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Josh holds him close as he falls asleep, and once he does he decides to come back down to being human, not intending to wake Bee up for anything, not even when Ashley comes back from the bathroom. He just wants him to sleep soundly.
When Bee falls asleep he crawls into bed with Tyler in the mindspace, still wanting some kind of closeness.
"Hey, Bee. Fall asleep?" Tyler smiles as he makes room for his Tulpa.
"You bore him to sleep?" Halsey teases Josh quietly after she sees his eyes return to normal. She doesn't want to wake Blurry either. He's adorable when he's sleeping. Well, he's adorable when he isn't sleeping too.
Blurry nods tiredly as he snuggles up beside Tyler, wrapping his arms around him loosely. "You can take over if you want." He mumbles out after a bit, still feeling tired.
"Definitely," Josh kisses the sleeping Tulpa's head and carefully adjusts him so they can all be comfortable on the Queen size bed. "How do you shower if your legs turn into a tail in water?" Josh asks quietly. "Or is that part voluntary?"
Tyler brings an arm around his counterpart. "No, I'll let you be the one to wake up. Besides," he yawns. "Could go for a nap myself, after our performance today."
"I just sorta flop around until I deem myself clean." Halsey laughs quietly and rolls her eyes. "It's voluntary." She clarifies, in case Josh might've taken her seriously there. "I do definitely prefer baths to showers for that reason though." They aren't as good as being in open water, or a pool, but it's nice for when there isn't water around and she wants to relax.
"Mkay.." Blurry snuggles his face against Tyler's shoulder. "I'm gonna get some sleep." He announces tiredly.
Josh laughs at the mental image of her flopping around in the shower. "I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that mermaids are real. And you are one." He rubs Blurry's back gently. It's nice to have him close like this. He even keeps his scent when he's the one to fall asleep.
"Alright, Bee. Me too." Tyler snuggles with him gently as they soon fall asleep together.
"You do know another." Halsey says with a shrug. "It's not up to me to tell you who he is though, you'll just have to figure that one out yourself." She's always been good at respecting what others are and not sharing their secret. "And there's a lot of things besides mermaids out there."
"Yeah, no kidding," Josh smiles. "Vampires, Angels, Demons, Aliens, Werewolves.. It's kind of an amazing world once you really discover it." He keeps his voice quiet, not wanting to wake Blurry. This is the first time Bee's fallen asleep around him. He wants him to wake up around him, too. This might even be the first time Bee fell asleep instead of letting Tyler. It's very likely the first time Bee was out while falling asleep. Usually he turns in before Tyler and he ends up having Tyler take over while he's sleeping. But this is Bee totally asleep right there on his lap. Honestly could this day get better? Josh sighs a bit and holds Blurry close in his arms. "But I think my favorite crazy thing out there is this one," he says quietly, referring to the sleeping Tulpa. "Mermaids are cool and all, but he's cooler." Josh laughs quietly and kisses Blurry's head again, casually breathing in his scent.
"Ree is pretty cool." Halsey says with a smile. He definitely has a lot going on about him and Halsey wants to get to know him better. But they'll find time for that. The boys have roughly an hour before bus call now, and Halsey knows they should be on their way soon.
Josh watches whatever Hals puts on TV for about half an hour, intermingled with quiet conversation. But Blurry stirs which garners Josh's immediate focus as he makes sure he's still holding him close.Blurry's eyes flutter open for a moment before closing again and nuzzling against the warm kinda different feeling blanket. After a moment though it occurs to him that it's not a blanket, it's a Josh. He's still here. Blurry smiles a bit as he opens his eyes again, looking up at Josh with a happy warm smile. "You're still here.." Blurry still can't believe it.
"Of course I am," Josh laughs softly. He gives his head a gentle kiss and rubs his back a little. "Have a good nap, BF?"
Blurry nods, not wanting to get off of his lap. He's warm and comfy. "I love you, Joshie.." He mumbles out with another smile.
“Love you too.” Josh says, keeping the tulpa close. This is real. Blurry is here with him saying that he loves him. It's perfect. He can't help but to lean over and kiss him on his lips, needing some sort of outlet for all the emotions he’s feeling.
Blurry smiles against Josh's lips before kissing him back, his arms moving to hug him close as well. How is any of this real? Josh kissing him is still a foreign but wonderful experience.
"What'd I tell you two about being adorable around me." Halsey teases.
