was [...] a coping mechanism [for]
> anxiety and social isolation.”
> “[Between 70 and 90 percent of so-called ‘trans’ children will desist if everyone around
> them refuses to play into their emotional disturbance.]”
That’s stupid, he thinks. I didn’t start being trans when I got social media or queer friends. My dysphoria started slowly with puberty. It had. In the three years after he had become aware that a classmate was gender neutral (in the most non-ideological way possible, it was just “yeah so when we talk about his person it’s like this” and no one made a thing about it), as his chest and hips had started to get round and squishy and uncomfortably feminine, he had started to slowly become aware that he was actually somewhat uncomfortable with this whole ‘womanhood’ thing. And after a solid five years of quiet “uh, I don’t really care what pronouns people use for me” and not even purposeful wardrobe shifts to looser and darker clothes he realized that he wanted people to ‘mistake’ him for a boy more often. And the rest is history.
When he had been younger, and his body was the same as all the other kid’s bodies, he had preferred tight soft clothing for sensory reasons. Aunt May had told him he shouldn’t wear that, only one part of your outfit could be tight. Now she complains about his straight leg jeans and hoodies.
> The AAP repeatedly ignored requests for further medical investigation into the best practices
> for helping trans kids.
> Washington University Pediatric Transgender Center has a long history of medically abusing
> trans kids, ignoring the ethical requirement of informed consent of patient and guardian, and
> denying them mental health care.
> The Center actively avoiding tracking and reporting complications and scheduling follow-ups
> with its patients.
Why was the only one talking about this shit also calling trans people slurs and saying that toddlerhood and middle adulthood are the only times that “real” trans people figure shit out?
Add to that the existential crisis Peter’s having about the sick little twist of gratitude that he hadn’t come out and been shoved on a pipeline of medical intervention that he didn’t get consulted regarding at eight years old because either this medical doctor and many other doctors and scientists are lying through their teeth or starting puberty blockers before you go through at least the start of puberty is really bad for your body. Juvenile osteoporosis bad. Liver failure bad. Brain-never-reaches-adult-maturity bad. Permanent sterility bad. Hell, if AMAB people don’t go through the start of puberty their genitals don’t develop and they will never have proportional nether regions, never be able to orgasm, and they won’t be able to get a traditional vaginoplasty (bottom surgery) because the tissues are underdeveloped!
And fucking doctors don’t mention shit about this. And studies get blocked because apparently trying to ensure best outcomes for trans people would dock their Woke Points™. Why are people like this?! Why can’t trans people just get good, evidence based medical care that is at least decently affirming?!
Peter buries his face in his pillow and groans. He’s not getting to sleep any time soon.
…well if he’s awake and not wearing his binder he might as well go on patrol.