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Last night stratt brought the strongest alcohol she could find. We talked…we drank…we might have fucked i dont recall. I told her about meeting the…past me i guess? I tell her about whats going to happen….i beg her to lie to my brothers…tell them i died but do not tell them this. Tell them rocky just wanted revenge
Tell them i killed myself on board
Tell them whatever she wants but do not tell them the truth.
She agrees. I do remember that.
So now I'm standing in a field with nothing around me. There's nothing to have anymore. I should be scared but…i think its ok. It has to be ok because if its not then it will have been for nothing. I see blip A right outside my atmosphere and a smaller ship descend. Upon the landing on the earth two figures walk out
Rocky
adrian
I look at rocky in his suit with adrian right behind him. I dont say anything at first, i know i look like hell. Rocky takes a step forward and i dont react. I finally speak “...i talked to him….the me before me now…..i talked to him” i said. Rocky and adrian dont seem surprised. “...did you know?” i asked. Adrian speaks up first “...we….suspected he figured something out….his attendant admitted what he asked of them the night before he died.” adrian spoke her voice warbling slightly
“.........then you know what youve done to me…and what will be done to me” i whisper back.
Both are silent before they nod “....grace is still…grace…but sacrifices must be made to ensure grace stays…stays with mates…stays with us” rocky finally says
I am silent for what can i say at this point. There is nothing to say anymore. They have made their choice and so have i. “.......your cruel you know” i whisper walking to them and towards the ship. “.....we know…but all we have done is for grace…all we have done is for you” adrian whispers before pushing me onto the ship and the last view of earth i get is of stratt standing and guards holding my brother back. Its…anticlimactic in a way
They move me to anew chamber and seal it once inside. The room is padded head to toy and there is a fox blanket in red with
I sit in the chamber and wait, i think to all thats been done and all that will be lost. I…im scared to die…is this even death for me? The other me…hes going to be in control…and i…i will be a lost mess of memories and emotions…i wont exist…and i am so so scared.
I hear the wail of the tear back to their world…and i am so scared….i dont want to die…or quantum collapse as..past me put it?...but i also dont have a choice…my body is made for eriden life….my mind is too tired to fight…and I know I only have a few seconds left in me before the inevitable happens. Yet…i can not blame them…they have broken death and time just to bring me home and i can not blame them./…maybe im fucked up for thinking that.
The world is getting fuzzy and there is an insane pressure in my head. I feel my memories blurr and merge….with an unknown set…as though ive lived a different life entirely. And then everything fades to black.
“Is he awake?”
“Be patient song the process is finishing and it takes time!”
“But hes so still! Hes been still for days!!”
“And he can keep being still for a bit longer…i already hear his heartbeat changing. Hes waking up love” chirped a familiar blue rock
Blue….adrian….my mind supplies me as i open my eyes. I look around and see my old room in the dome. The walls and floor have faded a bit but its still there. My brain remembers it all….growing old and dying…growing with a twin brother i dont know ... .the deaths…the blood…the love….
I slowly sit up and the singing stops, my skin is still soft…but theres a shell to it. I can see silhouettes in the corner of my eyes that are beyond my vision. But most of all i feel this pressure…this grief…that both belongs to me and dosent…i look over to see rocky and adrian
My mates
My monsters
My friends?
I know whats been done and i know i will grieve….but i cant say anything else beside
“...good morning you two…waiting for long?”