Josh laughs and turns to her. "I don't think you can steal both of us," he jokes. He kisses Blurry again before telling him they should leave in about 15, so if he wants to hang out with Hals he should do it now.
"I have my ways." She assures him with a laugh.
Blurry sits up and leans over to go give Halsey a tight hug. "Thanks for everything today, Ashy." He says with a smile. It's because of her that he and Josh are together now.
Halsey hugs him tight back and pulls, stealing him from Josh. "Warned ya about being cute," she laughs. "It was fun, Ree." She gives him a loud kiss on his cheek.
Blurry giggles and hugs her tighter. How could he have been scared about meeting her? She's so kind and wonderful. No wonder Josh gets along with her so well.
"Now you two better be goals as fuck, okay? Send me lots of pictures and update me on how you're doing and shit, I have my emotions invested in this relationship." She laughs as she lets go of Blurry, allowing him to return to Josh if he wants.
He can't help but to giggle again. "I'm sure Ty and Joshie will send you tons of pictures." He gives her another tight squeeze before releasing her as well and returning to Josh's side. "Is it time to go?" He asks, looking at the clock.
Josh frowns a bit. "Yeah, we better get going." He kisses Bee's cheek before standing up to collect their swim trunks and stuff.
"Hey," Halsey throws a pillow at Josh. "Keep me updated on that alien thing, okay?"
"I'll let you know if I find out more things about alien stuff." Josh assures her, tossing the pillow back at her. Blurry links his arm through Josh's, smiling at Halsey then at him. "We're good?"
Halsey snaps another picture of them because ugh so adorable before bidding them adieu.
Josh drives them back to their bus, but he keeps one hand interlaced with Blurry's the entire time. He looks over at him and smiles every now and again, too, just so happy it finally happened, so glad Blurry felt the same way. When he parks and hands the keys over to the rental guy, he turns to Blurry and gives him a light kiss.
"I hate this as much as you do, but Tyler needs to walk back to the bus in case of any fans." He gives his hand a light squeeze.
Blurry sighs quietly but nods. Even if he hid his markings, seeing fans would freak him out. He lets Tyler take over and they make it onto the bus without much of a hassle.
When they get back on, Mark gives a wave in greeting.
"Can I come back out?" Blurry asks.
"I'm gonna call Jenna first, then you can have your time alone with Jishwa." Tyler laughs as he takes out his phone to call his wife and let her know how his day went.
"How was swimming?" Mark asks as Josh plops himself down on the couch. Josh blushes a bit.
"Pretty awesome," he replies, a smile on his face. "I'm uh, not single anymore." He'll let Mark work that out in his head. He'll assume he's with Halsey, of course, and he'll be wrong. Which will be worth the laugh.
Mark studies him for a moment and smiles at him. "Was it you or Tyler who started it?"
Blurry laughs a bit at Mark's phrasing, having overheard. He's always amused by Mark calling him Tyler instead of Blurry or a variation of it.
Josh looks at him in confusion, and Mark just shrugs.
"It's pretty obvious to everyone how much you like him."
"Was it seriously that obvious to everyone but me and him?" Josh asks, completely blown away and now blushing pretty good.
Mark raises his eyebrows and nods slowly, exaggerating for physical sarcasm. "I honestly would have thought it'd happen sooner." Mark admits. "Thought you'd be nearly married by now."
Tyler says his goodbyes to Jenna and joins in on the conversation. "Let the children take it at their own pace." He teases.
"Tyyyyy..." Blurry whines, face getting a bit red.
Josh just shakes his head, brushing off the comment. "To answer your question, Halsey started it." He reaches a hand out to Tyler. "Now give me my boyfriend as promised."
"Nah I'm gonna keep him hostage for a while longer." Tyler grins.
"Tyyyyy!" Bee complains, whining some more.
"I'm kidding." Tyler laughs, letting Blurry come back out.
As soon as Blurry's black hand grabs Josh's, Josh pulls him crashing into his lap on the couch. "Hey, cutie." He kisses his cheek happily.
"Halsey started it?" Mark questions.
Blurry giggles a bit and hugs tight to him as the two of them explain their day with Halsey. They leave out the mermaid thing though, because that's just not his business.
"That sounds awesome," Mark says when Blurry's finished. "Still can't believe it took all that to get you two together." He laughs. "Too bad I can't post pictures of you, the fans would go absolutely insane."
Blurry laughs a bit hesitantly and nuzzles against Josh. The fans are nice and all, but they're still absolutely terrifying to Bee. The idea that they all think of him as some evil being plaguing Tyler, he doesn't like being portrayed in that way. Even though it technically is what he is, he thinks to himself.
"Should I leave you two alone? Or are you capable of ignoring me? I'm kind of in the mood to watch a movie, too." Mark asks before making himself particularly comfortable. He doesn't care if they kiss in front of him. He gets the feeling Tyler isn't all that handsy.
"I-I don't mind." Blurry likes Mark, he's nice. He was expecting alone time with Josh, but this is okay too. "What're we watching?" He asks Josh, but makes no effort to get off his lap for him to go and check.
"You're sure?" Mark asks, not wanting to pressure them into letting him stay.
"Whatever you want," Josh kisses his cheek. "Not that we have a ton of options," he laughs.
"It's fine, Marky!" Blurry insists. "I don't mind!" He smiles and kisses Josh's cheek in return before moving off his lap to thumb through their limited collection. With a bit of a smirk, he puts in High School Musical, a movie that one of the fans had given Tyler to point out the similarities between him and the main character.
"Bee why." Tyler sighs but laughs regardless. He's so cute.
Blurry hops back onto Josh's lap and snuggles close once again.
Josh pulls him good and close as the movie starts. "You're such a dork," he laughs.
"Alright cool, great choice," Mark says without a hint of sarcasm as he settles himself into the adjacent seat.
Blurry definitely focuses more on cuddling and snuggling with Josh more than the movie. He does end up quietly singing along to some of the songs though because HSM songs are so freakin catchy.
Mark does take the attention away from Josh a couple of times when Bee sings. "Wow Tyler, they're not kidding when they say you're Troy Bolton," he smiles. "You should do this show someday."
Josh laughs and kisses Blurry's cheek. "You have such a cute voice."
"My singing is just the same as Ty's, Joshie.." Blurry mumbles in embarrassment. He rubs his face against Josh's shoulder. It isn't any different than Tyler's, so the compliment is to both of them.
Josh noses his hair gently. "You sing different, BF." He kisses his head. "Because you're different. That's why I love you."
"It isn't different.." Bee insists quietly but doesn't want to argue with Josh so he doesn't push it.
The movie goes on for a while before Mark says he's gonna turn in early, leaving the alien and the Tulpa alone.
"Night, Marky!" Blurry calls after him.
"Night Tyler, Tyler, Josh." Mark heads to his bunk and Blurry snuggles close to Josh.
"Love you, Joshie.. Love you so much."
"I love you too, BF." Josh smiles and nuzzles their noses together before giving him a light kiss. Blurry is definitely different than Tyler. They act different, and are two totally different people, no matter what Blurry thinks. It's not that he doesn't love Tyler, but it's just different. He loves Blurry so much and just wants to keep kissing him.
Blurry kisses back, still new to this, new to the feeling, new to love, to kissing. He rests his head in Josh's neck and kisses him lightly there. "Why me, Joshua?" He asks quietly. He's not real, doesn't have his own body. It doesn't make sense to him, that Josh would even give it a chance.
"Because you're perfect, BF." Josh gives him another kiss. "You're kind, attractive, and I'm just so drawn to you." He smiles against Blurry's lips and kisses him once more, pouring more love into it.
Blurry kisses back as he blushes lightly, then he keeps their lips together. "But I'm not.. I don't have a body.."
"You do. You do right now, and when we were swimming earlier and you were a gorgeous mermaid." Josh says. "When you're in control, it's you, BF. Just because you have to borrow a body, it doesn't make it any less you."
"It.. Doesn't bother you..? That I could be in anyone's body..?" Blurry's brow creases. How could Josh love someone whose form is always changing? Who could look different every time they kiss? Wouldn't he want someone more stable than that..?
"Babe, I love you for you." He assures him. "Your always stunning looks are just an added bonus." Josh kisses him again, trying to make sure he knows he's loved. "And if you still want your own body, we can ask Patrick or Dallon to see if they would know any way for that to be possible."
Blurry gives it thought, but ends up shaking his head. "I don't.. Don't think I could handle having my own body like you or Ty.." It's a lot of work, and he wouldn't be a legal person, and he'd have to deal with social interactions all the time with no out, and just.. No thank you. "And if you swear it doesn't bother you.." Blurry pauses and then kisses Josh lovingly. "Then.. Then I guess I'm okay with this."
"I'm okay with this." Josh smiles against his lips, giving him another kiss. "You're perfect no matter who you look like."
"Th-thanks, Joshie.." Blurry nuzzles him gently and moves to rest his head on the alien's chest. Josh is too good to be true, but here he is. And he loves him. He doesn't understand how, but he loves him. And Blurry's almost 100% sure he loves him back. He's still a bit iffy on whether he knows how to love or not, but Tyler says he does and Josh seems to agree. So. This is good. He's pretty happy.
The movie ends after a bit, but neither of them want to go and turn off the tv, so it stays on the menu select screen for a while. The two of them just stay snuggled against each other, perfectly content being like this. Josh breaks the silence with a quiet, "I love you BF."
Blurry smiles at the sound, still totally amazed. He waits a little bit before responding. "I love you too, Joshie."
Josh gives him another kiss, just so happy and so in love. Blurry loves him too. It's amazing, it's wonderful, and he's so happy about that. "I love you." He repeats.
Bee giggles a little. "You already said that," he tells him quietly, then pecks him on the lips, snuggling close.
"I know." Josh smiles again and kisses him once more. "Just making sure you know that."
Tyler tells Bee that he's heading to sleep and to tell Josh goodnight from him. It's also an excuse so Blurry can feel more comfortable knowing he isn't being watched by Tyler.
"Alright, night Ty. I'll probably be there kinda soon." Bee sends him with a smile as he kisses Josh's cheek. "Ty says he's going to bed. I'm kinda tired too." They can fall asleep on the couch, he supposes. He doesn't really want to cram into a bunk with Josh. The couch is much more comfortable.
"Sleep well Tyler." Josh smiles and keeps Blurry close. "We can sleep out here, I'm sure no one will mind." He kisses his forehead, wanting to make sure he's comfortable here with him.
"You're comfortable here, Joshie? Wanna get anything? A pillow? Blanket?" Blurry asks with a small giggle, nuzzling into Josh's neck gently.
"You're plenty comfy." Josh laughs a bit and snuggles against him before reaching behind the couch as best as he can manage with Blurry on his lap, managing to find a blanket and wrapping themselves up in it. He gives him another kiss, so addicted to kissing him now that he can. Blurry and Josh snuggle together for a while, Josh turning off the TV. After a little while of comfortable silence, Josh gives Blurry a gentle kiss. "Earlier.. You said years, BF? You've loved me for years?" Josh asks, a smile playing on his face.
Blurry's face turns bright red as he slowly nods. "I-I mean... I think-I think it was love..." He mumbles quietly. "I knew you were, um, v-very important..."
Josh laughs quietly, pressing a kiss to the tulpa's cheek. "I wish I had known you sooner," he tells him. "It'll never be fair that you knew me before I knew you."
"You wouldn't have wanted to know me then." Blurry laughs hesitantly. "I was a whole lot worse then than I am now.." Before he officially met Tyler and Josh, he was constantly a miserable wreck. No one to talk to, nothing in the hut besides him and his own thoughts, which were never good.
"I would have helped, BF," Josh nuzzles him gently. "You know that. You're worth it all." He would have, too. Even if Blurry had been nothing like who he is now, he would have wanted to help him. Would have wanted to make him happy.
"I would've been beyond help, Joshie." Blurry nuzzles back against him, trying his best not to dwell on those lonely days of just watching Tyler live his life. Of just laying there on the bed, unable to feel anything besides bad. He couldn't even feel if the blanket was warm or scratchy or anything. "Everything before I met you guys just felt pointless.." Blurry sighs. "The only thing I could ever do to get Tyler to notice me was to have a panic attack, or be overly depressed, mixture of both. And I'm sure Tyler hated me for that." He buries his face against Josh's chest. "That you hated me for that..." He adds quietly. After all, it was him that was causing his best friend to have all of these issues.
"I couldn't have hated you, Blurry," Josh says softly. "We didn't know you were there. But we do now, and everything is better for it." Josh rubs his back gently and kisses the top of his head. "We love you. Tyler, and even Mark, in his own way. And me. Especially me. I love you so much, Blurry."
"But-but Ty gave me a name. He said I was the reason for everything bad he felt. How-how could you not hate me?" Blurry feels his heart beating a bit more, breathing quicker. No, no, not right now, not after a wonderful day like this... "You... You-you shouldn't love me or-or else I'm gonna cause b-bad things to happen to you too.."
"Hey, hey," Josh says quietly, keeping him close as he can. "You're okay, BF. You're not gonna make anything bad happen to me." He kisses his head gently. "You make me happy, Blurry, so happy." He talks as gently as he can, as genuine as he can. "You can always change your name if you want."
"But-but what if I do..." Blurry is already starting to fall off the edge, his mind going off the deep end. "I'm-I'm gonna hurt you..." Bee doesn't even consider changing his name. Tyler named him that and it's important.
"No, no," Josh coos softly, running a hand through his hair. "Baby, love, everything will be okay."
Blurry instinctively winces at the touch, shaking a bit. "J-Joshie, I'm gonna hurt you. I h-hurt Tyler all the time and-and if we're together that just means I'm gonna hurt you m-more..." Together. Why does Josh love him? There's nothing to love. Not a thing. Personality is crap, looks are subpar, what left is there? Josh doesn't really love him, does he…
Josh just holds him, keeps him close, rubbing his back gently. "Good thing I'm capable of healing, then, cause you're worth every scratch I get." He decides not to kiss him, he doesn't want to smother him when he's upset. "I love you. Nothing will change that."
Blurry shakes his head quickly. "I don't want to hurt you, Joshie... I-I'm a being made from everything bad, I shouldn't-I shouldn't even be here, I shouldn't be alive and-and-" He takes a shaky breath and buries his face against the closest thing, Josh's chest, as he starts crying. "You need b-better than me.."
Josh sighs quietly, keeping a hand on the back of Bee's head and also gently rubbing his back. "You should be alive, baby. You are alive, and my life is so much better for it. If you're bad, then I don't want any good." He switches on his alien side, thinking maybe BF would benefit from hearing some Symphonic.
"But-but you need good, Joshie.." Blurry's face stays against his chest, unaware of his change. His breathing is erratic, heart beating fast. "I'm not good. I'm not any good for you or-or anyone else. I don't have a p-purpose being out here like this and I shouldn't have ever b-been able to take control of Ty like this." His hands grip at Josh's shirt. "Ty's missing p-parts of his life because I'm taking over... L-like a parasite or something. I-I shouldn't be here Joshie I don't b-belong out here..."
"BF, shh, it's okay. Tyler wouldn't.. He wouldn't let you take his time away if he really wanted it. He loves you, baby. You deserve all the good in the world." Josh sighs softly and kisses the top of Blurry's head, sending him, "I love you so much."
"T-Ty's just trying to be nice..." Blurry mumbles, wiping his face against his chest to try and stop crying. They don't really like him... He's just a hassle, a problem that they just have to take care of. The only reason he isn't dead yet is because he's still part of Tyler's head, and him dying could cause problems for Tyler... That's the only reason. And they only try to keep him happy so he'll have less panic attacks and stop hurting Ty. That's all that this is... They-they don't actually care... Blurry's mood plummets downward quickly at his own thoughts, releasing his grip on Josh and just sitting there on his lap with his face against his chest. They don't care... So why should he? His head stays put but otherwise he’s just leaning against him. Why would any of them actually care about him? There's no reason for them to.
Josh frowns when Blurry lets go of him. "Blurry..?" His voice almost cracks. Josh can't help him, he can't fix him. "Baby, please.." He brushes his fingers through his hair gently, kissing the top of his head and sending him gentle Symphonic "I love you"s.
Blurry doesn't have much of a reaction to his attempts, staying still against him. When he hears the Symphonic again, he takes a deep breath. Does Josh really mean that? He keeps sending it, but does he mean it? Bee can hear all the emotion behind it, and he squeezes his eyes shut. No... Josh is just trying to get him to trust him. That-that should be a good thing shouldn't it? Trusting someone you're in love with? It's scary though. What if Josh really doesn't like him? He's basically given him his heart. What if Josh decides to crush it? He has the power to do that anytime he wants... "J-Josh... I'm scared." He manages to say quietly after a while, but doesn't hold onto him yet. "L-love is scary..." Josh could just say a few words and he'll either be elated or destroyed. He has so much power over him, it's terrifying. Josh affects him so much. If Josh really doesn't like him, then... Blurry wouldn't know what to do with himself.
Josh swallows loudly, taking a deep breath and then exhaling slowly. "Love is scary," Josh sends him, a musical echo of what Blurry said. Because he agrees. Completely. "But I trust you." Josh has given him his entire heart, Blurry holds the same power Josh does. He repeats himself, once simply, omitting anything that might impede Blurry's translation, and then a second time, adding in all of his emotion, his fear, his worry, and most importantly his love. "I trust you."
Blurry manages to look at Josh at hearing it a second time, feeling all the emotions behind it. "I'm-I'm going to end up breaking that trust..." Bee has absolutely no faith in himself. He knows he's going to end up doing something to ruin it all. If not today, then sometime down the road. His arms hang loosely at his sides, just feeling totally depressed still. Josh should back out before he gets too far. If it's less than a day it doesn't count right? Something like that? For his own good and safety, he needs someone other than himself, Blurry thinks, burying his face against his chest again.
Josh shakes his head in disagreement. He kisses the top of his head gently, sending, "do you love me?"
"Of course I do..." Blurry mumbles out. And isn't that the problem? Someone who isn't even supposed to exist shouldn't be able to love someone. Someone who was made of all negative personalities shouldn't be able to love someone. Blurry has no idea what to do. It's new, it's both terrifying and amazing.
"Are you sure?" Josh pries, wanting to help him realize what love means. That there's risk, but there's also joy. Josh loves him. And if Blurry can understand that he loves Josh, maybe he'll see that the benefits outweigh the risk.
Blurry nods slowly. "I love you a lot, Josh.." It doesn't change that it's still a scary concept. Trusting someone wholly, going to them for help, giving them your heart and hoping they don't crush it... It's terrifying. But, being able to be close, to have someone to laugh with, someone to be there to catch you when you fall...
Blurry takes a shaky breath.
"I trust you, Joshua..."
Josh rubs his back gently, kissing the top of his head once more to send, "I won't let you down." He means it. He loves him. If it ever ends, it'll be on Blurry's part, never Josh's. He couldn't betray his trust like that. Ever.
"I know you won't..." Blurry knows he'll end up being the one to let Josh down first. But, for now, Blurry takes another breath to keep calm, giving Josh a gentle kiss, sort of to seal the deal. He does trust Josh. A whole lot. He's always trusted Josh.
"You'll stay with me?" Josh asks, kissing gently back before holding him close. He's bordering the edge of not understanding English, but the focus is worth it if it helps soothe Blurry.
Blurry nods again and holds tightly onto him once again. "Always." He closes his eyes and sighs quietly. "Always, Joshie..." Remembering how the phrase sounded, Blurry attempts to hum the 'I love you' in Symphonic, knowing it's probably so far off and not close to the phrase at all. Probably isn't even Symphonic. But he gives it a shot, hoping that Josh can get the message even if it is just single toned opposed to the wonderful sounds of Symphonic.
Josh laughs quietly when he hears Blurry's hum. It's so beautiful, in a very childlike way. "I love you too, beautiful." He sends him, letting him know he got the message. It wasn't quite symphonic, but it's a step in the right direction, and Josh knew at once what it was. Blurry's so wonderful.
Blurry smiles a bit and manages to relax some against Josh. At least he got what he was trying to say. He closes his eyes and pulls the blanket tighter around themselves. "Thank you, Josh..." He isn't sure how much English Josh can understand right now, but seeing as Symphonic is still pretty far away, that's the most he can do. He kisses Josh again, keeping his lips against his as he can't help but just keep kissing him. Josh is so nice to him. Too nice to him.
Josh warmly kisses back, glad to see Blurry's feeling better. "Always," he sends softly. "I love you always." He gets comfortable with Blurry wrapping himself around him once more, keeping his eyes closed as they rest for a bit, lip to lip, kissing until Blurry wants to stop. "Human for sleep?" Josh asks.
"Mm.." Blurry shakes his head before kissing him some more. It's easy to fall asleep to alien Josh. He knows that means Josh will have a longer time to come down from it later, but most of tomorrow is going to be spent driving anyway so Blurry isn't too worried about that causing an issue. He keeps his arms wrapped around him, part of him just wanting to stay awake kissing him over and over. It's very hard to ignore that part. But he knows that they're going to need to get some sleep.
Josh kisses him back, he always will. "Love you, Blurryface," he sends. "So very much." He wraps his arms tight around him, and when Blurry finally rests his head on his chest to sleep, he kisses the top of his head and purrs quietly.
"Love you..." Blurry mumbles out, eyes closed as he listens to Josh's purring and heartbeat. Listens to his boyfriend. His. Boyfriend. Blurry smiles a bit and snuggles closer. He's all his now. Always.
It doesn't take long for Bee to end up falling asleep, totally asleep, Josh's arms holding him safe and sound. It'll be okay.